So its been about 6 weeks without any meds. The herbals seem to be enough. Maybe I don't even really need them. I hav'nt crashed yet. We'll see. I know 2 people who's boyfriends just broke up with them. I love mine so much.. I really hope it doesn"t happen to me too. I can't help but get freaked out by stuff like that.
Theres stuff I just can't seem to get out of my head though. Like especially this girl my boyfriend was friends with. Don't think they talk that much anymore but she lives with his sis now. He has mentioned her a few times here and there even though I told him I was never really friends with her. When I met him I even though they were dating. He just said they were good friends. When we were talking bout our hist. He said he had had sex with a good friend in the past. Well I just keep wondering if it was her or whoelse it could have been, did they have soething going on? But she just had a kid so why should I be worried right? Its awkward cuz I had almost gotten with her right b4 I met him. It didn;t work out. We just made out at a party. So I admit I feel jelous. Jelous cuz he might like her, cuz she might have gone for him but not me, cuz I've had other guy friends who have liked her, and cuz shes gotten with guys I had a crush on before. I think if I didn't think she was hot it wouldn't bother me as much. i wish it didn't> Maybe I just always need someone to focus on. I'm always jelous of someone and insecure over something. Seriously. I bet as soon I get ove rthis I'll be obsessing over something new. I'll just replace it. I hate it. I wan't to ask him if they were together if he mentions her again. I'm not so sure I want to know though. It would take this wondering away but do I really want to know the answer? Oh, I don;t know what to do about this.
Theres stuff I just can't seem to get out of my head though. Like especially this girl my boyfriend was friends with. Don't think they talk that much anymore but she lives with his sis now. He has mentioned her a few times here and there even though I told him I was never really friends with her. When I met him I even though they were dating. He just said they were good friends. When we were talking bout our hist. He said he had had sex with a good friend in the past. Well I just keep wondering if it was her or whoelse it could have been, did they have soething going on? But she just had a kid so why should I be worried right? Its awkward cuz I had almost gotten with her right b4 I met him. It didn;t work out. We just made out at a party. So I admit I feel jelous. Jelous cuz he might like her, cuz she might have gone for him but not me, cuz I've had other guy friends who have liked her, and cuz shes gotten with guys I had a crush on before. I think if I didn't think she was hot it wouldn't bother me as much. i wish it didn't> Maybe I just always need someone to focus on. I'm always jelous of someone and insecure over something. Seriously. I bet as soon I get ove rthis I'll be obsessing over something new. I'll just replace it. I hate it. I wan't to ask him if they were together if he mentions her again. I'm not so sure I want to know though. It would take this wondering away but do I really want to know the answer? Oh, I don;t know what to do about this.