Out Picking Wildflowers ...

You know people, including some friends are being to worry me.... I am all about having faith, believing in something, however the resent increase of friends of mine that have suddenly found "God" has me a bit concerned, mainly because their reasons for finding "God" ... I am glad you like Duck Dynasty it is a funny show, that doesn't mean suddenly grow a beard and find god. Nor does your belief that gay marriage is wrong, so you have gone and join a church to show support for traditional values is a great reason... I have had a baby so now I am going to church so I can raise my child right.  Or my all time favorite and the one I am seeing the most of especially on facebook... My life is not going the way I want it to, so I have found God so pray for me so my life will improve... WHY?? why do you think that is how it works???  And one of the reasons this is bothering me sooo much is because these people have found faith, and I am happy for the regardless of their reasons. But that does not mean I suddenly need my soul saved, nor Do I need prayed for, nor does it mean you can tag me in your anti gay marriage, anti witch, anti gun control posts. Nor do I want you posting this stuff on my facebook... to be exact why not just exclude me from those posts... you can do that :)  I am happy  being who I am, I am happy in my beliefs... I do not shove my beliefs down your throat, stop shoving yours down mine...

I suppose the other reason it bothers me so much is these people have found "God" and yet they have become mean and narrow minded.It is almost like, due to finding "God" it is a now their right to post anti everything but their beliefs no matter how horrible it is. Not to mention just plain rude. I suppose one of the reasons it is making me crazy is because these are intelligent open minded people that have suddenly drank the Kool aide and have turned into insane, anti government,. they are coming to get my guns,.. Obama is bad, gay people are ruining marriage, God loving, conspiracy theory, pray for me and my family so I can pay my bills this month, crazy people...  I have no words....  however I have started to delete friends off of my facebook page... removed them from my news feed :)  The one thing about this that I am noticing, the worst things get here in America the more people are finding God, which is okay, I do believe everyone needs faith, however once they have found God they become part of the problem. Being mean, and horrible to others that do not fit into your belief is not the point of having faith.

Yes I get the fact things are bad these days, jobs are far and few, money is tight, food prices keep rising, and everyone seems to work harder than they ever have for very little pay. Most break even, some find they have had to cut back. People are angry with our government who seem to spend more time agreeing to disagree then go on their vacations leaving nothing done. It is very easy to blame the president, however congress and the senate are more to blame along with our companies here in the states that have close their factories and moved jobs over seas so they can make a bigger profit. We do nothing about these things, yet we are so quick to turn on our friends and neighbors who are not drinking the Kool Aide. No wonder things are falling apart...

My thoughts are...
Find faith for the right reasons
start a garden
change starts in your community, so get involved...
And realize just because some one believes differently from you, does mean they are ruining your life, they want the same things, happiness...

I suck at time management... I seriously suck at it..i think my biggest problem is the whole entire time I am doing something I feel that I should be doing something else. Or I attempt to figure out what needs to be doing and my list ends up so long it is overwhelming. I am annoyed with the whole thing, yet I have to do something about it because at this current moment I feel like I am drowning under everything I am in need of doing daily. between house work, cooking, work, working out, etc etc 
Drowning, and it sucks... I sorta lost it last night  because I spent my entire day minus the hour I was on here cleaning the house, which I didn't even get everything done... Never even came close to touching the sewing. Not to mention it was my day off... Which doesn't seem like my day off because I spent it cleaning, it is almost like work never ends for me... I clean here at the house, do laundry, etc etc go to work and do laundry, iron and clean at work, just to come home and clean the kitchen ( which was clean when I left to work) and cook dinner and clean up the kitchen after dinner... 

I am tired of it....  

So it is 7am
I have to clean the bathroom, 
put away the laundry
sweep and straighten the up stairs
figure out dinner and possibly start it
clean out the refrig 
sew ( which of course will not happen) 
go to work for 4 hours
come home finish making dinner
clean up after dinner
 and some where in there I am suppose to work out... 

I almost feel like I should just give up on my hobby's, which sucks because I need to make myself some clothes, I really want to make a coat for myself. When you can't find the clothes you wish to wear you have to make them. My fashion sense borders on retro. Trying to find retro is impossible unless I feel the need to spend a lot of money I don't have ( it is amazing when it is actually cheaper to buy fabric and make it your self then to just buy the clothes).  Hell last night I was way to tired to even wet set pin curls for my hair. This is ridiculous...  I have been sewing a apron for 3 months now, I have yet to even sew a stitch,. the further-est I  have gotten on it was pinning the pattern. 

Then I start to think about how I want  to make my own yogurt  cheese, bread and other things from scratch. I have a knitting project I have been working on for over two months now... I sorta wanna scream and some where in all this i am suppose to work on starting my own business, finish the photo project i started back in July, the ancestry project I started last January, and the recipe book project I started last may. Not to mention, yard work, the garden and then this fall canning, drying and freezing the stuff from the garden... 

Maybe I should give up sleep... 
My lists are not helping me at the moment, if anything my daily to do list are mocking me...     

So I am going to get off of here finish my cup of coffee, think about all the friends I do not see and attempt to get some stuff done before I have to get ready and go to work... 

I am not sure about all my other friends but I am freezing this morning. Cold weather, mixed with rain an the wonderful threat of snow later today, doesn't have me very thrilled. I believe that this is the sorta of day that you stay at home, under the covers snuggling with your favorite book or person : )

Sadly neither of these is on my agenda seeing that I have to go to work in about an hour or so. C' est Le Vie...

Anyhow, last night Brandee, who at the time was not feeling so well, decided that she wanted something sweet, mainly Cinnabites from McD's. Neither myself or my other half was willing to go out in the weather, and might have also had something to do with it being around 9pm. So I decided that we would find a way to make our own Cinnabites, Turns out there is a way and it is pretty quick, easy, rather delicious and something that kids will love... Even better they are rather healthy seeing that McD's cinnabites are deep fried, these are baked : )

Enjoy!



Cinnabites

• 1 1/3 cups of flour all purpose
• 1 cup of crispy rice cereal, crushed
• 2 tables spoons plus 1/2 cup divided
• 3 teaspoons of baking powder
• 1/2 teaspoon of salt (optional)
• 1/4 cup of butter flavored crisco ( I use less than this about 3 teaspoons)
• 1/3 cup of milk
• 1 teaspoon of cinnamon
• 1/4 cup of melted butter

, Pre heat the oven to 425 degrees.
mix flour, cereal, 2 teaspoons of sugar, baking powder, and salt together in a bowl.
Cut in the shorting, mix well, it is going to look like corn meal.
Addmilk a little at a time until moisten.
Roll dough into 1 inch balls.
Mix cinnamon and sugar together, drop the balls into the butter and then roll in the cinnamon/sugar mixture.
Place on a greased cookie sheet. repeat until all the dough balls are coated and on the cookie sheet

Bake in the oven for 1o to 15 mins, check them by sticking them with  a tooth pick, if the tooth pick comes out clean them they are done.

serve warm with cream cheese icing for dipping.

Cream Cheese icing

• 1 package of soften cream cheese
• 1/2 stick of butter soften
• 1 cup of powdered sugar
• 1 teaspoon of vanilla

in a mixer or bowl place the cream cheese, butter and vanilla, mix until well blended, add powder sugar in small amounts keep mixing until well blended. If the icing gets to thick, add small amounts of milk, no more than a tablespoon at a time until icing is thinned a bit.

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off to run errands ...
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I have no words for this....

So here it is, January 1st 2012, just slightly after 9am , So lovelies what are you all doing?  lol  I am currently sitting in my kitchen with my beloved cup of coffee, musing over the story I have been working on for the last couple of days, and contemplating what the new year will bring. I am not a pessimist, I feel it is pointless to be one, though I am just like any one else have my random moments of "FML"... But over all, not much of a pessimist. I am more of a silver lining girl, : )  I find I am able to find them in the oddest of places. Always going to be a silver lining, even in the dark. just have to look harder.  So I have high hopes for the new year, not to many, because that would be just stupid, but I do have a good outlook, at least on my life, not to sure about the rest of the world, but at least for my self and my friends, I think things will be good. I have given up on the rest of the world, and I keep my good out look for just myself and my friends. The rest of the world seems pretty hell bent on being the annoying,sloppy drunk girl, who has removed all of her clothes and is dancing on the table at a party, screaming "how fuckin drunk am I!" 
Yes that is my actual opinion of the world... even the prettiest girl at the party become extremely un attractive once she is sloppy drunk.

I am not one for resolutions, I personally think that they are sorta stupid. But I do have a small list of things I would like to accomplish this year, my own personal bucket list for 2012. I suppose they are more like goals,some may even call them resolutions, I don't view them as resolutions..

• Cut back on our carbon foot print, yeah, I know what your thinking, but it;s not that, I just want to see if we can cut back on the amount of garbage we actually send off to the dump. It is something we had talked about often but we never had the space for, well now we do. so I want to set up a system and see if we can actually fix it were we recycle, as much as possible.  The biggest thing is us actually doing it.. lol
• Our little emergency plan and supplies, yeah, the crazy talk again, but hell why not. right? anyhow I want to have it all figured out...
• my garden, I want to actually plan out and do a garden this year, and make it work, now I have the space, the water, and I have the space for canning for once.
• writing, one of those little side things I like like to do, I have about 4 or 5 stories I would like to finish. Then I think I may attempt to submit them, hell why not, most who read them love them...
• finish writing my business plan, and file for my LLC.
• not kill anyone over the next two weeks, while I quit smoking, tomorrow is the day, yeah, gonna be interesting.
• by the time May comes around, not want to kill myself or anyone else when I go to buy a new swim suit. lol yeah, not so much a lose weight type of thing as much as a I already work out but lets get on a schedule so it actually does me some good, that and I really would like to tone up lose the weight, be able to be happy when I look in the mirror : )P
• Before spring have all the photo's in the photo box scanned in and sorted.

So those are a few of my things off my little bucket list. all completely do able, and well I have no excuses, to not do any of it. After all it is just getting motivated to do these things.

So we went out last night, a friend of ours from up north came down to join us, we all brought the New Year in at the Smiling Skull, which I have to say was more than amusing and fun!  Definitely something i will not forget anytime soon.. The owner of the Skull is a wonderful old biker. At one point last night, I was laughing so hard I had tears in my eyes. It is definitely something to behold, when you have an Gunny, look at some one and ask, can I lick you head? not something you would expect to hear out of a marines mouth.

So the New Year was brought in with a lot of laughter... I hope that says something for the coming year.

Peace

It is that time of year again, that inevitable time where you look back on the past 12 months and realize that damn it went by fast.... then you slowly realize everything that you planned on doing over the past 12 months, just never happened for one reason or another... it is always that way. Which is why I always felt resolutions were the stupidest  thing, yes the good intention is there, does it happen not normally, then at the end of the year you look back on it and feel crappy about yourself.. and in turn make new resolutions to do better the following year only to feel the same let down all over again 12 months later. I read last year that only about 4% of the population actually keep their new years resolutions for about 6 months, it decreases from there... see resolutions are dumb... a sure fire way to make yourself miserable 12 months later. 

every new years eve I make one promise to myself, be happy... that is it, I promise myself that I will do everything I can in the coming year to be happy.. I don't do resolutions... The other thing I do every new year is I find 12 things that I will let go of from my life, things that make me miserable, one for each month, and it doesn't have to be physical, it can be anything, like my dislike for something that happened, anger at a friend, etc etc ... I write it all down and burn it at midnight. Then I promise myself that I will be happy, happy in my life and my choices... Regret is a horrible thing, I do my best to live with out it. Life is way to short to have that much crap keeping you from enjoying life.

So here we are and the end of the year is right around the corner, but this  coming year feels a bit strange and different from past years, I have had a weird feeling that I have not been able to shake all year long, something is going to happen type of feeling, and not a good one. In truth it has been rather bothersome, this coming year is going to be strange, I know this, why ? not sure but I do know it is going to be a strange one, does it have anything to do with it being 2012, a little but that is more of a i am not concerned with the world ending but you have a hell of a lot of people that are convinced it is, then you have the large portion of the population that is happy that it is ending because they believe it to be the rapture and they get to go live in heaven... I can't tell you how many facebook post I have seen talking about this, So it being 2012 does not bother me, nor does the ending of the Mayan calendar bother me, I am intelligent enough to know that the reason the calender ends is because it is a star calender and well the stars are going to be sitting at the same places they were when the Mayans made their calender, it is just resetting it's self. If I had a dime for every time a person, civilization, or profit said the world was going to come to an end I would be living on a private island. What I can tell you is, this year is going to be a strange one because of all the world is going to end come December 21st/ 22nd of 2012 and you have a whole shit load of people that believe this... you know what that means, you have a whole shit load of people that are going to be scary crazy because they thing they are going to die come the end of the year... that is a recipe for disaster... People do really dumb things when they believe something is bad is going to happen, see the stupid-ness of Y2K... I didn't go out that year for new years not because I was worried the world was going to be plunged into darkness and all the nukes were going to suddenly launch, no I didn't go out because of all the crazy people that were partying like it was their last night on earth...

The other reason I think this coming year is going to be a weird one is because of politics.. lets face it the shit that keeps going on in Washington is enough to make anyone worry.  Mix that garbage the politicians keep feeding us, with a population of people that realize they are getting completely screwed, with a dash of Occupy movement, wrapped up in the issue that the world economy is going to hell and foreign governments being taken over by people who are sick to death of being screwed are on a rise( hello Egypt)... yeah that is a nice box of we are so screwed... With the pull of out Iraq, yes I know we are happy the war is over, but in truth I give it 6 mons before Iran rolls in and takes over, the death of crazy Kim in North Korea, and of course the on going war between religions let face it, most of the wars are over religion we live in some pretty unstable times...

Then on top of everything else that has been happening, there is the weather change, places that normally get rain, had none, places that don't normally see rain has had too much, floods, earth quakes, snow vs no snow, temperature well above normal is some places and in others well they are getting a taste of cold weather that they have not had in ages.. what does this have to do with everything else, well when the weather gets screwed up, crops don't do well and then we end up with the dreaded food shortages, on top of all the  other bullshit that is happening in the world..  People go to war over religion, just imagine what they will do over food, and water??? I personally don't even want to think about it..

Then you throw in the human factor, we have lots of issues there, compared to 20 - 30 yrs ago, we are not very kind to each other. The lines have definitely been drawn in the sand between the have and have not's and in truth no one really cares. We have become a race of "me". It is all about Me.. we are excessively rude, inconsiderate, uncaring, and pretty much only give a damn if they are getting something out of it.. I read an article yesterday about movie stars, and how far above reality they live compared to the rest of us. It kind of made me ill, diamond encrusted seat belt buckles, $7000.00 dollars to have diamond and ruby's facial scrub ( serious I thought it was bullshit too until I looked it up, suppose to make your face glow lol ) Do you know what $7000.00 dollars could do for a camp like Camp O'Bannon? or a food bank? Woman's shelter, foster group home? yeah... mind blowing... do these people donate of course they do, makes for a great tax shelter. oh but wait most of these people are tax exempt due to how much money they make.. hurts the head... They said on the news yesterday the average family in the U.S. paid around $4,114.00 on gas this past year, that ends up being about 9% of their monthly income, around $380.00 a month. mind you that is based on two cars, that is not including families  with large trucks or a 3 rd car due to a teen driver. So the real world vs the world of the rich there is a huge gap,
It bothers me that people are so quick to say that those with no job, are lazy, am I going to say there are people out there that just don't work because they are lazy, yeah there I have met some people like that. However when I see entire towns devastated, because the factory that employs over half the town gets closed, then there is no work to be found, don't call these people lazy, they liked their jobs, it is not their fault the company moved production overseas for cheaper labor.. Where are these people suppose to work? hmmm ? when the factory closes then it effects the rest of the business in the town, if you don't have people making money they can't spend money.. vicious circle that no one in the government or with in these companies seems to conceptualize. Then they all whine about the slow economy.. wow really, it does take a rocket scientist to see the pattern, why can't they ? We don't make anything any more, we are nothing but consumers, you can't make a country run that way.But everyone want the big money jobs, little work large pay... no one understands a day of hard work... well once we no longer have migrant works picking the foods in our fields and lettuce goes up to $6.00 a head we will see what happens then.

We don't make anything anymore, we don't do for ourselves, those that want to change things, are called crazy and radical.. what is wrong with solar power, nothing, but the oil & electric companies won't make any money off of it.. so there for it is crazy and wrong.. along with all the other stuff that seems so simple but there are people in politics that can give you a half a dozen reasons why we can't, and not a single one of those reasons is actually valid. The average American spends more time socializing on the computer or cell phone, people actually break up via face book, not a phone call, not a lets sit down and talk about it, they just change their relationship status. Crazy... 

So yes I think this coming year is going to be strange, we have  uber  religious candidates running to be president, ie Rick Perry... we have a country of people that longer no how to help themselves, a huge gap in the economy, there is no middle class, any one tells you different they are crazy. weird ass weather, world issues and economical issues, and religious issues, topped off with a good portion of the world population that believes for one reason or another the world is going to come to an end in December of 2012... yep... gonna be a weird ass year.

So what does one do when faced with all of this?, Pour themselves a glass of wine and hope for the best, sadly it is the only thing I can think of doing. Which kinda makes me giggle, think about it.. when my children's children ( which there are none of those yet thank god) ask me what was I doing when the society blew up in our faces, I get to tell them I was drinking a glass of wine when it happen. Possibly homemade wine lol. I have spent a good portion of my life learning how to do completely stupid things according to most of my actual family, cook from scratch on an open fire, make my own yarn, and thread, sew my own clothes, grow my own food, make cheese, wine, beer and bread. Learn what herbal remedies work, make my own soap, and cleaning solutions.. maybe I am not so crazy as my actual family thinks I am... LOL ..  Kinda makes you wonder. . . I have my beliefs, yes I am of the old world religion, but I am finding more and more everyday, that my beliefs are solid... brings me balance and a happy place... So here's to 2012, and all the weirdness it could possibly hold for us all. hopefully it is going to be a quiet, unassuming year, full of everyday boring stuff and ending with a quiet, nothing bad happens bang... and 2013 comes to us just as quiet... I really hope that is what happens, I look forward to my weird feeling being nothing more than just a feeling...

I am not going to lie and say that I am just going to sit here and wait to see what is going to happen, no I am not one of those people nor is my other half, are we crazy& radical? no we are not that either, are we going to have bug out bags, food and water supplies, along with other survival readiness stuff stored away?, sadly yes, not because the world is going to end, but because people are a little crazy when faced with that possibility.  I rather be safe than sorry. Does it kinda make me feel like I have joined the tin foil hat people?, slightly and I find myself a bit resentful of it. I don't like the feeling it gives me, but I rather feel a bit nuts than find myself in a jam come December of 2012... that would suck lol... But it does leave me with vision of every bad the world is ending movie in my head. lol.. that is kinda of funny if you think about it...

So I know I keep telling my friends that I will post pictures of the new house soon, apparently my version of soon is a very long time seeing that we have now been living in the house for 4 months now. However that is going to change with this post because I am going to post some pictures : )

So a few cool things about the house, it is a 1933 Sears and Roebuck kit home, and for those of you that have no freakin clue what the hell I am talking about...

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The other cool thing about the house is we still have the original coal furnace and all of it awesome, huge ass, creepiness still sitting in the basement. It looks like something right out of a horror movie. On the outside of the house there is a cute little door that says coal on it and it is the shoot that leads to the coal room right off the room with the creepy ass furnace ( think Freddy Crugger movies)

All the rooms with the exception of the the kitchen, living-room and dining-room ( I have a dining-room again hehe) have the original hardwood floors, complete with news print stuck on one of the floors. Apparently back in the 30's they put new print on the floors, why I have no idea, and I have yet to find an explanation that makes any sense to me.. just something weird that they did, However in turn I have news print stuck to the floor of the spare bedroom, with dates on the news print for 1930 something, kinda cool... lol However we are planning on getting a sander and other lovely needed things and in the spring we are hopefully re doing and re sealing all of the original hardwood floors. ( I have to say after doing the re search on how to do this, it will be a bit of a messy and nightmarish project but it does need to be done)

The other little project that we are currently working on is the fireplace, which has a very cool 1930's cast iron and brass fireplace insert. I have currently been  re searching these types of fireplaces because ours is missing a piece or two. So I have been trying to find a picture of something that is similar to our fireplace, so we know what the piece looks like and can have it fabricated. (It is good to be friends with an extremely talented Blacksmith * huge smile*) I have discovered two things in researching the fireplace. First thing is; to get a refurbished or replica 1930's/ 40's fireplace insert cost some where around $2000.00 to $4000.00. Second thing, it will give you a headache trying to find information about 1930's fireplaces.. Up until about 20 years ago, when people remodel, upgraded, or just tore down old homes, instead of sell, keeping or refurbishing old fireplace inserts from the 1930-1940's they just scrapped them... Hello junk yard... so find pictures, information etc etc is a true pain in the ass... yes I know we can remove it and put in a wood burning stove or something, but we really don't want to.

So as for the pictures well they are not that great and in truth, they were taken during different stages of unpacking... so yes it is messy... somewhat.

this is the living-room


living room the other half


dinning- room ( I have a dining-room again)


Emmy's room, it took for ever to unpack all of her toys.lol.



spare bedroom, you can kinda see the news print on the floor.. I really need to take some pictures of this room now that is set up and everything is put away lol..
 

the upstairs and my bedroom

I promise to post better and updated (as in all done unpacking ) pictures soon, : )

and my favorite picture... the ancient fireplace lol
before

after ... all clean...


anyhow these are pics of the new house, I will get outside pictures once the weather is a bit nicer..
: )

Have you ever had one of those dreams were you wake up from it going "what the fuck was that about???" yeah I had one of those this morning.... Now I am not opposed to a naked man being in my bedroom, I happen to like having a naked man in my bedroom, but this dream had a guy I never even dated naked in my bedroom... Just standing there, in my dream I woke up to him standing in my bedroom naked reading a magazine, I asked him what the hell he was doing and he replied I don't know you wanted me here....

This is what I was dreaming about before I got woken up this morning, and as for the person that was naked in my dream, yeah I DON"T want him naked in my room....  mainly cause it would be just weird, and also I am not exactly thrilled with the person, so I am at kind of a lost on what the hell that was all about...

I think the stress of the week has gotten to me...

I am having one of those weeks were I do question having friends, especially when some of my friends are the  cause of my stress....

I think I am in need of a night out... or a really good bottle of wine, one of the two... 

Part of my issue is this past week Satan and I both have been sick,, My oldest daughter is in the process of moving out to her own apartment which is awesome but kinda sad at the same time.. plus she got a job so we have been running around taking care of all of that too... ( holy crap who knew you had to do so much crap just to work at walmart!?!)  On top of that I am trying to unpack more of the house, I have been living here for going on 3 months and I am still not unpacked...
The upside to her moving out is I have another room, down side I have to figure out what I am doing with that room...

Plus there is the whole birthday coming up, I always seem to get stressed out around my birthday, not sure if it is habit or dislike for my birthday, but it is in about 3 weeks... joy of joy... it could possibly be because I have spent a large portion of my life not having it, up until around 1999 when Satan and I started dating, my birthday was just another day...


Anyhow I am off of here, finish my cup of coffee and unpack more boxes... : )

It seems as if I am the only one left of all of my friends that still posts to Lj... everyone else seems to have left for a different blog site, stopped posting, or just face books now.. 

Kinda sad...

makes for a bit of a boring Lj experience, LOL  I pretty much only have community posts on here now.  which are all rather interesting, but it still is very different than before. It seems in our fast pace life we have now, writing is going to the wayside and you can sum up your entire day, week or month by your status on face book...

I have figured out something lately, I really don't know many of my friends as well as I thought I did or I use to.. I have one group of friends who I speak with on a daily or at least once a month. it is a very small handful. But i do know what is going on and understand when they post a very vague sentence on their face book status but over all most of my friends, I am completely clueless on who they are, what they are doing and how they are doing... It is all very generic .....

Which I have to say kinda bothers the hell out of me.... At one point of time most of these people and I were very close, but like everything else in life, the friendship has faded away apparently to nothing more than a status update on face book...  If you ask me it is kinda a crappy and not much of a friendship...

I suppose that is what we all are doomed to face book status and generic friends ship..... it's no longer the quality but quantity....