Officially Married.
I hope the years ahead will prepare me to become the good husband you deserve.
I hope the years ahead will prepare me to become the good husband you deserve.
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My life is changing so drastically. I feel my days are slipping by and I'm being thrust into adulthood.
It's definitely a different feeling. My life before was so much easier. I've even heard it from adults before me. But it was different to finally experience that feeling.
I feel like life consistently gets harder to some degree, and it's mainly a matter of being beaten by it so much we begin to not care as much as we used to. That's what being an older person seems to be about.
In one week, almost exactly, I will begin a new chapter of my life. I'll be marrying the woman of my dreams. It almost seems too surreal. But I want to make sure I begin this venture the right way and on the right foot.
It's definitely a different feeling. My life before was so much easier. I've even heard it from adults before me. But it was different to finally experience that feeling.
I feel like life consistently gets harder to some degree, and it's mainly a matter of being beaten by it so much we begin to not care as much as we used to. That's what being an older person seems to be about.
In one week, almost exactly, I will begin a new chapter of my life. I'll be marrying the woman of my dreams. It almost seems too surreal. But I want to make sure I begin this venture the right way and on the right foot.
It's been a while since I've posted.
No surprise. Seems the only thing I am consistent with is being inconsistent.
I'll give you few that still read this journal an update on my life.
I am now on the home stretch of my 2nd year in med school. I received where I will be rotating for 3rd and 4th year. It will be in Staten Island University Hospital.
In the amount of time from Feb until now, I have done nothing but plan and study for boards. It is currently my Spring Break as I write this and I am spending every day in a study room going over the first two years of everything I've learned for this board exam. I have to pass and do well. I just hope I can get a decent score.
I had been looking for new apartments downtown. I wanted to stay in Manhattan as much as possible. I got the word today that I was approved for a place in Financial District, right on Wall Street. So very happy and thankful for that so far. It will definitely be an interesting change from where I am now. The only drawback is how much it costs per month. I won't go into the details.
Yesterday, I received an email about one of the pictures I took. I posted it below. The New York based company wanted to use it in one of their upcoming books and paid me 250 for licensing. Perhaps I should try and sell my photos more. Glad that it happened.
Here is the image:
Other than that, it's the same life I've been living. This year will be a crazy one, and we will see what happens from here on out.
Hope you all are well. If you are reading this, feel free to say hello. Wish I kept more in touch with you all.
-raph
I'll give you few that still read this journal an update on my life.
I am now on the home stretch of my 2nd year in med school. I received where I will be rotating for 3rd and 4th year. It will be in Staten Island University Hospital.
In the amount of time from Feb until now, I have done nothing but plan and study for boards. It is currently my Spring Break as I write this and I am spending every day in a study room going over the first two years of everything I've learned for this board exam. I have to pass and do well. I just hope I can get a decent score.
I had been looking for new apartments downtown. I wanted to stay in Manhattan as much as possible. I got the word today that I was approved for a place in Financial District, right on Wall Street. So very happy and thankful for that so far. It will definitely be an interesting change from where I am now. The only drawback is how much it costs per month. I won't go into the details.
Yesterday, I received an email about one of the pictures I took. I posted it below. The New York based company wanted to use it in one of their upcoming books and paid me 250 for licensing. Perhaps I should try and sell my photos more. Glad that it happened.
Here is the image:
Other than that, it's the same life I've been living. This year will be a crazy one, and we will see what happens from here on out.
Hope you all are well. If you are reading this, feel free to say hello. Wish I kept more in touch with you all.
-raph
It seems my life keeps on getting busier.
I thought I had it bad in undergrad. Boy, was I wrong.
So here's an update for those who still look at LJ. I'm halfway through my 2nd year of med school. Next year we take our boards. I've stayed in the city instead of going back to Florida, my home, just to study for them. It has been semi-depressing.
Many days, I might just sit around and attempt to study. It's very hard, because my mind is looking for that mental break, but at the same time I am worried about how I perform on the boards. It pretty much seals your fate from that Step 1 Score.
So here I sit, late at night. I took a nap and am paying for it now. No one else is awake, and all I have are my thoughts again.
I spent this Christmas with my girlfriend in the city. It felt good to be there with her. We made dinner for several nights straight, and even made blueberry pancakes for Christmas morning. It has surely been a delight. She brings joy back into my life, as any counterpart should. For that, I am thankful.
Since my last true update, a lot has happened. Too much, and I don't even remember which audience I told it to last. Whether it be on Tumblr, or Blogspot, or here. Ah, well...it's not like I have a big following anyway. These are places that I just like to type out my thoughts and feelings. Hopefully it will help me to make sense of it all, and find out more of who I am.
But anyway, since then, school came and took me away. I've been in New York for three years now, this May. It's a crazy thought. People say that I'm officially a New Yorker, but that seems off for me. I feel after a while of living here, can I truly feel like this is home. Maybe my cutoff is 5 years at least.
Since that time, I've at least progressed, experiencing new things, meeting new interesting people, and most of all documenting a lot of it in photos.
My brother is supposed to arrive tomorrow, er...tonight from LA. I can only hope that his time here will help me release a lot of what I've been holding back in terms of stress, photographic block, and the feeling of being a hermit for a good portion of my break.
I honestly wish I had more photographer friends in the city. Then again, perhaps it is best that I don't. While classes resume, I will have numerous news feed posts of city shots, street photography and everything else. It would be a dilute version of torture.
Anyway, hope all is well with you all. I swear I think only a few people (at most) even post on LJ anymore.
So here's an update for those who still look at LJ. I'm halfway through my 2nd year of med school. Next year we take our boards. I've stayed in the city instead of going back to Florida, my home, just to study for them. It has been semi-depressing.
Many days, I might just sit around and attempt to study. It's very hard, because my mind is looking for that mental break, but at the same time I am worried about how I perform on the boards. It pretty much seals your fate from that Step 1 Score.
So here I sit, late at night. I took a nap and am paying for it now. No one else is awake, and all I have are my thoughts again.
I spent this Christmas with my girlfriend in the city. It felt good to be there with her. We made dinner for several nights straight, and even made blueberry pancakes for Christmas morning. It has surely been a delight. She brings joy back into my life, as any counterpart should. For that, I am thankful.
Since my last true update, a lot has happened. Too much, and I don't even remember which audience I told it to last. Whether it be on Tumblr, or Blogspot, or here. Ah, well...it's not like I have a big following anyway. These are places that I just like to type out my thoughts and feelings. Hopefully it will help me to make sense of it all, and find out more of who I am.
But anyway, since then, school came and took me away. I've been in New York for three years now, this May. It's a crazy thought. People say that I'm officially a New Yorker, but that seems off for me. I feel after a while of living here, can I truly feel like this is home. Maybe my cutoff is 5 years at least.
Since that time, I've at least progressed, experiencing new things, meeting new interesting people, and most of all documenting a lot of it in photos.
My brother is supposed to arrive tomorrow, er...tonight from LA. I can only hope that his time here will help me release a lot of what I've been holding back in terms of stress, photographic block, and the feeling of being a hermit for a good portion of my break.
I honestly wish I had more photographer friends in the city. Then again, perhaps it is best that I don't. While classes resume, I will have numerous news feed posts of city shots, street photography and everything else. It would be a dilute version of torture.
Anyway, hope all is well with you all. I swear I think only a few people (at most) even post on LJ anymore.
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the city is a vast ghost.
i sometimes would daydream about living in new york, endeavoring the highs and lows of living in a vibrant city surrounding. the experiences i've had are not quite what i'd expected.
i wish i could tell you how it feels like i am always trudging towards something new and exciting. i wish there was always an adventure each day. but it is not that; in fact it's quite opposite.
the city has made me lonely. sometimes, i'll spend my nights sitting at my desk while all my friends are out partying about. i've no urge to do any of that. i think i'm slowly enjoying spending time at home.
in a literal sense, the loneliness isn't as harmful. many people live their lives by themselves all the time. i guess i take part in sharing in that loneliness with them with invitation.
but in a sense that has to do with my inner emotional state, the loneliness could not be so good. i can't explain to you how it must feel to look up at the dark sky and know that millions of people are living and moving around you in that moment. it makes one feel quite small and insignificant. soon, i've felt it hard to even deal with my social life with others. every moment has become too awkward and because of that, i've slipped into an antisocial slum.
but am i really being antisocial, and if so, does it mean it's bad? i've read once that the antisocial people are just the ones who would rather not pretend. i would agree. after all, wasn't it shakespeare who said that this world is a stage? it very much is. an act, a facade. and frankly...i just don't want to be a part of it sometimes--er most of the time.
real life is hard, and you have to be realistic. not bent on cheesy sayings with cliche outlooks that get you through the day. a reversal of life is what people need to get themselves kicked into the right direction. that is how i felt. and this was my response.
so what has new york done to me? it has grown me up. and quickly, i would add. but whoever knew of a plant that thrived within a locked chamber? how can someone confined to the indoors with just his thoughts suddenly know everything there is to know about this present time? well, that person doesn't..simply stated. i know i've not arrived, and i think it seems i still have a long way to go.
so here are the ramblings of a 25 year old nyc dweller trying to deal with what seems like a quarter life crisis. haha.....i think i'll take it.
i sometimes would daydream about living in new york, endeavoring the highs and lows of living in a vibrant city surrounding. the experiences i've had are not quite what i'd expected.
i wish i could tell you how it feels like i am always trudging towards something new and exciting. i wish there was always an adventure each day. but it is not that; in fact it's quite opposite.
the city has made me lonely. sometimes, i'll spend my nights sitting at my desk while all my friends are out partying about. i've no urge to do any of that. i think i'm slowly enjoying spending time at home.
in a literal sense, the loneliness isn't as harmful. many people live their lives by themselves all the time. i guess i take part in sharing in that loneliness with them with invitation.
but in a sense that has to do with my inner emotional state, the loneliness could not be so good. i can't explain to you how it must feel to look up at the dark sky and know that millions of people are living and moving around you in that moment. it makes one feel quite small and insignificant. soon, i've felt it hard to even deal with my social life with others. every moment has become too awkward and because of that, i've slipped into an antisocial slum.
but am i really being antisocial, and if so, does it mean it's bad? i've read once that the antisocial people are just the ones who would rather not pretend. i would agree. after all, wasn't it shakespeare who said that this world is a stage? it very much is. an act, a facade. and frankly...i just don't want to be a part of it sometimes--er most of the time.
real life is hard, and you have to be realistic. not bent on cheesy sayings with cliche outlooks that get you through the day. a reversal of life is what people need to get themselves kicked into the right direction. that is how i felt. and this was my response.
so what has new york done to me? it has grown me up. and quickly, i would add. but whoever knew of a plant that thrived within a locked chamber? how can someone confined to the indoors with just his thoughts suddenly know everything there is to know about this present time? well, that person doesn't..simply stated. i know i've not arrived, and i think it seems i still have a long way to go.
so here are the ramblings of a 25 year old nyc dweller trying to deal with what seems like a quarter life crisis. haha.....i think i'll take it.
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Though I admit I haven't been as active on here.
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Goodbye,
-raph