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randominitySince I am bored, here I am posting again.
Sweet Adelines rehearsal is tonight. It will be my third rehearsal, and I can audition after the third one. But I am still having to fight myself to go every damn time (not last week; I was so knocked out with cramps that going was not an option). I am disappointed in myself for not being more enthused about this, but I really do see it as a lost evening every time. I barely get home and have time to relax and play with my cats before I have to head off for a 3+ hour rehearsal. It feels so good to sing and I love the material, but ugh, my whole evening, lost, I get back home and all I can do is change for bed. I hate that. I really really hate it and resent it. I wish I didn't feel that way. Why can't I see the positives and be excited for rehearsal instead of dreading it every time? I've given serious thought to just saying this is not a good time for me to join a choir, but when WILL be a good time? I haven't been in one in over a year..... when will I stop hoarding my free time? Emo.
As for my hair, it's been a week and a half since the new braids and they're holding up nicely, although I wash my hair twice a week. I didn't put elastic bands on the ends this time and I've had very little unravelling... rather, the ends sometimes unravel, but never all the way up to the root, so re-braiding is not that big a deal, and sometimes they unravel a little bit but hold their shape, so I just leave them. However, I have had some crawling already. My careful, meticulous parts are all gone and suddenly I have hair crossing over and interacting from one braid to the other! It's only been a week, jeez! So every few days I spend some time trying to yank hairs out of a braid where it doesn't belong. It hurts, and the hair breaks more often than not :(. How on earth do they travel that far that quickly???
I have also latched several of my braids that were slipping at the roots. It's fun, I have to concentrate on not overdoing it. I'm a bit concerned that my parted sections are a bit large and my dreads will be fat, but I don't want to be "negative" about what will be the texture of my hair, so I keep waffling on that. I really couldn't make the parts smaller because since my hair is relaxed, I had very narrow sections to braid. If I'd parted any smaller I'd be braiding, like, three strands at a time, and it would take me another week. Plus, oy, the maintenance. No, I think what I've done is best for me, but I'm a leeeetle worried about how it'll look later on. Meh. I'm sure it'll be okay.
Ugh, I just feel so bummed about the choir. :(
Sweet Adelines rehearsal is tonight. It will be my third rehearsal, and I can audition after the third one. But I am still having to fight myself to go every damn time (not last week; I was so knocked out with cramps that going was not an option). I am disappointed in myself for not being more enthused about this, but I really do see it as a lost evening every time. I barely get home and have time to relax and play with my cats before I have to head off for a 3+ hour rehearsal. It feels so good to sing and I love the material, but ugh, my whole evening, lost, I get back home and all I can do is change for bed. I hate that. I really really hate it and resent it. I wish I didn't feel that way. Why can't I see the positives and be excited for rehearsal instead of dreading it every time? I've given serious thought to just saying this is not a good time for me to join a choir, but when WILL be a good time? I haven't been in one in over a year..... when will I stop hoarding my free time? Emo.
As for my hair, it's been a week and a half since the new braids and they're holding up nicely, although I wash my hair twice a week. I didn't put elastic bands on the ends this time and I've had very little unravelling... rather, the ends sometimes unravel, but never all the way up to the root, so re-braiding is not that big a deal, and sometimes they unravel a little bit but hold their shape, so I just leave them. However, I have had some crawling already. My careful, meticulous parts are all gone and suddenly I have hair crossing over and interacting from one braid to the other! It's only been a week, jeez! So every few days I spend some time trying to yank hairs out of a braid where it doesn't belong. It hurts, and the hair breaks more often than not :(. How on earth do they travel that far that quickly???
I have also latched several of my braids that were slipping at the roots. It's fun, I have to concentrate on not overdoing it. I'm a bit concerned that my parted sections are a bit large and my dreads will be fat, but I don't want to be "negative" about what will be the texture of my hair, so I keep waffling on that. I really couldn't make the parts smaller because since my hair is relaxed, I had very narrow sections to braid. If I'd parted any smaller I'd be braiding, like, three strands at a time, and it would take me another week. Plus, oy, the maintenance. No, I think what I've done is best for me, but I'm a leeeetle worried about how it'll look later on. Meh. I'm sure it'll be okay.
Ugh, I just feel so bummed about the choir. :(