'No. Xanax is a CNS and mixing it with alcohol is usually brain damaging and a very effective way to kill oneself.'
"Is this an attempt to get laid?"
My thought: 'I could get that locally from cuter people more easily..' What I said: 'Uh, no, I can do better than that.'
"Will you be going in garb."
What I said: Nope. What I meant: I'll be commissioning a conbadge soon and plan on a partial fursuit eventually, if I can find someone who can make a good enough head. No bobble headed foofs!
What'll likely happen: I may come home with a cute tail and ears and a few things stuffed waaaay deep in my backpack depending on price. >_>
"Who all do you know?" What I said: 'Meh, a few people'.
I got dragged to the doctor's office again today. Urgent care's solution wasn't working, so my mom insisted I go see a doctor working in a practice I'd been to before.
I have adult onset asthma. My humorous side, which is almost dead, wants to pop up and say "no wonder you've felt like there's been a fist around your throat the past few weeks".
I've not been able to breathe. My brain has not been getting enough oxygen. The inhalers have had an immediate, startling effect. It isn't 100% yet, but, I could seriously cry.
At this point I'm still in the air but things are in flames. I have not been able to study tonight (only just got in). My differential equations exam is Thursday. I expect catastrophe - today/tonight is my main studying night for the week.
This type of junk seriously bothers me. For one, I live in a right to fire state. Secondly, I truly don't want to see atheism become the dominant religious view in the world, it's such a limited worldview. The difference is a belief in zero, or a belief in an infinite. I choose the latter.
However, other people whose actions state they believe in zero but claim to believe in infinity are attacking spirituality with everything they have. This is an act of spiritual terrorism driving others away from Belief and it should be shunned for being vile, hateful, petty, spiteful, and small-minded. Especially when we're talking about educators who we task to equip our next generation with the tools both intellectual and social needed to function in an incredibly diverse world.
So I got in a shipment of my favorite tea, today. It's a jasmine green tea. I love green tea straight up unsweetened brewed ridiculously strong.
I ordered tea bags because they were cheaper than the loose leaf stuff, and have learned something. Tea bags have more caffeine than loose leaf tea. I was wondering why I'm getting stuff done at an amazing pace today. By my rough calculations I've now had at least the same amount of caffeine as 2x8oz cups of coffee, and more likely around 3x8oz cups of coffee. I'm sweating a bit. I've sent off a college application, filled out a few financial aid things, talked to 8 people while doing so, cleaned a room up, aired out the house, started mental diagrams of robot paths for a game I'm playing that involves programming robots to do evil horrible things, I'm about to start blaring music...
LOL. Caffeine is fantastic. I've been awake for two hours (I went to bed sick as a dog and woke up feeling fine barring a leg trying to pull a charlie horse, again. I forget which vitamin it is that charlie horses indicate a deficiency of. Though it might be sleeping under an electric blanket is keeping me a tad too warm at night. Regardless, I want to go for a run so that my back stays reasonably pain free.).
:D
Any advice on how to avoid a dependency on caffeine? This is rather useful!
-_- Oh no no no no no no NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO this will not do at all!
Anyway, I noticed the weekly backup job on quillblade.com failing - again - and was reminded of what I had cooking here. I'm considering turning it in to a more broad spectrum political blog, or something more sinister, like a pro LGBT comedy site. Regardless, these weekly error messages are annoying me. They're making my inner perfectionist squirm.
Have I ever mentioned that I'm allergic to "B"s? That might be making my inner perfectionist squirm as well. By squirm I mean my inner perfectionist is throwing a raging fit and telling me to study more. My outer perfectionist is calling my inner perfectionist an idiot for not taking advantage of digitally assisted searching available in the ebook for each of the open ebook exam problems. My inner perfectionist is retorting "I still made an 88 - it was your stupidity in not setting a timer for the first exam because you assumed a timed exam would have a timer built in and your lack of checking all 50 problems which got you that 80", at this point my consciousness in general is telling me that the odd swaying of the room likely caused by six hours of staring at black text on white background is indicative of user fatigue and that I should likely ignore my quite coherent background thoughts, and not begin to suppose what accent they're speaking in.
I think I lost all of my Quillbladefox gear. Including my e-mail logins, my website logins, and my IM logins. Since I've seriously restructured how my computers are set up since I last had it running, it might be a bit before I can really run everything up again.
Thank goodness for ctrl+f when looking for files. I just have to find a 4 gigabyte .vmdk file that is somewhere within 2.5-2.8 terabytes of storage strewn across a number of computers. Not quite a needle in a haystack, more like an iron ball bearing in a barn using a magnet to search.
I realized one of the reasons I've not been posting is just general anxiety. Posting requires a (small) risk on my part because it's putting myself out there, and for awhile I've not been overcoming said anxiety, which needs to change, because it isn't only on Quillbladefox that's quiet - it's everywhere.
That's not to say I've been paralyzed in real life, no, THAT is getting exciting. I'll share more about that soon enough.
"Imagine the suffering that could be avoided if the church could say this to their lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender children: “We don’t understand your views about sexual orientation, but we love and trust you. As long as you love God and seek God’s will in your life, you are welcome here.”"
Imagine if that was said instead of "I disagree with your lifestyle but still want to be your friend.".
It is impossible to, as a person who has been oppressed, ever remove the constant nagging that a 'friend' 'disagrees with' a fundamental piece of who you are. I hope that, for a few moments - long enough to understand what they are doing - they are rolled over and put in to my position. I could do it to them, but deliberate vengeance is poison. Twice recently I've heard it and twice I've had to accept it rather than educate - I'm not out of the closet.
Women's and LGBT rights will be the salvation or undoing of the Christian church. The lime light is on social conservatives of every faith. Their reactions to human progress can do more damage to Religion (capital "R" there) than anything non-religious people could do.
