queenofhearts, posts by tag: voting - LiveJournal

Oh holy wow I'm tired. Too tired to do a decent entry or work on my replies. The first night back to work is always the hardest in terms of being tired. I just don't want to do crap replies. I also have a guilt complex and feel guilty when I don't answer them all right away and therefore have to explain that on here to all of you so I feel less so.

I did end up making my cupcakes and they were hard! I think they turned out all right, but not as good as I would have liked. Still, not bad for my first try at it. There will be pictures. Oh yes! I will spam you. Also pictures of my kitty and more of Aaron and also of our pumpkins because Jim made a really cool/funny pumpkin.

And today is Halloween! And I have to sleep it away. Bah.

Well Happy Halloween to you all! And happy birthday to ninjarogers!

I am bringing a bowl of candy to work tonight so that we all can not feel so left out of the festivities. I just wish Jim and I could take Aaron out and then go out to a Halloween party where we always sing karaoke. Jim has not got to take Aaron out yet because he's usually working. This year he'll be at school. Maybe next year! I think I'll request it off, actually, way in advance so we can take him out. It's going to only get more fun to do holidays with him as he ages. I'm so excited. Heh. I'm a dork.

I'd pontificate on here some more about weird stuff, but I'm too tired to make it interesting. Heh. Can't wait for my ballot to get here so I can vote. Whoo. Vote. This is a crazy voting year.

I've got a headache. Ugh. I hate them. I think I need to eat. But do you ever wait a while to eat and then lose the urge, so you really can't remember whether you're hungry or not? Kinda like when you have to pee but don't have time so you forget...

I am skating on the dark edge of something again and I hate it. It's like peeking around a curtain briefly and seeing something you dread, but know you have to deal with anyway. I've been doing so good for a few months. I'm not looking forward to admitting I have to up my anti-depressant. I know it seems simple, but I hate making the steps to call the doctor, set up an appointment, go in, explain...

I have a phone phobia. I do not like calling people or making appointments or paying bills this way. I put it off for as long as I can. And I'm not even sure why I feel this way. It's not like anyone can actually see me...

Most of all, I hate feeling the depression creep in when everything is going well.

I've started exercising and even though it's only been a week, everything I tried on seemed to fit crappy today. Crappier than usual. Since I weighed myself and I don't weigh anymore, not sure what's up. Bloat? Don't know why for. Already done with the Monthly Witch and got my gallbladder out so I don't have to deal with that anymore. Blah. It just makes me feel like crap. Why can't I be overweight all around and not mostly on my belly so I just look pregnant? Oh genetics, I curse thee!

Heh. Sorry. This is the complain post. But I'm not really super down or bitchy. Just kinda ugh. I think I need to eat and probably sleep. Things'll look better in the morning.

Really, there is a lot good going on in my life. I hung out with my grandma, my baby is a cutie pie sweetheart, Jim is a wonderful, wonderful man, I love my work, and I feel good for starting exercising. I'm just feeling scared that depression is creeping back in. I know it's never going to be 'solved' or go 'completely away'. I just wish it could be. I need to pull out my self-help books and continue those too. Be more pro-active.

Jim and I have to figure out where we can vote! When we moved, we forgot to re-register our voting priveliges. So we need to go to the auditor and figure out where we can vote. I don't want to miss voting! I hope we won't. Ugh. I'm going to feel like such an ass if we do. (getting worried)

Oh yes, definitely, I am hungry. That's part of my problem right now. I get so bitchy if I don't eat.

I'm going to make cupcakes for the bakesale at work and I'm excited to make them actually. I'm going to decorate with M-n-Ms and frosting to make them look like little spiders on top and try to draw pumpkin faces. They'll be fun to make and I hope they turn out okay!

Time for me to get off.