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WOO! Christine [chrizz came to my house! =o It was like.. um.. WHOA. xD I heard them drive up on my drive way and I was like "AHHH THEY'RE HERE!" yeh. =o Yeah! We might do something on Friday.. Like.. go to the Mall or something. I dunno. xD My sister-in-law can take us probably. I have to ask. =o Anyway! I'll.. type again when Friday comes n stuff.

S i i k o r a [6:47 PM]: ROFL
Auto response from Dizzii me [6:47 PM]: the dark tree foliage, on which i have measured my years by, wave raindrops good-bye as they wither onto the windowpane. its stalks grow murkier until self-manifesting into shadows tainted on the melancholic, grey skies and eventually, darkness. i sit here on a slightly distorted chair which pronounces eery creaks with each breath i draw, indulging in a mug of rich, condensed milk while thinking about nathaniel hawthorne. an aire of creativeness staggers across the pages. tonight, i write amidst the change in father nature, the epitome of motion -- time. i'm suddenly amused by how successful my past english teachers have been at brainwashing me to think in a creative writer's style which i usually write in my journal. and then the raindrops scatter.
Dizzii me [6:47 PM]: hmm?
S i i k o r a [6:48 PM]: THIS GUY JUST SENT ME PICS OF HIS DICK
S i i k o r a [6:48 PM]: XD
S i i k o r a [6:48 PM]: it's really bumpy..they're not THAT bumpy o_o;;;
S i i k o r a [6:48 PM]: I dunno..guess that adds to the pleasure >>;
Dizzii me [6:49 PM]: You're trying to corrupt my virgin mind.
Dizzii me [6:49 PM]: Stop it. ;_;
S i i k o r a [6:49 PM]: XD
Dizzii me [6:49 PM]: ::writes:: u.u
S i i k o r a [6:49 PM]: I hate hair..even on guys..why duz it have to be so hairy
Auto response from Dizzii me [6:49 PM]: the dark tree foliage, on which i have measured my years by, wave raindrops good-bye as they wither onto the windowpane. its stalks grow murkier until self-manifesting into shadows tainted on the melancholic, grey skies and eventually, darkness. i sit here on a slightly distorted chair which pronounces eery creaks with each breath i draw, indulging in a mug of rich, condensed milk while thinking about nathaniel hawthorne. an aire of creativeness staggers across the pages. tonight, i write amidst the change in father nature, the epitome of motion -- time. i'm suddenly amused by how successful my past english teachers have been at brainwashing me to think in a creative writer's style which i usually write in my journal. and then the raindrops scatter.
S i i k o r a [6:49 PM]: I'm making my hub shave >o
Dizzii me [6:50 PM]: ::plugs ears:: u.u;;
S i i k o r a [6:50 PM]: XDD
Auto response from Dizzii me [6:50 PM]: the dark tree foliage, on which i have measured my years by, wave raindrops good-bye as they wither onto the windowpane. its stalks grow murkier until self-manifesting into shadows tainted on the melancholic, grey skies and eventually, darkness. i sit here on a slightly distorted chair which pronounces eery creaks with each breath i draw, indulging in a mug of rich, condensed milk while thinking about nathaniel hawthorne. an aire of creativeness staggers across the pages. tonight, i write amidst the change in father nature, the epitome of motion -- time. i'm suddenly amused by how successful my past english teachers have been at brainwashing me to think in a creative writer's style which i usually write in my journal. and then the raindrops scatter.
Dizzii me [6:52 PM]: >O!!!
S i i k o r a [6:53 PM]: I LAFF YOU VERRI VERRI MASH
Auto response from Dizzii me [6:53 PM]: the dark tree foliage, on which i have measured my years by, wave raindrops good-bye as they wither onto the windowpane. its stalks grow murkier until self-manifesting into shadows tainted on the melancholic, grey skies and eventually, darkness. i sit here on a slightly distorted chair which pronounces eery creaks with each breath i draw, indulging in a mug of rich, condensed milk while thinking about nathaniel hawthorne. an aire of creativeness staggers across the pages. tonight, i write amidst the change in father nature, the epitome of motion -- time. i'm suddenly amused by how successful my past english teachers have been at brainwashing me to think in a creative writer's style which i usually write in my journal. and then the raindrops scatter.

UsagiQTPi: Excess Baggage was also a cool movie.
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Y'know, people say that cleaning up the mess in your room is a connotation of cleaning up the mess(es) in your life. I really can't guarantee if that's true because most people are hypocritical nowadays but nonetheless, I'm a neat freak and 'nuff said about that. Anyhow, contrary to that being said, my room hasn't been cleaned since probably before Christmas.

This afternoon I got tired of seeing all the dust, crumpled papers, and other junk just lying around useless so I cleaned it. I also vacuumed the colossal of ants that have managed to crawl in and invade in the past few rainy days. Well, amidst the digging through and throwing away junk, I found a Christmas card from 'manda lying around on the floor and I read it and and and... yeah, which brings me to the fight we had a few weeks ago that ended up in me telling her to grow up. <<....

Anyway! I ...-cough- I think a.... ahem.. akfjaiojeifoaidfhaihgoajeirajiosdf.. I think I we need.. a.....







reconciliation.

When I yawn, I get this sharp pain in my neck.


The pain. ;__;

Dizzii me [3:27 PM]: Hey!
bananaberrii [3:27 PM]: OMG
Dizzii me [3:27 PM]: OMG?
bananaberrii [3:27 PM]: DO YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED?!
Dizzii me [3:27 PM]: Merpucelle got hacked.
bananaberrii [3:27 PM]: o.o
bananaberrii [3:27 PM]: No
Dizzii me [3:27 PM]: No?
Dizzii me [3:27 PM]: 'cause LinZ couldn't get on it.
bananaberrii [3:27 PM]: -copu and paste.- x.x
bananaberrii [3:28 PM]: copy*
bananaberrii [3:28 PM]: Remember how I let Linz go on my s/n? Welll...I forgot that you had to PAY if you connected by the phone line because we have the cable modem. Linz has the phone line modem thingy and she was on my s/n SOOOOO MUCH. We ended up getting a bill for $600 while I was at camp and my dad called AOL and reported fraud and everything because he didn't know about it. AND NOW @_@ I DUNNO WHAT IS GOING TO HAPPEN.
bananaberrii [3:28 PM]: Yep. x____x
Dizzii me [3:28 PM]: Yeah. 'cause she couldn't get on anymore and we were all freaking out. I told her to call your dad. o_o
bananaberrii [3:28 PM]: THIS IS BAD. REAL BAD.
Dizzii me [3:28 PM]: Yeah. That happened to us once.
bananaberrii [3:28 PM]: O_o
bananaberrii [3:28 PM]: What's going to happen?!
bananaberrii [3:29 PM]: Will she have to pay $600!? o_o
bananaberrii [3:29 PM]: My dad is so mad at me...
Dizzii me [3:29 PM]: No.
Dizzii me [3:29 PM]: Tell AOL that you had no idea about it.
bananaberrii [3:29 PM]: o.o
bananaberrii [3:30 PM]: Well...what's going to happen since my dad reported fraud?
bananaberrii [3:30 PM]: I mean..will they track Zee down? ._.
Dizzii me [3:31 PM]: That would be bad.
Dizzii me [3:31 PM]: I dunno anything about that.
bananaberrii [3:31 PM]: I really hope they don't.
Dizzii me [3:31 PM]: I bet they can.
bananaberrii [3:32 PM]: I have to tell her about this whens he gets online.
bananaberrii [3:32 PM]: My dad said they might take away her account forever.
bananaberrii [3:32 PM]: Or something...
bananaberrii [3:32 PM]: I'm not sure.
Dizzii me [3:32 PM]: I think they can log your IP address from phone line.
Dizzii me [3:32 PM]: If the worst, tell them how much you enjoy being with a trusted internet company like AOL and how it would be a pity if you had to CANCEL it due to malicious things like this.
Dizzii me [3:33 PM]: If they can't track down LinZ that is.
bananaberrii [3:33 PM]: Okay. x.x
bananaberrii [3:33 PM]: ^^
Dizzii me [3:33 PM]: Yeah. :x
Dizzii me [3:33 PM]: We had a "bill" over 1000$ and my sister was freaking out.
bananaberrii [3:34 PM]: O_O
Dizzii me [3:34 PM]: Wait, why would it cost to be on the phone line again?
Dizzii me [3:34 PM]: Because I'm on the phone line and the DSL.
Dizzii me [3:34 PM]: o_o
bananaberrii [3:34 PM]: Because we have the cable internet.
bananaberrii [3:35 PM]: And AOL gave us a discount because we have AOL and cox cable.
bananaberrii [3:35 PM]: So, you have to pay to sign on with the phone line.
Dizzii me [3:35 PM]: Oh.
Dizzii me [3:35 PM]: You don't have the unlimited AOL use?
bananaberrii [3:35 PM]: Not anymore.
Dizzii me [3:35 PM]: Oh.
bananaberrii [3:36 PM]: I have it if I sign on with the cable modem.
Dizzii me [3:36 PM]: Eh?
Dizzii me [3:36 PM]: That's strange.
bananaberrii [3:36 PM]: Yeah, that's how it works for us.
Dizzii me [3:36 PM]: Aw, man. She's gonna freak out.
Dizzii me [3:36 PM]: She was already freaking out when they wouldn't let her on.
Dizzii me [3:37 PM]: And she asked me to log on and see if it worked.
Dizzii me [3:37 PM]: And it didn't.
bananaberrii [3:37 PM]: Her own screen name?
Dizzii me [3:37 PM]: So what if I logged on your SN from DSL?
Dizzii me [3:37 PM]: No, yours.
bananaberrii [3:37 PM]: Uhh..I really wouldn't try it. e.e
Dizzii me [3:37 PM]: Yeah, me neither. :\
Dizzii me [3:38 PM]: She couldn't get on your SN anymore.
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: My dad just came in and yelled at me again. x.x;
Dizzii me [3:38 PM]: Oh.
Dizzii me [3:38 PM]: You told him, huh?
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: He said that it was even worse that I let her on my name to get past parental controls. and..yah.
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: Yes O_o
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: I didn't know what would happen.
Dizzii me [3:38 PM]: Past parental control?
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: That's b ecause the password was changed.
Dizzii me [3:38 PM]: Oh.
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: Yeah.
bananaberrii [3:38 PM]: That's why she needed my sn.
Dizzii me [3:39 PM]: Well, it's true. We're more than mature teens. It's not like we use it to look at pornos.
Dizzii me [3:39 PM]: Her parents don't trust her. :x
bananaberrii [3:39 PM]: Yeah =/
Dizzii me [3:40 PM]: Did your dad ask them to see if they can track down the person?
Dizzii me [3:40 PM]: 'cause they would.
bananaberrii [3:40 PM]: I don't know.
bananaberrii [3:40 PM]: I really don't want to talk to him. x.x
Dizzii me [3:41 PM]: Well, looks like he's gonna be paying the bill unless they're gonna track down LinZ.. which would make matters worse.
Dizzii me [3:41 PM]: For her, that is.
bananaberrii [3:42 PM]: He's not going to pay the bill because he reported it as fraud and told AOL that he was hacked or something because he thought that was what happened.
bananaberrii [3:42 PM]: I was gone at camp.
Dizzii me [3:42 PM]: Yeah.
bananaberrii [3:42 PM]: So I couldn't do anything or say anything.
Dizzii me [3:42 PM]: Wait a minute.
Dizzii me [3:42 PM]: They can't track because whenever hackers use your SN, they can't track down hackers.
Dizzii me [3:42 PM]: 'cause there'd be a lot of hackers in jail right now. o_o
bananaberrii [3:43 PM]: o_o
Dizzii me [3:43 PM]: o_o? -shrug-
bananaberrii [3:43 PM]: Or a virus or something..
bananaberrii [3:43 PM]: I don't know! X_X
Dizzii me [3:43 PM]: Or tell Mike to call her.
Dizzii me [3:43 PM]: Then she'll freak out on the fone.
Dizzii me [3:43 PM]: o_o
bananaberrii [3:44 PM]: X_X
bananaberrii [3:44 PM]: I'll wait for her to get online.
Dizzii me [3:44 PM]: Yeah.
Dizzii me [3:44 PM]: You guys are in trouble. :X
bananaberrii [3:45 PM]: aHHH CRAP
Dizzii me [3:45 PM]: Hnn?
bananaberrii [3:45 PM]: ;-;
bananaberrii [3:46 PM]: I hope SOMETHING works out. ._.
Dizzii me [3:46 PM]: -hugs- :\ A month from now, you'll have nothing to worry about.
Dizzii me [3:46 PM]: Grah.. it's about to thunder.
Dizzii me [3:46 PM]: Yeah, me too.
Dizzii me [3:46 PM]: I hate monetary troubles.
bananaberrii [3:46 PM]: But what if Zee has to pay $600?! That's terrible! What if she can never use AOL again? ..,
Dizzii me [3:46 PM]: She can't pay for it. Her parents would freak out.
Dizzii me [3:47 PM]: And like.. her dad just lost his job and her mom is unemployed.
bananaberrii [3:47 PM]: I know.
bananaberrii [3:47 PM]: That's BAD.
Dizzii me [3:47 PM]: Yep. Not good, not good. :\
Dizzii me [3:48 PM]: What did your dad say?
bananaberrii [3:48 PM]: Everything I told you? x.x
bananaberrii [3:48 PM]: He's MAd.
bananaberrii [3:48 PM]: MAD*
Dizzii me [3:49 PM]: When did he report it?
bananaberrii [3:49 PM]: This week.
Dizzii me [3:49 PM]: It was like... earlier this week.
bananaberrii [3:49 PM]: Not really suer.
bananaberrii [3:49 PM]: sure*
Dizzii me [3:49 PM]: Yeah.
bananaberrii [3:49 PM]: While I was gone.
bananaberrii [3:49 PM]: So it couldn't have been more than a week ago.
Dizzii me [3:50 PM]: Mmm..she couldn't get on.. I think it was Monday or Tuesday.
bananaberrii [3:50 PM]: Yeah but can she get on her own screen name still?
Dizzii me [3:50 PM]: Yeah.
Dizzii me [3:50 PM]: So that means they can't track her down.
Dizzii me [3:50 PM]: Which is good 'cause your dad isn't agreeing to pay the "bill" and they can't find the "hacker."
bananaberrii [3:50 PM]: Why can't they track her down?
Dizzii me [3:52 PM]: They can't track her because when she's using the internet service provider... like AOL by dialing up.. the IP address is different each time she logs on.
bananaberrii [3:53 PM]: Ohh. o_o
Dizzii me [3:53 PM]: Yeha.
Dizzii me [3:53 PM]: Yeah*
bananaberrii [3:53 PM]: Well, I really hope what you're saying is right and that everything will be fine. x.x;
Dizzii me [3:53 PM]: So it's actually working out. o_o
bananaberrii [3:53 PM]: Yah. o.o
Dizzii me [3:53 PM]: -throws party. :x
bananaberrii [3:53 PM]: I hope my dad gets over it.
bananaberrii [3:53 PM]: Maybe he already knew that.
Dizzii me [3:53 PM]: Yeah.
Dizzii me [3:54 PM]: The "bill" is just gonna have to be discarded.
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: I just never asked. x.x
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: I was too scared to say anything to him.
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: He actually said a sentance to me without yelling. "Do you see the remote?" x_x
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: GOOD.
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: I hope it will. ;-;
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: Anyway..let's talk about something else. x]
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: LIKE
bananaberrii [3:54 PM]: LAST NIGHT AT CAMP XD
Dizzii me [3:54 PM]: How was camp?
Dizzii me [3:54 PM]: ^^
bananaberrii [3:55 PM]: I liked it! But some of it was a little boring and we were punished a billion times for the stupidest things because there were 25 of us from my school which was the biggest group. o.o
bananaberrii [3:55 PM]: Anyway, I'll tell you about that later. xD
bananaberrii [3:55 PM]: But last night was the dance and ^______^
Dizzii me [3:55 PM]: Annnnnnnd? ^________________-
bananaberrii [3:55 PM]: XD
Dizzii me [3:55 PM]: XD Tell me tell me tell me!
bananaberrii [3:55 PM]: Nothing BIG but I like this guy and I probably won't see him for a while. ..,
bananaberrii [3:55 PM]: BU ANYTHING
bananaberrii [3:56 PM]: ANYWAY* XD
Dizzii me [3:56 PM]: Spit it out. :x
bananaberrii [3:57 PM]: He was the only guy who came from his school this year which is like, really close to ours and in our district. He made friends with all of our guys and kept hanging out with them all week. At the dance, our guys pretty much NEVER did but he did and he was totally awesome. xD A great dancer, he can even swing, do the salsa and..some other dance. But anyway! He was dancing next to me and I was like...=D!
bananaberrii [3:57 PM]: And a slow song came on and we were the only ones left..he was just like, looking around and stuff so I asked him to dance. ^______^
Dizzii me [3:57 PM]: ALRIGHT!
Dizzii me [3:57 PM]: THAT'S MAH GIRL! =D
Dizzii me [3:57 PM]: -clapclap-
bananaberrii [3:58 PM]: I didn't even really know him but I asked anyway and he's such a cutie pie! His name is Jack...actually, he has like...four legal names but he's known as Jack and I've seen him at our Cross Country meets and I'll see him MORE. @_@
Dizzii me [3:58 PM]: ;D ALRIIIIGHT.
bananaberrii [3:58 PM]: Anyway, we danced for two songs and then stopped because it was getting long and then we fast danced again. At one ti me again they played five slow songs in a row and we were sitting next to each other on a couch most of the time and talking because we were waiting to fast dance again. x.x;
bananaberrii [3:59 PM]: On the last song I was just like, okay, this is getting boring. Wanna dance? =D!
bananaberrii [3:59 PM]: XD So we diiiiid. :B
bananaberrii [3:59 PM]: We were SO close. XD
Dizzii me [3:59 PM]: Hotness. :x
Dizzii me [4:00 PM]: Mmmm..it's raining now.
Dizzii me [4:00 PM]: Dizzii me [4:00 PM]: Mmmm..it's raining now.
Dizzii me [4:00 PM]: Hah. It's raining at 4.
bananaberrii [4:01 PM]: Yahh...and then one of the counselours [sp? xx;] came up to him and was talking to him about this girl that wanted to dance with him and he was wondering why he hadn't danced with her yet. Jack said he thought she wanted to dance on the last song so he left us for a while to dance with her during the fast songs. He was only a few feet away from me and when I saw him he smiled at me...=D! And then he danced with her so i danced with my friend Shane.
Dizzii me [4:01 PM]: You coulda exchanged #'s. ;D
bananaberrii [4:01 PM]: I didn't get to say BYE ;_; because I didn't see him before I left today. x.x;
bananaberrii [4:01 PM]: I KNOW @_@
bananaberrii [4:01 PM]: But I'll see him >D
Dizzii me [4:01 PM]: Awwww. :\
Dizzii me [4:01 PM]: Yeah. ^^
bananaberrii [4:01 PM]: I have a picture..
bananaberrii [4:01 PM]: of the back of his head. x.x
Dizzii me [4:02 PM]: Grrr.. :I
Dizzii me [4:02 PM]: You'll see him again.
bananaberrii [4:02 PM]: My digi cam broke because Julianne spilled water on it and the screen stopped working so I never took pictures.
Dizzii me [4:02 PM]: ;;!
bananaberrii [4:02 PM]: But before that I took pictures and he was in the background.
bananaberrii [4:02 PM]: And when I loaded the pictures it worked. x.x;
Dizzii me [4:02 PM]: Awww..
bananaberrii [4:02 PM]: So at least it takes pictures.
bananaberrii [4:02 PM]: I'm not telling my dad about that yet. O_O
Dizzii me [4:02 PM]: Yeah, that's good.
bananaberrii [4:02 PM]: He'll kill me >>;
Dizzii me [4:02 PM]: xD Until he calms down at least.
bananaberrii [4:03 PM]: But I miss Jack ;-;
Dizzii me [4:03 PM]: Awwww!
bananaberrii [4:03 PM]: And I wanted to say bye X_X
Dizzii me [4:03 PM]: That's gay. The girl asked a counselor to tell him?
Dizzii me [4:03 PM]: Hahah.
bananaberrii [4:03 PM]: I think so xD
bananaberrii [4:03 PM]: He's so nice o_o
Dizzii me [4:03 PM]: ^^
Dizzii me [4:03 PM]: Yeah, those guys are hard to find. >:\
bananaberrii [4:03 PM]: And all of our cross country guys that went know him ._.
bananaberrii [4:04 PM]: Soooo....>]
Dizzii me [4:04 PM]: Advantages..xD
bananaberrii [4:04 PM]: Yah. xD
bananaberrii [4:04 PM]: I need a picture of him @_@
bananaberrii [4:04 PM]: Maybe my friends got one o.o
bananaberrii [4:04 PM]: -hopes.-
bananaberrii [4:04 PM]: They're all giving me doubles because my camera broke x.x
Dizzii me [4:04 PM]: Yeah! :7
Dizzii me [4:04 PM]: That's good.
Dizzii me [4:04 PM]: Post some on LJ.
bananaberrii [4:05 PM]: I WILL ^_^
Dizzii me [4:05 PM]: Whenever you get 'em.
Dizzii me [4:05 PM]: I want a digicam too! ;;
bananaberrii [4:05 PM]: They were all like..."YOU LIKE JACK, I KNOW IT."
Dizzii me [4:05 PM]: XD!
bananaberrii [4:05 PM]: Jenna said that she thought he liked me. o_o
Dizzii me [4:05 PM]: Probably if he keeps smiling at you.
Dizzii me [4:05 PM]: That's definitely not a bad thing. ;]
bananaberrii [4:05 PM]: We were talking about slow dancing on the couch and he was like.."It's more comfortable if you know the picture. Look at Alex, he's not even looking at Kortney......"
bananaberrii [4:06 PM]: Me: Ahah...yeah.. =/
bananaberrii [4:06 PM]: The conversation went something like that and then he said it was more fun when you liked the person you were dancing with...xD
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: XD
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: He's a Junior, too.
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: Awwww..
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: His last name is Mann. ^^
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: Jack Mann.
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: XD
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: He has a LONG name. x.x;
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: That's funny.
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: I KNOW XD
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: I KNOW I KNOW
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: o.o
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: Can I post this?
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: I noticed that last year when I saw it on a list for cross country.
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: o_o
bananaberrii [4:07 PM]: I guess so xD
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: Okay.
Dizzii me [4:07 PM]: ^^
bananaberrii [4:08 PM]: His other name is like...George..something blah blah blah. o_o and Jack Mann.
Dizzii me [4:08 PM]: xD
bananaberrii [4:08 PM]: There's a guy from his team named BJ Balls. XD
Dizzii me [4:08 PM]: LMAO!
Dizzii me [4:08 PM]: HAHAHAH!
bananaberrii [4:08 PM]: My friend knows him o_o
bananaberrii [4:08 PM]: YEAH!!! XD

Where would the world be without...


strawberry/banana flavored V8 splash?!

EVEEEEERY NIGHT Im always in pain. I HATE IT. I have problems? Maybe. I always see these lights.. [ white and black ] and when I look to them, they disappear. Oh, no use in sleeping either. Can't sleep when it's hot, and hell yeah, it's hot to me. I haven't eaten in over 16 hours, and im fuckin' hungry. I can't eat anything because there is nothing to eat. We're supposed to go shopping once we're all awake. Then maybe we can get McDonalds or Sonic on the way home. My head hurts, I feel nauseated. BLAAAAAAH. My back and neck hurts, im VERY uncomfortable.. How worse can it get? o_o If I see a ghost, I'll scream. Maybe you'll hear me. :D SO HUNGRY...... FOOOOOOOOD.......... URRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHH -dies a horrible death from starvation-

Your words to me just a whisper.
You faces so unclear.
I try to pay attention.
Your words just disappear.

'cause it's always raining in my head.
Forget all the things I should have said.

So I speak to you in riddles 'cause my words get in my way.
I smoke the whole thing to my head and feel it wash away.
'cause I can't take anymore of this; I wanna come apart
or dig myself a little hole
inside you precious heart.

'cause it's always raining in my head.
Forget all the things I should of said.
I am nothing more than a little boy girl inside who cries out for attention
yet I always try to hide, and I talk to you like children
but I don't know how I feel but I know I'll do the right thing.
If the right thing is revealed.
But it's always raining in my head.
Forget all the things I should have said.

Yooooo :DDD