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So where have i been? I think there are two things going on. One is i am changing my diet to try and meet some of the MIND[1] diet criteria: being more disciplined about leafy greens (which i like, wasn't quite at a serving every day), trying to get three servings of whole grains -- there were a few places i could easily switch, daily berries serving (twist my arm), regular eggs (instead of poultry). The legumes and fish were already part of what i was doing. And then i looked into how much protein i should be getting and there was a gap. So now sorting that. And meanwhile my already unreliable digestive system had some behaviors that seemed odd, and then addressing that made other things odd, so now i'm learning the difference between insoluble and soluble fiber.

Meanwhile, my indirect wish, that i would loose the weight i put on during the fatigue of the last couple of years, isn't quite being met -- but i have pushed back some of my cravings and binging. Maybe "do you want the yogurt, herring, lima beans, or peanuts" choices helps: i know what the snacks are instead of gravitating to something sweet. (Lima beans are kinda like edamame in my opinion, and can be snacks.)

This preoccupation is boring.

Then there's been some emotional stuff: the third anniversary of Mom's passing is aligning with my Dad's wish to downsize. He's got some urgency, and it's triggered me. I could recognize part was that i've been waiting for this but he's postponed so many times that the urgency is a little maddening. But that didn't seem to be all. I finally realized that her stuff -- her thrifty shopping of high quality things -- was a way we connected. I felt seen in the sense that she taught me certain skills and values (lasting quality vs trendy style). Other teaching (housekeeping) was fraught with her anger and conflict and my lack of skill. So i need to balance my wanting to honor her through respectfully handling her stuff, and my sense i don't have time to deal with the mountain of stuff.

Oh, and there was a stretch of nesting at home. We've gotten a 25 year old bedframe passed on to someone, and got rid of a mattress, moved the couch into the front office, and now need to get rid of the old rug and replace it with one i will like. (I hope.) I thought we would be receiving the new Amish-made recliners soon, but what we know now is that a shipper picks them up on the 11th, and then has a three week circuit during which it will arrive.  We are currently sitting on lawn chairs.

[1] https://nutritionsource.hsph.harvard.edu/healthy-weight/diet-reviews/mind-diet/ -- it's about getting a certain amount of certain nutrients but isn't a "complete" diet. There are whole swaths of foods that it's neutral on. Also, every source seems to be slightly different which makes me want to scream.