So I had stopped using this but i have decided that i will start writing in here again!! Isnt it exciting..lol..so my last entry said that I was over Jessica slaven but the fact was i wasnt so we became friends again...and last night i told her she was changing and she said then we shouldnt be friends if i felt this way..which i couldnt just change b/c someone tells me to..so me and her areant friends and for the first time im actually ok with it =) i can move on in peace!! The new HARRY POTTER book came out and im sure everyone got it ;-) ha ha My older sis bought it for me at borders but keeps on forgetting to bring it to my house..so im really annoyed cause im sure i could have already finished it! But its all good i love her anyway =)
Hey guys...new update!!! Im over her!!!! I have finally desided or realize that she cant hurt me!! Yeah she made me cry...but then again I realized how happy I am to be who I want to be...see I can go home and talk to my mom bout how I met a really hott girl...but the thing is she cant!! Shes to scared to tell her mom..and i dont want someone like that I want someone who is confident bout themself!! So I am over her...I had my older sis go and talk to her X Trisha and she was very kool I heard and gave me some great advice bout jess...and I took it...So Thank you Trisha!!!
She said "don't, don't let it go to your head Boys like you are a dime a dozen, Boys like you are a dime a dozen" She said "you're a touch overrated, you're a lush and I hate it but these grass stains on my knees they won't mean a thing"
And all I (all I) Need to know (need to know) Is that I'm something you'll be missing (is that I'm something that you're missing) (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that far (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that...
I'd never lie to you Unless I had to I'll do what I got to Unless I had to I'll do what I got to, the truth is you could slit my throat And with my one last gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt
And all I (all I) Need to know (need to know) Is that I'm something you'll be missing (is that I'm something that you're missing) (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that far (maybe I should hate for this) Maybe I should hate you for this Never really did ever quite get that...
Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions This'll be last chance you get to drop my name Cause I'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions This'll be last chance you get to drop my name
If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (Maybe I should...) If I'm just bad news, then you're a liar (...hate you for this)
Maybe I should hate you for this (If only you knew half as much as you pretend to) Maybe I should hate you for this (If only you knew half as much as you pretend to)
I must add a happy birthday to Tj...only one of teh nicest guys ever!!! OOhh and I had my second guitar lesson today a Ty is so nice!! lol...So im going to Borders later anyone want to come?
So Jessica is now dating Matt which im ok with...but I know shes going to break his heart....and he doesnt deserve that...hes a good person who doesnt deserve to get hurt...but yeah so now I am going to go to the skool dance w/ Johnna which I think will be a blast!!!But yeah....oh and I am going to see Maroon 5 in concert how kool is that...lol..I ahd my first guitar lesson today..it rocked!!
The funeral was today...I cried so bad..I miss her. It was hard for me...especally when we had to go in the room with all the pictures of her and him..I just froze outside the room.And cried... The service was pretty and I saw Dani there so yeah.
The funeral is tomorrow.. Im scared... Ive never been to one.... I miss her so.... She had the smile of a thousand stars..... Lauren I love you ever so much.....
I love you Lauren. May you always REST IN PEACE!!!!
So hey guys! Jess just came and stayed that night...bunchs of fun as it always is...it reminded me of the old times! So I really cant say much right now cause i got to go..im downloading a printer for my sis!
Happy Birthday Tj
Missing Lauren and Sean