So uh, Nick was supposed to come over yesterday because I had a half day. So I invited him and some of his friends. Some of my friends too. Well I come home to see my Grandfather is here working on my bedroom (my ceeling is messed up.) Anyway.. so I called Nick to tell him that they wouldnt be coming over and he couldnt come anyway. His mom had made a doctors appt. for him. Which I guess worked out perfect, if it was the truth. I can never tell with him. Sometimes I feel like he makes up excuses because he doesnt wanna hang out with me. If that was the case it would hurt my feelings, but I would get over it. I don't know why I am still hung up on him. I would rather not be. I just wish he would want to be friends with me as much as I wanna be his friend. Oh well.. I guess time will tell. He is suposed to come over Tuesday because we both have off from school. So lets see if that happens.
I'm bored. I wanna go out and do something. Blah, I hate being home on Saturday nights.
Yesterday I ended up calling Nick. I had a weird drive to. I haven't talked to the kid in about 4 months. And the last time we talked it was through text message and it didnt end on good terms. So yesterday Julie was over and I was feelin good so I decided I was gonna call him. Out of the clear blue to see how he was and ask him a few questions that have been bothering me. So I call and it seemed like nothing had changed. It kept ringing and ringing. No answer. So I hung up and thought to myself "maybe he saw it was me and didnt pick up." or "maybe he took me out of his phone book and didn't know the number so didnt answer." Before I could come up with anymore excuses for him my phone rang. And it was Nick. I answered and at the other end of the line came a very excited voice saying "HEY LAUREN! WHATS UP?!" I was assuming he was happy to hear from me due to the excitement in his voice. So we went through the hellos and how are yous and I congratulated him on getting his own car and I asked him how the band was doing (which they aren't doing too well. So I was upset to hear that). And then it came.... The word vomit. DUN DUN DUN... "So Nick, why don't we talk anymore? Why aren't we friends?" I have been meaning to ask him that for a good while and it just poured out of my mouth so fast I couldn't even think twice before stopping it. Then there was a pause and then "Lauren ::pause:: Your guess is as good as mine?" Then I went on with "yeah, because I have always wondered what happened? I never could figure out with we didnt remain friends." and he agreed and told me since he now has a car it will be easy for us to hang out and stuff. He asked me if I had anything holding me back like work or sports or something and well.. since I do nothing I told him I was free all the time. He said the only thing holding him back was work but he doesnt work that much. So I told him to give me a call when he is free and we can hang out and do something. Then he agreed and we hung up.
I guess I would feel better about all that if I knew for sure he would call me back. Because back when we used to talk all the time he would say he would call me and we would hang out and it never happened. Only at his lake house did we see each other. And I found that sad since he only lives not even 15 mins away from me. I just hope he was being serious when he said he would call me sometime soon. I guess I will just have to wait and see what happens. See if he has changed.
The funny thing is when I called him even though I haven't talked to him in 4 months (not on the phone. not online. nothing). It's wasnt weird. I wasn't nervous.
So yeah.. How a good few weeks ago my pal Sam asked Stef if our group and her group could be in the yearbook Senior Candids (which are pics the seniors take with their groups of friends) And Stef was all about it! So she said yes to Sam without talking it over with her friends and then when they found out is was like "ew.. we don't wanna be in a pic with them." So Thresa overheard Jen talking to John and Amanda and saying something like "Well, we could just say we agreed to be in your pic with you guys." So then I ask Jen in chours after she had said she was going to be in John picture if she was cool with us (us being: me, Julie, Sam and Theresa) being in the pic with them and she responded with a: "yeah, I don't care. Like I really don't care what we do." So I was like "okay." So then me and Julie stoped Stef in the hall after to school just to make sure with HER if we were still plan on it being all of us in the pic. And she was like "uh naw.. Jen felt bad telling you but she had promised John like 2 weeks ago that we would be with them." (meanwhile Theresa had heard Jen just talk about the with John the day before.) So I was like "well ok. you guys could of told us sooner so we just knew. Cause people have been acting shady and its really not that big of a deal." (*I said it nice too) and the Julie was like "don't worry about it. It doesnt matter either way." and then hugged her. So then last night Sam and Stef got into it online. Then Stef said stupid shit talking about how we arent friends with her cause we are too busy smoking weed, drinking, and having sex. Which is dumb! As far as I know, I'm still a virgin and I don't even drink that much! So I don't know what the fuck she is talking about. And she also said stupid shit like we only asked to be in the pic with them so it looked like we had friends." So I guess she thinks we have been pretending to be her friend for the last 4 years just so we could be in her stupid ass senior picture! Thats so gay. Does she really think she is THAT great that we would be so desperate to get into her picture. WTF.. It's bull shit. I told myself going into school at the begining of the year that I would be involved in NO DRAMA and I guess I couldnt even get through the first 9 weeks. I wish eveyone would just suck it up and stop being cunts.
Yesterday was my Senior Rec dance. I actually had a good time! Usually me and Brentwood don't mix well but in this case I had a good time. Me and my friends danced the whole night! And even a girl you flat out said she hated me at the begining of the year said she liked my dress. Which I thought was nice of her. After the dance me, Julie, Sam and Theresa went to Eat 'N' Park. We saw my sister, Tommy and Isabella there too! That was a fun suprise! Then after we ate we stopped over Julies for a bit. I came home and chilled and watched tv and stuff then hit the sack. Overall it was a fun day!
I'm home from school, sick. I feel like crap! I just have this really bad head cold where I can't breathe, I'm coughing all the time and the snot is out of control. When I asked Judy if I could stay home this morning you would have thought I was trying to ask her if I could kill someone or something. She was flipping out. Cause God forbid I miss ONE day of school. I am not planing on missing tomorrow. In fact, I can't miss tomorrow. So even if I feel worse I will still get my ass up and go. Tomorrow is our Senior Rec football game and stuff. So I have to go to school to be able to take part in the Senior activities and stuff. Like I can't help I'm sick, ya know? She is just so closed minded. She needs to get over whatever the hell is up her ass. Cause I know her and my dad got into it last night. Like really bad. The screaming and yelling and swearing was so bad I went up stairs and jumped in Erin's bed with her. I didnt wanna have to hear that shit.
Well I am o ff to do.. nothing. Maybe watch t.v and try to breathe.
Went to Jeopardy today. It was being taped in Pittsburgh so me, my gam, Katie and her mom went. T'was fun! My Gram has the biggest crush on Alex Trebek so going to this today just made her day! lol.
Tonight Julie, Kaite and myself went to Wendy's then Walmart. We decided we are going to be the Villege people for Halloween this year! lol.. Plus Sam is having this big Halloween party on the 30th and we wanted to be something fun! So Me, Theresa, Katie, Julie and Sam are going to be the Villege People. I'm the construction worker! lol Then after walmart Julie and Katie came over and we watched "American Wedding" <-- funny ass movie!
Yes.. Yesterday was the concert! and YES.. it was AMAZING!
I met Paul. He is very nice. I expected him to look different tho. Not that he was bad looking but I had a different picture in my head. He was very forward with me and would grab my hips and stuff and I didn't really like it. I had only met him that night and it was weird and he made me feel weird. That may be mean to say. But when he hung around me at the concert I felt like I couldnt have fun. Oh well.. Erin was wrong. Maybe she shouldnt set me up ever again! lol
The concert in itself was AMAZING! Flogging Molly kicks major ass! Me and Sam were together for most of the concert. Katie and Julie stayed more in the back caz they didnt wanna be in the circle pit or anything. So Sam and me took out lives into our hands and got as close to the stage as we could. Flogging Molly put on a hell of a show! You couldnt help but jump around the whole time and dance and scream the songs! I am so happy Judy gave in and let me go!
So yeah.. I enjoyed the concert! But not so much Paul.
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