Guess what? The doctor decided HELENA DOESN'T NEED SURGERY. YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY. He said he didn't think it was necessary and it was probably best to just leave it alone, but if it changed in any way I was to come directly back :D
Oh, and the biopsy results show nothing weird. The lump I'll have to get used to because it's probably not going anywhere soon and he said I'll most likely have troubles breast feeding once I have children. Ah well, I'll cross that bridge when I get to it (if I ever get there). Not so keen on having bratty children at the moment any way.
FRAK! IT'S SNOWING OUTSIDE!! I thought we were done with this crap.
Oh! Good news! The hospital got in touch with me before I could get in touch with them. I now have an appointment in the beginning of February. After that this whole mess will (hopefully) be over.
I need to buy Criminal Minds S1 but it's not released in Sweden 'til February. Other than that there are OMG!SO!MANY! DVD's I neeeeeeed to buy. I need to either find a sugar daddy (bwahahahaha) or rob someone or find another crazy-get-rich scheme ;D
Realized that I get off work at 13 tomorrow, YAY! Going to go pick up some books teh boi and me ordered, buy some wine and then hit the gym. Hopefully tomorrow will be a good day ^^
*I* got blamed for the shit that went down at work yesterday when it wasn't my frakkin' fault!!!!!! But do they listen to that? Noooooo. Because it's never her fault. Stupid cunt. My boss sounded sooooo prissy and angry on the phone like I'm the must stupid being in the world. *I* wasn't the one stupid enough to leave the frakkin' sauna on all frakkin' night, or leave all the doors open, or not change chemicals so we pretty much had the machines running dry, or leave the frakkin' lights on all night.
Is it my fault? But of course.
FRAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to go home and crawl under my covers and not get up again. Whooo, this is going to be a fun fun day and I've only been at work 30 minutes. If you read about a homicidal spree in the Swedish papers tomorrow that will probably have been me.
To add another joy. The stupid hospital haven't called me yet, wtf!?! IT'S BEEN OVER A MONTH NOW. They promised I would get a new appointment 'oooh so quick' and they haven't even gotten in touch with me yet. If the lump turns out to be something bad I'm frakkin' strangling them.
I think I need to throw up. Ugh. This day is going to end with me crying, being sick or throwing a hissy fit.
Back from the hospital. Had the mammography, had ultrasound and then got stabbed by finger long needles WHILE getting an ultrasound. Fun times, fun times.
Wanna know something funny? It didn't hurt one bit. Not even the finger long needles ...talk about anticlimax.
They think it's nothing but still gave me a referral to another part of the hospital where they'll stab me with more needles. I seriously don't think I've had THAT many people grab my boobs in one day before, not even when I was a horny teenager.
Heeeeeeh. I have markings over my boobies ...x marks the spot and things like that. So that they would know where the stab me xDDDD
Still haven't been to the hospital and gotten a mammography ...but the lump is still there. No, it's not gone. Bastard. I was hoping it'd go away so I wouldn't have to go through with this.
Knowing my luck they'll probably have to stab me repeatedly with needles long as your arms.
I'm suffering from hormones from hell too. Not a day has gone by without me wanting to strangle someone and I haven't had a good night's sleep in weeks! Or maybe it's one week. Hah, I can't even remember!
Ok. Been to the first doctor and she groped and squeezed my breast in every position I could come up with. She thinks it's nothing serious but I have to go to the hospital and have a mammography anyway. In other words I'll have to wait a couple of weeks more to get a "Hey, you're okay!" message.
Apparently getting a mammography hurts like a bitch too. Great. At least that's what Jasmine said her mom told her.
It's 14:37 here and I pretty much just got back from work. DYING to have a drink. Tomorrow I'll have to tell my parents about the mammography because I'm going there for dinner. Why you ask? BECAUSE my mom is a nurse and she'll find out somehow. She always finds stuff like that out ...even though she works with psyciatrical medical care. All I know is that they better have cookies and booze for me after I tell them xP
Work week from hell is well on its way and my head is tired plus it hurts like hell.
Oh, yeah. I found a lump in my right breast three - fours days ago. It has not disappeared yet. Great. I have to try and make a doctor's appointment now to have it checked out. Trying to get a hold of a doctor is like trying to get a hold of CSN though ...and no one except the Swedish people on my flist will get that reference.
It's just that I'm 24 fucking years old. I shouldn't have to worry about stupid lumps in my stupid right breast.
Most likely it's nothing.
Well, that pretty much sums up all the fun I've been having lately. How's life treating you guys?
bouncy
angry
hungry
confused
tired
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