Taleah's.

I did the bad thing again.

Talked about it a bit so not feeling too bad about it but the guilt's starting to kick in.

Just hope my mum doesn't notice this time otherwise she'll make me feel even worse about it.

Disappointed in myself too because I managed to go for so long without it and tonight everything just got on top of me.

I feel like such a fucking crazy person.

I'm not really. Well, I won't be for much longer hopefully.

I just want to be normal.

Fuckin hell.

xxx

Not feeling very well. I've been throwing up since Monday. Missed a day of work too.

This cheered me up a bit :)

xxx

Photo from being drunk in the car, on the way to Leo's house and playing with the night setting.

Reet good.

Will edit this later with our Thursday night adventures.

But now it's time to play poker.

xxx

Today's events were fun :3

Went to Liverpool with Leo, Joe and Skelly for a chinese buffet at Yums. I made a fool of myself, as usual, by squeezing the bottle of sweet chilli sauce too hard and causing a sauce explosion. The waitress was not happy >__> Leo translated the insults for me lol. I also managed to splash Joe with it so sauce jokes and evil looks all night.

It was raining deaddd hard so we had to run around looking for somewhere to go for a drink as I'd conveniently forgotten where baa bar was XD. I remembered eventually but we left after one drink as the upstairs bit was shut and it was full of scary chavs. Korova looked very inviting so we crashed there for the rest of the night and watched weird japanese cinema on the tv screens.

And we jumped in a giant puddle on the way home.

Good times.

But yeah, the main thing I wanted to talk about is I've actually got a plan for the future. I've always wanted to run my own business and I suggested to Joe that if by the time we're 25 we don't have proper careers we run a bar together. I've been thinking about it a lot and I talked to my mum about it and she seems quite enthusiastic. She suggested why don't I just start now? So that's what I'm going to do lol. My dad ran his own business for years so I'm gonna get him to help me make a business plan and I was thinking about going to night school and doing a course in it. I'm so happy I finally decided what I want to do, there's nothing else I can really imagine doing. I hated education so college and university are a definate no and I can't see myself working at Gamestation the rest of my life. I really enjoy doing hands-on work so I think this would be perfect.

I'd be an entrepreneur.

Like Liam Young.

But real.

Lol.

xxx

I don't do these very often and thought it was about time I updated on everything that's happened recently.

At the moment I'm not feeling too well. My mum's had a really bad cold the past few days and I think I've finally picked it up. My throat is all dry and scratchy and I can't stop coughing. Loads of people in work have got it too.

Speaking of work I quit New Look after 3 days lol. It was really boring and the manager was a complete tool. She didn't pay anyone their overtime for last month and she overpaid me £15. How hard is it to work out 3 days pay? Most of the girls there were quite snobby too, they barely spoke to me. I think I needed to be more chav to fit it. I'm not going to bother looking for another job, Gamestation is good enough for now and I should be going back to college in September.

Another big thing is, I got my lip pierced. I've wanted a facial piercing since I was about 13 but I was never sure what to get and I was scared about it hurting. Usually I'd never have enough money by the time I plucked up the courage. But last Friday I had enough money and I just thought "Fuck it. Why not?" I'd been asking Lisa in work about her lip piercing too so I had a bit better knowledge about it. I think that helped with the decision making.
The piercer that did it was really nice, we were talking all the way through the session, I only stopped when she put the needle through my lip lol. It didn't hurt that much, only as bad as getting a needle at the dentist. She did put numb gel stuff on though so that probably helped quite a bit. It's still really swollen and sore but it does take about two weeks to go down so I've just got to be patient. If all goes well I've been thinking about getting my nose pierced but I'm gonna think about it a bit more.

And finally the most important thing, it's Christmas in two weeks! I'm so busy in the days leading up as well, it's great. Pub on Thursday with lots of peeps not to mention the wonderful Miss Jennifer Birch ;D. Then work, work, work in the week, I get paid next Thursday so lots of drinking then. Friday is the staff night out in Liverpool and we're going Ghosthunting (Lulz) and for a meal afterwards. And hopefully at some point me and the gang will be going out in liverpool for a meal also. Oh and there's my new years eve party that needs some serious organization and invite merry-making.
I've bought everyone's Christmas presents so I just need to wrap them all. I also have yet to put up my decorations as my parents are lazy and won't buy a tree but they should be up by the weekend.

Soooo some good times are going to be had by all this Christmas :D.

I GOT THE JOB!

ASDFGHJKL XD

I was soooo nervous I thought I completely messed it up but the manager rang me at 3 and told me I got it :D. And she said it would take a week for her to tell me whether or not I got it but obviously not. The actual interview wasn't too bad but it did take ages to complete and I kept repeating myself which was a bit embarrassing XD. After the 30 minute talk I had to go on the shop floor and I had 10 minutes to make an outfit and then I had to explain why I chose each item blah blah. The manager seemed quite impressed by what I picked so that was cool.

So now I'm working in New Look for 16 hours a week. I talked to my manager, Graham, at gamestation and he said he'll be flexible with my hours if I want to stay. So I can have two jobs :D. Which is fantastic because it means I get more pay and I don't have to leave all the awesome people at gamestation. I'd hate to leave there, I'm going to have to eventually but I'm gonna stay for christmas at the very least. The New Look job is only temporary for nine months so if they don't keep me on and I leave Gamestation I'll be a bit screwed :/. But at least I'll have it on my CV so I can get a job in Topshop or something.

Omg this is turning out to be one of the best weeks ever. All I need now is Thursday to go well and I'm sorted :D. I can't wait, we've been chatting on the phone loads and he's really nice and easy to talk to so hopefully Thursday will be a laugh.

And I'm buying an xbox 360 so I can go online and play against peoples. The fun never ends.

p.s. New Look is 50% discount :OOOOO

I'm gonna have so many clothes by the end of next week XD

xxx

I have a date.

That sentence just doesn't sound right lol.

Going out in Liverpool next Thursday to see the sights and for lunch.

Speaking to him for the first time tommorow night, I'm well nervous.

I'm now officially a myspace whore XD

Damn that Joe boy.

xxx

ARE FRIGGIN AWE-SUMMM MAAAAAAN

Their Myspace

If you don't know them go listen, NOW!

I'm obsessed with their new single "I Wish I Was Someone Better"

Here for your viewing pleasure:



Seriously these guys need to come to Liverpool/Manchester soon or I'm going to have to go to Bristol and see them with Biffy Clyro D:

And if this video doesn't get onto the Myspace Featured Music page then I'll eat my panda hat.

*Fangasm*

(This is so getting posted in a myspazz bulletin)

Oh yeah PEE-ESS I finally finished updating my CV and writing a cover letter so I'm gonna go into town tomorrow and hand one in at New Look. I hope the job's still open D:

And thennnn I'm probs going to go into Warrington and see the shiny new shops and whine at the managers until they give me a job.

Haha I can't believe I'm hunting for another job so hard when I've already got one. Ah the irony XD. I'm getting sick of nerdy boys. BRING ON THE LOBOTOMISED GIRLS :D

Also I actually managed to eat okay today. By that I mean I had nothing all day except water and cups of tea until dinner and then I had chicken, rice, veg and bread. And then a large slice of lemon cake. Whoops. But it tasted goooooood :D. Anyhoo I've lost like 2 pounds in a week so I'm feeling quite optimistic :). Haha I am sooo getting addicted to tea XD. How British of me.

Wow I actually managed to make a long post out of pretty much NOTHING. I'm getting better at this blogging thang.

Did I just say thang?

*Stabs self*

That's better :)

xxx

I applied for Zara in Warrington.

I WANT THIS JOB SOOOO BADLYYYY D:

Even though they're Nazis.

But I don't care because they're NOMNOMNOM worthy.

Yey facism!

Yeahhhhhhh I'm bored and it's been like 2 months since I last updated? So I thought I'd write an ELL-JAY for kicks. Just so you know I'm still alive. Even though everyone that reads this already knows that. Ahh continuity error. Nvm.

Well as you can see with those super special eyeballs of yours I've finally updated the layout. I had nothing else to do and being slightly hungover my brain wasn't really up to much today. Also the reason why I spent the whole day watching Secret Window and The Weekenders on tv-links. And it has to be said The Weekenders pwns Secret Window's arse any day. Tino Tonitini love <3. I forgot how funny that show was.

Last night was quite good, Jenjen came home from Sunderland so we went to her house and had a little shindig. It was reet fun. We watched movies, ate haribo, drank jack daniels and tried hopelessly to play on the Wii. I also took two polaroid pictures after finally getting some film. Oh and I accidentally spoiled the ending of a film and nearly got into a fight with Joe about it. Well not nearly, actually did. He said he didn't want to see it anyway >.> But yes, I am retarded.

(Hahaha Alien is on tv and it's the chestburster scene. GAWWD ITS SO FUNNY XD)

On another random note my Holga 120N should be showing up in a few days :D. And (with the help of my dad) I managed how to focus my Lubitel so I can actually use it now. If you haven't a clue what I'm going on about then that means you're not as much of a geek as me. They're my cameras and I luff them :3 I just need to buy some decent film. Money to buy film would also be nice. I should be getting some more cash as it's getting closer to Christmas but I doubt Gamestation are gonna give me more hours as we have 9 members of staff and we're hiring a few more xmas temps. So I'm applying for a job at New Look. Oh the joy. I'm probably gonna hate it, and the chavs that work there, but it's another job and a fashion one too. Helpful as I want to apply for Topshop/H&M/Zara soon. Gawd I hope I get the job. I want to try and become a fashion buyer in a few years if I can't go to university and do the photography thing. I think I'd do quite well in fashion. And I can sew lol.

I can't think of anything else interesting to write soooo I'm gonna go watch people get eaten by big black shiny aliens.

LATER DAYS!