The Raven's Roost

There was a pretty good sale at Aldi and I bought this massive pork butt to put on the smoker. It's been out there since about 3 pm yesterday, slow and low. We've built the fire up again this morning, hoping to push it up to "done" temperature since it was sitting at 170 when I got up.

Meanwhile I'm probably going to get some yard work done before it gets warm today. The grass is getting high, and you can pick up a tick just walking to the mailbox.

I got that abdominal ultrasound done for my doctor, and the results said nothing unexpected - thickening of the gallbladder which had been noted before, but everything else normal. Her office called me yesterday at 4:30 saying she "needed" me to come in to discuss the results, so now I get to be anxious and panicky all weekend about that. What does she see that isn't in the write-up? I can't figure out what's wrong and I'm terrified. I found that there's a rare illness that affects both the gallbladder and liver, and it's very hard to treat. I wonder if that's it.

At least my back has healed up and I've returned to running and yoga. No strength just yet, I'm going to give that a few more days. Occasionally I'll be turning over in bed and feel a mild pain, so I'm waiting for that to resolve before I get back into weightlifting. I might get the push mower out to work on the septic mound though. It'll go faster than the weed-whacker, but it's also a little more physically demanding.

I'm looking forward to pulled pork but I'm also not having a great weekend. This cloud of anxiety is stressing me out.