If you read you'll judge

I look in my closet and come across letters from when Dante was incarcerated. I see letters from me and NO ONE ELSE. I asked his alleged "friends" to write to him, and I see nothing. What kind of best friend is Joey to Dante when he couldn't boost his self-esteem with a letter. Everyone wanted to know about some thing that WASN'T their business. Every one is fighting because you children had to make it about you and choose sides. Tell me, why do you all bow down to, well will call him "Ben, but why listen to the words of a child? An obviously troubled child at that. Unfortunately, I don't blame "Ben", Luis, OR, the kid with the stammer, I blame one person and that one person is SNITCH.

SNITCH has been causing problems for me way before any of you knew him. He explains that I need to get over things that happened SEVEN YEARS AGO? What is that exactly? When him and Wackie teamed up it was way worse. Wackie took MY boyfriend and made me out to be the bad girl. I had every right to be mad. Ian was a good kid, never acted the way he did until he got deep with some people, he was a good person TO ME and that's all that matters. When we broke up, Snitch, made a big nonexistent problem... he and Wackie ruined that friendship. Some times I think Snitch is jealous because I dated Ian and he didn't. A lot of people may be, because they are sick and wanted to be the girl who dated the kid who died so you have a sob story for the world. I had him first people, get over it. Let me tell you some thing Ian died in my heart way before he actually died. I had to cut him off because of the IMMATURITY that spreads around here, and the backstabbing that goes on. You people ruined it. I didn't get to speak to him about it til a month before he died. I have every right to miss someone because Ian and I had a lot of unfinished business and we let stupid people get in our way. Not to EVEN touch on the Dolly subject... a 19 year friendship DOWN the drain. And I have Wackie telling me my dad deserved to die? Look at your NO JOB HAVING CHILD ABUSING ALCOHOLIC FATHER.

So here's how it all started. Stammering boy would message me inappropriate things and I would say I am not interested like that, and he couldn't handle that. At Ian's wake he made an inappropriate comment about me crying "over another man." I cry, because I am guilty about how I let two ignorant, spoiled brats ruin me and him. Now you guys are trying to ruin Dante and I? So back to Snitch, now Snitch, would come to my house and say "Ben," Stammerboy, and Joe wanted to fight and were saying things. He would even say people we didn't know wanted to fight. So I started to do a little researched, and a majority of these people had inappropriate relations with Snitch's girlfriend. So, bam! We figure out what he's trying to do... he wants Dante to fight everyone for him, in his own vindictive way. He is a lot smarter than we think. I get blamed and slandered because Stammer-boy went to jail, oh no, that was the day after Snitch (who is on probation) gets arrested and comes out 15 minutes later. WHAT DOES THAT SOUND LIKE TO YOU?

So now Ben comes to "fight" and loses. Now again, we're at fault, am I correct? Because I hit my breaking point? I had to lie and say I died to avoid you guys, now I look outside and there "Ben" is. I go to the mall, THERE HE IS. I go to the bus stop, there he is. I get harassment on form-spring, you're real mature. Whoever has audacity to say I am provoking them, having someone outside my house EVERY DAY, is a scum bag. Yep I said it, and I am putting this all out there so I never have to explain myself again. Who the hell are some of these people? You are childish pieces of trash and it's the worst part of my life to explain to any child I may have that I had to watch a kid DIE because you guys can't cool it with the fucking DRUGS. That's all Snitch is, he is a drug dealer. A drug dealer is a MURDERER he doesn't care if they take their drugs and DIE. A drug dealer ruins as many lives as a murderer would. Is that all why you like him? Because he gives you drugs? Then GO BE WITH HIM ALL OF YOU, AND THEN YOU WILL DIE TO. Who the fuck has the right to smoke pot around a recovering drug addict you STUPID pieces of shit. You are ENABLERS, and you DON'T GIVE A SHIT WHAT THE KID JUST WENT THROUGH? And as for [well call him Jaun Frost] MIND YOUR BUSINESS. Snitch, I don't talk to anyone cause of you, because, I don't need to PUKE when I hear your name.


So I'm leaving it at this, no one ask or bother me about it again. Fuck you and your GUILTY-PITY-ME tattoo you piece of trash. Go cry that I write shit on facebook because your lame friends are on my page to tell you and show you what I have to say. I want them to show you, and I want you to say some thing to me.


No wonder why I have a heart problem, because of the drama Snitch has brought on. If Ben can't realize it, HE IS A RETARD. Sorry you got hit but maybe you should FIGHT THE RIGHT PERSON and stop being an idiot. This isn't a "provoking" letter, this is the truth. Your friend wants you in jail.

You are all drama loving little girls, BE ASHAMED OF YOURSELVES.

Everything's been okay lately. I feel fine. Not to bad at all for once in my life. Probably because I cut a lot of people off and you know what - I feel good. Got a job, I just hope the days go by smoothly there. I definatly love everything that's going on right now. I feel like I have a life, working makes my life whole again.

Okay, I need to rant.

I was just watching the news, and I caught part of a report on Michael Jackson .
As we all know, Jackson died the other day.He was an entertainer who performed
for decades. He made millions, he spent millions, and he did a lot of things
that make him a villain to many people. I understand that his death would affect
a lot of people, and I respect those people who mourn his death, but that isn't
the point of my rant.

Why is it that when ONE man dies, the whole of America loses their minds with
grief. When a man dies whose only contribution to the country was to ENTERTAIN
people, the American people find the need to flock to a memorial in Hollywood ,
and even Congress sees the need to hold a "moment of silence" for his passing?

Am I missing something here? ONE man dies, and all of a sudden he's a freaking
martyr because he entertained us for a few decades? What about all those
SOLDIERS who have died to give us freedom ? All those Soldiers who, knowing that
they would be asked to fight in a war, still raised their hands and swore to
defend the Constitution and the United States of America . Where is their
moment of silence ? Where are the people flocking to their graves or memorials
and mourning over them because they made the ultimate sacrifice? Why is it when
a Soldier dies, there are more people saying "good riddance," and "thank God for
IEDs?" When did this country become so callused to the sacrifice of GOOD MEN and
WOMEN, that they can arbitrarily blow off their deaths, and instead, throw
themselves into mourning for a "Pop Icon ?"

I think that if they are going to hold a moment of silence IN CONGRESS for
Michael Jackson, they need to hold a moment of silence for every service member
killed in Iraq and Afghanistan . They need to PUBLICLY recognize every life
that has been lost so that the American people can live their callous little
lives in the luxury and freedom that WE, those that are living and those that
have gone on, have provided for them. But, wait, that would take too much time,
because there have been so many willing to make that sacrifice. After all, we
will never make millions of dollars. We will never star in movies, or write hit
songs that the world will listen too. We only shed our blood, sweat and tears so
that people can enjoy what they have.

Sorry if I have offended, but I needed to say it.
Remember these five words the next time you think of someone who is serving in
the military;

"So that others may live...."


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Life isn't what it used to be. I always had TV to get me through life, but do we see what shit is on TV now? They took all good cartoons off, we're stuck with Spongebob nigga Pants. No Rugrats, NO Ahh Real Monsters, we get shit. Shit I tell you. No more TRL so fuck music videos. Computers killed music by the way...and radios at that. Computers kill buying colletables...so nothing's worth anything because you can find anything. Fuck libraries, right? No use for them.


I hate computers, life was simple before them. More meaninful. 2000's suck big time.

I should be studying. I should be having fun. I have too much time on my hands that's why I have such bad thoughts.

i will be writing in this soon...tomorrow. Real entry, PROMISE!

I have been so frustrated lately I need a break from anyone and every thing.

SlIzeURface86 (12:08:17 PM): i just fuck alot

Miss December xo (12:08:21 PM): lmao

SlIzeURface86 (12:08:33 PM): i had a bf


"Wrong IM" LMAO