sun-up
so many have gone to sleep is it now time to awaken?
mood: dreamy
mood: dreamy
Works Cited
Written on My Body
Moment One
I am frozen in the doorway between the living room and the kitchen. Behind me, the women bustle to prepare the Thanksgiving turkey. They talk about houseplants and dessert recipes. In front of me, the men gather in front of the football game, beer in hand. I hesitate, debating which room is the lesser of the two evils. I know I am expected in the kitchen even though I just float around uselessly and break the special occasion china. The longer I wait the more deficient I become in my boyfriend’s mother’s eyes. How will I care for her son with my lack of domestic ability?
I head for the bathroom to sit on the sink counter, wondering how long I can remain absent before someone notices.
( Recovering a Self: Deconstructing DiscourseCollapse )
I am frozen in the doorway between the living room and the kitchen. Behind me, the women bustle to prepare the Thanksgiving turkey. They talk about houseplants and dessert recipes. In front of me, the men gather in front of the football game, beer in hand. I hesitate, debating which room is the lesser of the two evils. I know I am expected in the kitchen even though I just float around uselessly and break the special occasion china. The longer I wait the more deficient I become in my boyfriend’s mother’s eyes. How will I care for her son with my lack of domestic ability?
I head for the bathroom to sit on the sink counter, wondering how long I can remain absent before someone notices.
( Recovering a Self: Deconstructing DiscourseCollapse )
Nihilism
If you don’t see the appeal of nihilism you still have something you believe in.
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( Nihilism originates from the Latin word, nihil, meaning nothing, and came into use in the early 19th century.Collapse )
www.counterorder.com
( Nihilism originates from the Latin word, nihil, meaning nothing, and came into use in the early 19th century.Collapse )
Adopting the Conviction - Artistic Statement
This project started as a visual interpretation. I carefully selected images I felt represented the postmodern influences in my life. In Photoshop, I combined Michel Foucault, an eye, and the silhouette of a woman with a background that depicts light and religion. I chose these images for specific reasons. Religion (the stained glass behind the eye) was the first notable discourse that prompted me to reject a prescribed narrative – I was a typical teenager, rebelling against the family religion. I thought long and hard about the way we motivate ourselves through life, and I came to the conclusion that I had no use for the concept of afterlife. This line of thinking, the questioning of assumed narratives, brought me into realms of other discourse.
A strong-willed, career-oriented woman, I began to notice and resent the gender boundaries that contain me. Through the academic setting, I explored feminism (represented by the silhouette of a woman), and now everyday I question the patriarchal ideologies that blatantly or not so blatantly bombard me.
I credit Michel Foucault (and Professor Catherine Taylor explaining Foucault) for giving me the language to articulate my relational conflicts. See that his profile is cast in light. As I attempt to understand biopolitics (as described by Foucault as the conflicting power forces to which we are subject), and I engage in micropolitics (E.g. attempting to remove gender priority from my language), I try to remain aware of my relational self. To expand using standpoint theory, my ideologies, motivations, and priorities are only the way they are because of my societal and cultural group positioning.
Borrowing terms from Kenneth Burke, I believe I am an individualist, but I realize there are materialist restrictions. If we view life as an act, we can only be individually driven within the limits of our scene. This acknowledgement explains the dominance of the eye. Whether the eye is considered forlorn, optimistic, or impassive, it is constant. It captures the disjointed nature of postmodern theory, which asserts that however much the individual knows, the truth is only ever true to that subject. Whereas I find this knowledge liberating, I understand how others find it deeply disconcerting and nihilistic.
To elucidate the postmodern influences depicted in the visual, I have posted supporting pieces on this blog. The blog itself, designed for a feel of disjunction and fluidity, is explained in the community userinfo.
A strong-willed, career-oriented woman, I began to notice and resent the gender boundaries that contain me. Through the academic setting, I explored feminism (represented by the silhouette of a woman), and now everyday I question the patriarchal ideologies that blatantly or not so blatantly bombard me.
I credit Michel Foucault (and Professor Catherine Taylor explaining Foucault) for giving me the language to articulate my relational conflicts. See that his profile is cast in light. As I attempt to understand biopolitics (as described by Foucault as the conflicting power forces to which we are subject), and I engage in micropolitics (E.g. attempting to remove gender priority from my language), I try to remain aware of my relational self. To expand using standpoint theory, my ideologies, motivations, and priorities are only the way they are because of my societal and cultural group positioning.
Borrowing terms from Kenneth Burke, I believe I am an individualist, but I realize there are materialist restrictions. If we view life as an act, we can only be individually driven within the limits of our scene. This acknowledgement explains the dominance of the eye. Whether the eye is considered forlorn, optimistic, or impassive, it is constant. It captures the disjointed nature of postmodern theory, which asserts that however much the individual knows, the truth is only ever true to that subject. Whereas I find this knowledge liberating, I understand how others find it deeply disconcerting and nihilistic.
To elucidate the postmodern influences depicted in the visual, I have posted supporting pieces on this blog. The blog itself, designed for a feel of disjunction and fluidity, is explained in the community userinfo.