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poppetawoppetI'm not afraid to love and lose.
I'm a military kid, so having people pass through my life is actually pretty easy (in some ways,) for me.
I'm afraid no one will love me the way they do in stories.
Logically, I know love takes work and commitment, and time.
Theoretically, I just want someone to look at me and go, yep, that's her the love of my life. Let me woo you.
Sometimes I'm so afraid I won't find my life companion, I don't even try. What's the point? Not like I've had a serious relationship in 34 years, why start now?
The only time I've felt unconditional love towards someone else, it's been a family member, or my dog.
They say you can't be in love until you love yourself.
I'm afraid that's not going to happen, either.
I'm a military kid, so having people pass through my life is actually pretty easy (in some ways,) for me.
I'm afraid no one will love me the way they do in stories.
Logically, I know love takes work and commitment, and time.
Theoretically, I just want someone to look at me and go, yep, that's her the love of my life. Let me woo you.
Sometimes I'm so afraid I won't find my life companion, I don't even try. What's the point? Not like I've had a serious relationship in 34 years, why start now?
The only time I've felt unconditional love towards someone else, it's been a family member, or my dog.
They say you can't be in love until you love yourself.
I'm afraid that's not going to happen, either.
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on 2017-01-16 10:38 pm (UTC)no subject
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on 2017-01-18 09:25 pm (UTC)I thought my future looked much the same until I met my husband, when everything was all so unexpectedly simple after all of the missteps before.
It's important to have friends that you love, even if romantic love does not find you. I expect it has a better chance, though, if you do have good friendships. Good friends that you love tend to persuade you of the parts of yourself that are lovable, and it all slowly works toward a better place. Plus, the process itself is worth it.
Here's hoping that helps a little.
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on 2017-01-18 11:38 pm (UTC)Well done with the prompt.