lj?
remember when livejournal was the shit?
No one went a day without updating or reading it.
I think its funny because the people I was so intent on updating for, and reading their LJs, I don't even talk to them anymore.
In fact the only person who will still talk to me is Alissa, and we still have little to no contact. It used to bother me more. Shandra was the only one who broke my heart, I mean everyone else, we went our seperate ways years ago. But the fact that Poppy and Caitlin, and people as such don't evern correspond with me makes me think something went down I don't know about. Phil says that if friends ditch you they're not your friends. I love him, but I don't know that hes right. He is a hardcore socially uncomfterable person.
Christina. Christina. Christina.
do you even read Lj anymore?
At least this splitup isn't like our last and we can still talk and joke around. But the fact that you wouldnt even apologize killed me. "You're over him I thought" Yeah I am, doesn't mean I think its ok to be talking to my ex. Would you catch me talking to Elizabeth? Wouldn't you be pissed? You would. But thats not all that sucked. We used to hang out every day and even the second time around when you said you would really make an effort and you had more time you were still with your boyfriend every day.
I dunno. Its good to remember the times of rollerblading and so on. And I guess I'm maybe a little bit too dependent on best friends. But hey thats just who I am.I'm a needy little Bitch.
Anyway for anyone who is still my friend or isnt.
My life is hectic. I now have 4 nephews, TJ whose 5, the twins who are 3, and aiden who is getting close to a year old now. They dominate my life with an outstanding force. I try to spend time with them as often as possible. Have arguemnts with Kai about who loves who more. Etc. And its wonderful, I feel like I'm really blessed to have them in my life.
I'm doing school full time. And well. I hate it but I'm doing well. It turns out if I go and do the work I ace it, but It cant cover the fact that I hate it. It bores me it doesnt move me. I wanna work on runways backstage at shows, ON STAGE. Hopefully one day it will all pay out.
I work at GMGC teaching gymnastics. I used to love it, but more and more my hatred for it grows. I can't get moved up to teaching higher teams because the person who organizes that hates me, and our new manager/director doesnt know shit. The only thing that keeps me there is my girls. The kind of attachment you get to them is like a family. No one ever says the girls I teach, you refer to them as my girls. Because thats how you feel, It becomes a part of you. But eventually I will have to move on and hopefully I will be offered a high paying enough job that the cash can replace my empty heart.
I'm with Phillip R. Ollson. And I have to say hes the only person I've been this serious about ever.
Aries and Saggitarius. Supposedly we have real potential if I can get over my constand need for someone who Is NOT steady and loving. And I can, I love him, I love that he is stable, that he doesn't drift. I know he is here for me. And thats impressive, because as well as being my boyfriend, he is my best friend and he knows me inside out. Anyone who can see me throw a fit, let me pull out their hair when I get angry and still keep me in line, is the perfect man. My other guy friends think that "you're not being Katie how can you let a man control you" He doesnt let me drink without him or do crazy sht and they think me agreeing to that is me giving up myself, but they dont understand that hes rigt, I NEED boundaries and he gives them but he still lets me walk on him (metophorically) when I need to.
We sit up late at night smashing cookies on each other and laughing till our stomachs feel like they will burst. And that to me almost seems like a garantee that we are meant only to be friends. But then we make love and its amazing and our chemistry is amazing. I love him so much it hurts. he makes me laugh AND he doesnt make me cry.
No one went a day without updating or reading it.
I think its funny because the people I was so intent on updating for, and reading their LJs, I don't even talk to them anymore.
In fact the only person who will still talk to me is Alissa, and we still have little to no contact. It used to bother me more. Shandra was the only one who broke my heart, I mean everyone else, we went our seperate ways years ago. But the fact that Poppy and Caitlin, and people as such don't evern correspond with me makes me think something went down I don't know about. Phil says that if friends ditch you they're not your friends. I love him, but I don't know that hes right. He is a hardcore socially uncomfterable person.
Christina. Christina. Christina.
do you even read Lj anymore?
At least this splitup isn't like our last and we can still talk and joke around. But the fact that you wouldnt even apologize killed me. "You're over him I thought" Yeah I am, doesn't mean I think its ok to be talking to my ex. Would you catch me talking to Elizabeth? Wouldn't you be pissed? You would. But thats not all that sucked. We used to hang out every day and even the second time around when you said you would really make an effort and you had more time you were still with your boyfriend every day.
I dunno. Its good to remember the times of rollerblading and so on. And I guess I'm maybe a little bit too dependent on best friends. But hey thats just who I am.I'm a needy little Bitch.
Anyway for anyone who is still my friend or isnt.
My life is hectic. I now have 4 nephews, TJ whose 5, the twins who are 3, and aiden who is getting close to a year old now. They dominate my life with an outstanding force. I try to spend time with them as often as possible. Have arguemnts with Kai about who loves who more. Etc. And its wonderful, I feel like I'm really blessed to have them in my life.
I'm doing school full time. And well. I hate it but I'm doing well. It turns out if I go and do the work I ace it, but It cant cover the fact that I hate it. It bores me it doesnt move me. I wanna work on runways backstage at shows, ON STAGE. Hopefully one day it will all pay out.
I work at GMGC teaching gymnastics. I used to love it, but more and more my hatred for it grows. I can't get moved up to teaching higher teams because the person who organizes that hates me, and our new manager/director doesnt know shit. The only thing that keeps me there is my girls. The kind of attachment you get to them is like a family. No one ever says the girls I teach, you refer to them as my girls. Because thats how you feel, It becomes a part of you. But eventually I will have to move on and hopefully I will be offered a high paying enough job that the cash can replace my empty heart.
I'm with Phillip R. Ollson. And I have to say hes the only person I've been this serious about ever.
Aries and Saggitarius. Supposedly we have real potential if I can get over my constand need for someone who Is NOT steady and loving. And I can, I love him, I love that he is stable, that he doesn't drift. I know he is here for me. And thats impressive, because as well as being my boyfriend, he is my best friend and he knows me inside out. Anyone who can see me throw a fit, let me pull out their hair when I get angry and still keep me in line, is the perfect man. My other guy friends think that "you're not being Katie how can you let a man control you" He doesnt let me drink without him or do crazy sht and they think me agreeing to that is me giving up myself, but they dont understand that hes rigt, I NEED boundaries and he gives them but he still lets me walk on him (metophorically) when I need to.
We sit up late at night smashing cookies on each other and laughing till our stomachs feel like they will burst. And that to me almost seems like a garantee that we are meant only to be friends. But then we make love and its amazing and our chemistry is amazing. I love him so much it hurts. he makes me laugh AND he doesnt make me cry.
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curious