So are the wigs of ~PR~

Todd's mom was diagnosed with cancer 10 days ago. Four days ago she met with her oncologist to schedule chemo. We brought her to the ER last night - it wasn't just dehydration, her body had begun its last fight. Today the cancer broke through the wall of her intestines and sent her body into sepsis. The ER Doctor mentioned hospice and asked if they had filled out end-of-life directives. He of course has never considered the need. Today we made the decision, as a family, through tears. That she wouldn't want to go through the trauma of attempting to recover from a surgery that had less than a 1% possibility of survival. We agreed on the DNR, but to continue antibiotics, blood thinners, and pain meds. The grandchildren returned from their trips with their friends and Greek society formals. They drove five hours back to ATL - not knowing that she was even sick on Friday. And diving here to be able to say goodbye. He doesn't know how to say goodbye. I'm not sure anyone does. They've been married 54 years. His children have never seen him cry, and they're both well over 50. I've sent my husband to get some rest. It's almost 3 a.m. There are no monitors in the room, so I'm watching for Cheyene Stokes respiration before I wake anyone or call my SIL and her kids. She's not writhing in what looked to everyone like pain. It was definite distress, they tell us it wasn't pain. It was distressing to the children - hell they're 21 - but they're still children when they're seeing their grandma near death. She had two priests give her last rites. And she prayed The Lord's Prayer and mouthed a Hail Mary. I hope that gave her the comfort she needed. Back to bedside duties. Tell the people in your life you love them. Tomorrows have a way of falling down in mid-air (to quote a really bad over used poem from the 70s or 80s). But the poet is right, with every goodbye - you learn.

Hey yall - over on FB I created a group - people helped - detectives were able to trace his phone, and we found him. I say we as a collective effort. Last night his car broke down and that's where the cops found him. They took him to a hospital to be checked out - they told us they would hold him long enough for us to drive to Charleston to see him/get him. He told the hospital he was fine, they called us and asked him if he'd like to talk to his family and he said he wasn't interested and specifically had nothing to say to us/would not talk to us.

He's ill - he's told the police he's working. His company shut down months ago. He is compromising his severance by visiting the hotel properties owned by the company who took them over. He is playing games and not texting us - just wanting to direct his own show. Emotional rollercoaster is not enough to cover.

I should be sleeping. It's 135 and I have to be up at 430. Hospital at 6. His surgery at 8. 6-8 hours. Squamous Cell Carcinoma -/ laryngeal cancer that survived being cut out and radiation.
If all goes well he will learn to talk again with the prosthesis/stoma.
I can't imagine going in and knowing the best outcome is no voice and breathing through a hole on your neck. So good vibes, energy, prayers -- whatever you've got -- send em our way.
He's been my Bobby since I was four. My dad introduced us to him, thought he'd be a good fit for me and mom. He's been through open heart, heart caths, stints, a stroke, the surgery/radiation for this..,, just need him to pull through again.

Hubby had a high school band reunion gathering this week, it was after one of my longest days so far at work, I came home. He had fun, which was great, he has an amazing group of friends from HS. I'm thankful for my one lifelong buddy - we're coming up on 30 years this summer. Hubby said he was sorry he didn't get to show me off -- I am constantly amused and thankful for him. :) We donated our hand-me-down furniture bits to a family starting from zero last summer. Thanks to my boss we were able to Ikea stock the guest room with a shelving unit, desk, and dresser. Nigel got a cat tree thanks to Amazon lightning deal/prime that is in the guest room. We also grabbed a groupon new comforter set too. So he's got lots of fun ahead of him. We are lounging and relaxing today, we do a lot of that.
We have a new Brunch Brigade that is good fun. Looking forward to a monthly gathering of old and new friends - all drama free. Nice to finally be at that place.
I hope your New Year is off to an equally unremarkable start.

~PR~

Wishing all of you a very happy celebration of your choosing/faith tradition.

We celebrate Christmas with our families.

I hope you are able to be with your family/family of choice.

Best wishes to you and yours,
~PR~

I have two winter coats up on ebay.

One is down filled with a fox-fur trimmed removable hood. It's machine washable! Silver/sage gray/green color. 1X

One is a black raincoat in a trenchcoat style - removable padded liner for winter. Sz. 18

There is one men's tweed jacket size L too.

http://www.ebay.com/usr/playright

I am going to get serious about my artwork.
I have figured out what unlike to shoot and how I like to make it into art. I like to shoot environmental and documentary portraiture and I like to teach people how to use their cameras and improve their photographic skill set. It's time to develop a marketing concept and a cohesive online presence.

Rejection

It's what's for dinner.

PR

3.5 hours as a series of 30 minute interviews three of the four were good one I felt like I was being cross examined (then was told that guy was rough everywhere and was soon to leave the team). So now we wait. Tick tock