Pain Killer Theater

For those who missed it, the second Binky and Jim story is now on the web for you to read. Seriously. New story. Go read it. Then let me know what you think.

The new Binky and Jim site: BinkyAndJim dot com. (Actually, it's the old site with a new URL.) Also of note is the second story. Yes, it has taken me way too long to get this little dramedy edited. What can I say? I've been a little busy with other things. As always, let me know what you think. If you like it, forward the link to a friend. If you dislike it, ask two more friends for a second opinion. And yes, you have my permission to post a link in your blogs. (I'd beg, but my knees already hurt enough today.)

The good news? I'm already writing the third story. As you read the new one, you'll begin to see why that's going to be an easy writing assignment.

I want to wish a Happy Birthday to keenmixer. Hope this next year of your life brings you double the blessings of the year before.

But Snakes on a Plane was awesome!

Want to wish a big Happy Birfday to naienko. Hope you have a wonderful day.

Some days I'm a bigger geek than others.

Thought I'd toss out a few good things that are going on in my life:

• Saturday night I had friends over for dinner. dj_evil_chip and I did the cooking and everyone had fun. It's not quite the same as my old parties, but it's a start.


• While last week was a bit of a bust on my food intake, I still managed to lose weight. My weight fluctuates as much as five pounds during the day depending on 'intake' and 'output'. The low point this weekend was 295.4.


• I finished Season 3 of Buffy: the Vampire Slayer. I watch an episode during a biking session. I've started Season 5, since I don't have Season 4.


• The second Binky and Jim story has been edited finally. Sorry for the delay but I had some personal problems to deal with.


• The third Binky and Jim story is plotted and I'll start writing it as soon as the second one is posted.


• My DragonCon plans are complete. I've still got a spot or two open in my rooms and might be looking to extend the hand of kindness to some folks who'd like to go but can't afford it. I'm just not sure if they would be willing to accept candy from a strange man. (Yes, that's what that meant.)


• Next weekend I'll be putting my car into the shop for some preventative maintenance before the trip.


• Also next weekend, I'll be buying my first new clothes since I started dropping size.


• Finally, I still have friends who love me... even if I can be a emotional basket case on occasion.

Few can foresee whither their road will lead them, till they come to its end. - J.R.R. Tolkien

Today I had a need for human contact so I set out for some lunch at Famous Dave's. My lunch was good but I didn't get the sort of interaction I needed. Sitting back at home, pondering what to do for the evening, I decided to head up to the local tanning salon were I know the manager. Once again I did not get the conversation I was hoping for, so I came home. However, while lying in the tanning bed, I had this moment of perfect calm that was worth the trip.

My mind has been a whir of confusing, stressful, and unwanted thoughts for the last few months. Guess that comes with the journey I've found myself on. (My damned desire to love will always lead me down the darkest roads.) The radio turned to the "Anything, Anytime" station, I found no comfort in the song selection. With my brain zipping down paths that lead to anger, longing, and self-doubt, the whole trip out seemed a bust. I focused on a quiet spot I found lurking in the midst of the chaos. It was small at first. As I drew myself into more and more, the voices and pain faded. I was drifting in the warmth of the bed, hearing only the hum of the device and the buzz of the fan blowing cooling air along my unclothed body. For a few minutes I was at peace.

All to soon the bed shut off. Everything began to return to the hard and harsh reality that surrounds each and everyone of us. Gravity returned and the need to breath with it. No long floating, disconnected as I was from my body, I began to shift slowly, rolling my body so that my hips and spine popped. I sat with reluctance, holding the fleeting calm in my mind as best I could. A few minutes of perfect, Zen calm might not seem like much, but it was exactly what I needed.

"Lord Voldemort has unleashed the Ten-plague upon the school. In order to combat it, Dumbledore has used a spell to clone Professor Snape nine times. Hagrid's not pleased."
"What did he say?"
"I quote, 'I'm tired of these muthafuckin Snapes on this muthafuckin plague!'"

Been making preparations for DragonCon over the last few days. I have a couple more people to confirm in my rooms then I'm done. I feel like I'm traveling with an entourage. Which is BS, because I'm obviously in thewordoffred's entourage. Or was that saraphina_marie's? Maybe it was ebonange's. No, it was shadowmancer_x's entourage. That's it. Of course it's all a moot point because my heart belongs to vvsavagevv and gertymac. And rangerlyn. And sunshinedew. And vitawash24. And Grace... and Stefani... and Rich and David... and the girl in the Black Cat costume....

I'm doomed.

I've not looked at the schedule because I'm afraid of what I might see. "What do you mean they've scheduled the Mythbusters against Firefly and against Nickie Brendan? Why does DragonCon hate me?!" More than the costumed lovelies, the parties, the guests, the shopping, the panels, and the entertainment, I'm looking forward to just being around my friends in an environment where we can just be geeks. Not parents or bosses or staff members. We get to be just fans. Except for gertymac. She's a radiant goddess wherever she is.

This year I'll be there with new friends and old friends. I can't begin to say how wonderful it is to... Okay, I'm gushing. With all the stress and turmoil that I've 'enjoyed' since January, it will be wonderful to just be me for a while. I have a few friends who won't be able to make it. I'm sorry you can't be there to share in the fun. I'll have a drink for you. Wait, who am I kidding. I'll have that drink for me. You're just out of luck.