My heart is like the ocean

So I felt like copying him.
hmph

At night by the water people come and go. I watch a couple arguing about where to eat dinner.. I watch the ships sailing in the distance. It's cooler down here than in my room.. I'm reading a Rose Lazare novel, trying now to view the world as just a piece of art, instead of pondering the subtextes that sometimes have a way of distracting so much from the text that you forget she is writing about in order to image what she was thinking about when she wrote it.. and it feels like maybe that wasn't the point.
If there is one overriding life lesson I ought have learned by now it's the perils of overanalizing the world around me which brings me to my dream lastnight, I'm trying not to think too much about what it means...
It's amazing to me how many people travel the world and how many never leave their home town.. but then when the day comes to a close, the nights seem endless...
You are just like the image I conjure up when I feel like that's all I can hold onto.

And Peggy got a message for me from J.e.s.u.s
And I've heard every word that you have said
And I know I've been driven like the snow
But this is cooling
faster than I can
Hey, yes
faster than I can

So then Love walked up to Like
And said I know
That she don't like me much
Let's go for a ride
This o.c.e.a.n is wrapped around that pineapple tree
And is your place in Heaven
Worth giving up these kisses
These..
Hmm
Yes..
These kisses

I'm shaking at your touch
I like you way too much
Baby I'm afraid...
I'm falling for you

School sucks.. like ALOT. I woke up around 6ish, it was SO cold so I went and took a hot shower which was nice, I think I almost fell asleep in there which was not so cool but thats okay I didn't fall or anything.. that wouldve been funny lol
I have so much stuff to do tomorrow.. bah. I have to be at school early in the morning.. since my class starts at 7 but what's the point if my teacher is always late.. seriously he is ALWAYS late. yes and when he isn't, well.. he looks like as if he was drunk.. haha it's rather funny and disturbing.
Anyways I have to go downtown tomorrow and AL is coming with me cause yeah I made her so ha. were gonna meet up with some people there and have lunch in the city. It's gonna be fun cause were FUN yup, then --> The Calling. yayness! The concert starts at 9:30.. which is cool. I'm still trying to convince Marc to go with us but he sucks.. I think he might cause Vanessa Carlton is the open act and he likes her .. so yeah I dunno. he sucks.
So we found out Al's crush has GIRLFRIEND! which it blows, we had plans damnit.. well sorta yeah, I'm sowwy Al :( well figure something out I promise. We definitely need a girls night out, thats what we need.. like Thelma and Louise.. yeah so what they killed someone.. and drove off a cliff BIG DEAL they did it together. Solidarity. I need to talk about boys, I need to gorge myself on junk food, I need to roll around giggling on the floor.. and Al needs to cheer up.
so yeah..
Hmm.
you know..
I'm gonna miss *you* so much..

This won't be the last you'll hear from me
It's just the start.
I hope that she keeps you up for weeks
Just like you did to me.

I like being this warm at bedtime.
I just wish it was because I was in your arms...

She was a january girl
She never let on
How insane it was
In that tiny kinda scary house
By the woods
But I have to get to TEXAS
And I'll give away
My blue blue dress

Ever have a dream and it was so realistic you could've sworn it REALLY happened?

I was in this Cabin and I don't recognize anybody that I know in real life, but in the dream I was apparently friends with these people... anyway most everything was flooded. The sky was multicolour (yeah I know) the moon was so BIG and bright and everything was very quiet and still. There was this baby.. he was drowning and I saved him. I reached out for his little hand and grabbed it. I was trying so hard not to let go of him but I was extremely tired, I could barely stand up. I was holding the baby and I was so scared.. so an old lady shows up outta nowhere and looks at me + smiles and says not to worry that I'll make it?! so I asked who are you and she just smiled.. she was an angel.. apparently?! I don't know.. but I remember kissing the baby and saying it was going to be okay, while the old lady was fading away I woke up.
I dont know what it means.. I really dont I mean I keep having these dreams about babies.. and it's always a baby boy, he was a GORGEOUS baby :o)
Hmm
Maybe I am pregnant..
Only..I'm not.
Hmm

The Calling are playing ATL-Hall.
Bandisk BANDISK B.A.N.D.I.S.K
It's gonna rock hard!
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He got married :(

I gotta have my suffering
So that I can have my cross
I know a cat named Easter
He says will you ever learn
You're just an empty cage girl
If you kill the bird

I lost my ID... yeah don't ask.

I looked everywhere and still couldn't find it.. I got up around 8-ish, looked some more and NOTHING. My mom was up and tried to help.. bah I was so mad/upset it was almost 11:30 and I had to go pick up Aline and Marc. so I said screw it + got in my car, when my mom screamed ANNEE I FOUND IT! so I turn off the radio + run inside and give her a hug :o) needless to say I was HAPPY!
So I picked them up in time to go to the Botanic Square.. it was BEAUTIFUL! It was cool, there was so many people from school there, whoa.. REALLY nice people.. FUN people. Anyway the weather was bad. It was cloudy and cold and we couldnt see much of anything from up there but other than that it was cool.. oh... I saw a dead bird.. yeah it was DEAD! The poor thing was lieing there on the floor as we walked by.. It was horrible.. I was sad :(
There was this guy.. he was uhm yeah anyway I'm sad for the bird *sighs*

On my way up north
Up on the Ventura
I pulled back the hood
And I was talking to you
and I knew then it would be
a Life Long thing
but I didn't know that we
We could break a silver lining
And I'm so sad
Like a good book
I can't put this
Day Back
A sorta fairytale with *you*

Things *you* said that day
Up on the 101 the
Girl had come undone
I tried to downplay it
With a bet about us
You said that you'd take it
As long as I could
I could not erase it
And I'm so sad
Like a good book
I can't put this
Day Back
A sorta fairytale with *you*

Way up North I took my day
All in all was a pretty nice day and I
Put the Hood right back where
You could taste heaven perfectly
Feel out the summer breeze
Didn't know when we'd be back
And I, I don't, didn't think
We'd end up like...
A sorta fairytale...
-Tori Amos