So it feels as though a lifetime has come and gone since Ive sat here typing in this wonderful cyber journal I have. and love.. I finished school this summer and am working hard in my field. My boys are growing like weeds and I think with a lot of positive work on myself Ive managed to find a wonderful, charming, educated, amazing man...
I cant begin to understand what it is that makes me tick when it comes to men. I have the absolute worst luck when it comes to dating. Ive yet to find a man who loves me for me. It always starts out that they like that I'm so chill, and then in the end its all the qualities that drew them to me drive them away. I'm me and I don't want to be anyone other then me. Im happy with who I am, and who've I've become. I'm a constant work in progress, baby steps to something huge. some people say that people don't change; in my opinion things don't change; people do. If I sat here and said that I'm the same person I was 5...10...15 years ago that would be an ilusive fable. There are things about me that are the same, my spirit hasn't changed, not much I hope. For me there's no need to hold on for brighter days. These are your days seize them now, take what you can get; you never know what tomorrow may bring. Despite my "boy" trouble my life couldn't get any better, summer is around the corner, the boys are growing like little weeds and I am truly blessed.
& so here i am, i didn't fall off the face of the earth, i just got, well wrapped up lets say. My winter was a write off i dont even want to go there, howvever I started french as a second language and Im about to start a pharmacudical tecnicians course in Aug. Yes thats right this old lady is going back to school. The timing couldnt be better with the economic situation, and the government is paying me to go, so why not. The boys are growing like weeds, the house is a little nutso with all of us in school. were all working on the same thing though for the moment, french. Ive missed journaling immensely, its my outlet a way to get rid of the things floating around in my head. I need to invest in a yoga mat and start that every night for a bit, channel all that bad energy out of me, where it wont do any damage. i will post pics sooon. im sure
home is where the heart is...even though i moved mine to mtl. why do i make things so complicated? in that im not content there, im not content here. when i lived there i got trapped in the shit of the falls, and here im missin my friends n fam in the shit. is it human nature always to be torn, or is it that im just fuckin dramtic?
ive finally managed to convince some good friends from home to come see me here in the big city. in just one week ill be chilling with two of my favourite girls. i wont have a care in the world for three whole days, as ill have more support then one could ever imagine at once.
then just one week after that my cowboy from country town is coming to escort me to a leafs vs habs game at the bell center on feb 7th. im very excited, the habs have been playing well and hes a die hard leafs fan. for anyone that knows anything about hockey, these two teams have a deep set rivalry since the beginning of hockey.
feb 28th i have tickets to go see TKO, its mma fighting. i will be escorted by my newest victim, its a first date. this one is also from country town {pop.9000} could raise some eyebrows, as i believe he also is a cowboy. baaahaaahaaa
life is life... i get up get the boys on the bus, go to work, pick up the boys, come home, eat, make some funtime with the boys, bath boys, tuck boys in, watch movie or read or just sleep and get up and do it again. i cant wait for summer when the days are longer and the nights are shorter. single life has its advantages, but theres always a downside. such is life.
SS: Can you hang on a sec the nurse has to take my temp...(in background)I dont think you should be taking my temperature while I'm on the phone with this one.
Me: You're making me blush!
SS: No seriously you're getting me excited.
Me: Now you're making me hot.
SS: Didn't you date Jessie Dixon?
Me: Haha No we just played I'll show you mine if you show me yours in the mens bathroom of the lee.
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