HEYOOO....haha i havent used this thing for like soo god damn long. harhar. yeah it doesnt mean im going to update hurr like really often or something like that.
im just updated fer funn really. well like onee post every blue moon er soemthing ya know? harhar..
yeah i just read this gay book, and its really good but really weird...like it involved a shit load of dicks...0.0 harhar but yeah it was a really good book, i totally didnt get the ending..but whatev.
This really just hit me. I don't think I would ever be able to hold up a regular relationship like everyone eles. I mean it's not like I don't want to. Because trust me I do. I mean I want to have that feeling where you've been with someone for so long, and you care about them so much. I don't know. I know so many people who have been in a relationship for like years, and I envy them so much.
I don't know why. I mean like, am I missing a piece of brain or something that everyone eles has except me? Maybe it's just that I can't find anyone compatable with me yet. I mean I know a lot of nice guys, but I guess they're just not my type.
In fact, I don't know what is my "type". Maybe I need someone like the guy in my dream..( ; ] you guys know what I'm talking about right? ; ] )..or maybe himself. But I think if it were him, I think it would be just like "Stanley and Stella" except that we'd fight all the time.
I don't know, this just fustrates me sooo much. I wish it wouldn't.
Oh and during my sleep on Thursday night-Friday morning, I had the BEST FREAKIN dream. Too bad I can't say what or who, but it was awesome. It was like a good/sad dream. And the weird thing is, it felt so REAL, I mean I could feel him holding me, and his warmth, and like I was very emotional today after that. And whatever I said to him, I felt like I meant it...with all my heart. Like if anything were to happen to him [in my dream] I'd probably would've cried my eyes out and all that other things that I do when I'm really emotional. It sucks though, because the guy in my dream...is totally different from me. I don't see a reason as to where our paths in life would cross...even I think it would be an experience if it did...And when I saw him today, I wanted to HUG him SO bad, like I wanted to sorta feel what I had felt in my dream, but then it would've been weird between us...cause he's dumb and I'm crazy..-__-
Edit: I can picture myself getting married to someone I don't love what-so-ever...and then end up having the most horrible life ever! Oh wells, who knows.
Yeah I'm just ranting about my HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE love life. : ]
Ok, so I've been sick for the past two days. Hah nice aint it?
And to those that have talked to my mom, I'm not dying!!! LOL I mean I was really sick but not to that extreme.
I'm going to miss school again tomorrow, nice aint it? I think the only class I kinda want to be there for is HR, Tennis, English, and History. But I'm just a tadbit unfit to go.
I still have a major headache, and my nose is very very stuffy. >< But I'm alive. [ :
Well, I'm getting my hair done this weekend, and I'm pretty set on that black and blue shit I told some of you. Hope to see some of you chicks over the weekend or at school, and I PROMISE I'm going to school on Tuesday...unless I'm going on that ski trip with my mom...hahah
Since winterbreak ended. I dont think anythings been the same. School's just been stressful and a bitch to me. And my social life is shit. :\ nice aint it.
Ive sorta been on restriction, well I guess you can call it that. For instant, my mom would yell at me everytime i want to go on the phone or comp. so I havent been on, Ive saved myself from having to hear her yell on and on and on. -__-
My friendships with people are fucking up, cause Im such a bitch. :] I LOVE you guys. Truly I do. and Im sorry.
my relationship is down the drain. -__- i TOLD everyone im such a bad gf, and no one agrees with me. but I proved myself right. -u- i mean i shouldnt be happy that i proved myself right. but heh what to do when it just comes natural.
Im sorry. So sorry.
maybe I am going through some retarded depression. Heh yeah right. I think Im just going retarded. I think my emotions and shit have gone all haywire. This phase Im going through should have happened in the 8th grade. heh but whatever. What can I do?
herm..so Im not depressed, Im just retarded (:
School need to fucken die, I really dont want to go back...
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some what true...=\
yeah, so it rained today, got really soaked. uherm. GOT MY CHINK DRAMA!! haha you guys arent going to see my out of school for a while, hah hah.
1. Learn to work the toilet seat. You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
2. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.
3. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.
4. Crying is blackmail.
5. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one: Subtle hints do not work! Strong hints do not work! Obvious hints do not work! Just say it!
6. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
7. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
8. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.
9. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days..
10. If you think you're fat, you probably are. Don't ask us.
11. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.
12. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.
13. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials.
14. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.
15. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
16. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.
17. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.
18. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.
19. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine...Really.
20. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as baseball, the shotgun formation, or monster trucks.
21. You have enough clothes.
22. You have too many shoes.
23. I am in shape. Round is a shape.
24. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.
haha this is muy graciosa. I LOVE THE LAST ONE. & crying IS blackmail..(:
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