I just found a friend,
In one of your lies.
To treat me so nice,
I, can't believe my bones...
When they say,
So many things...
They tell me I am fine,
believe me I, I try...
...Ever so sweet,
You make this seem,
The way things go...
It's not my fault.
And I'll miss,
I'll miss you so good...
All of those nights,
We lost our way back home.
...Ever so sweet,
You baked it in cakes for me.
What you left behind,
It hurts my teeth...
Bring in the past with the postcards you sent for me...
Every line,
It brings me right back down.
Can't you see the wall you built for me?
Cause we're not special
we're not special
we're not special
Well I'm not special
I'm not special
Ever so sweet,
You baked it in cakes for me...
What you left behind,
It hurts my teeth...
Bringing the past with the postcards you sent for me...
Every line...
It brings me right back down.
I'm In LOVE with this song.
anywho, schools been pretty good, we got report cards today.. i did pretty good. 3.8 overall.not to shabby.
So anyways, sadies is March 4th. I have acouple ideas who i may ask. i mean i feel like im in this akward stage with every guy between friends and more then that, so i dont know who to ask. it kinda sucks. i feel like im scared to even take a chance to go out with another guy.. i feel like ever since i broke up with drew it hit me SO hard that like.. im scared itll happen again. although i shoudn't, cause im over drew.. but the thought of "love" or the thought of "going out" with somebody is some huge commitment, and maybe people just make it up to be a bigger deal then it is. i mean im only fourteen anyways. its not like im going to find the love of my life at this moment. maybe.
but besides that, sadies. i found a dress, i found shoes, i need jewelry, and most importantly i need a date. i don't know if im scared to ask anyone, or scared of being in the position. both, i guess. i need to get over it, and just go with the hell of it. and i will, next week, this week, or the week after, i still have a month. i shouldn't be worrying about this.
Schools been getting better, somedays suck, somedays are better then others. altogether, i really really like groves. i really like the people in it, and im making a bunch of friends. i have to admit the biggining of the year sucked. but now that i know people, it keeps on getting better.
Tonight I went to the Seaholm vs Groves VOlleyball game. I hung out with a bunch of people. it was a gooood time. I'm excited for this weekend. its only monday,. damn this weeks going by so slow.
I miss david and jeff. They neeed to come home.
17 more days until floriday. im so exctied. im leaving school.. 2 days before break starts, and leaving with one of my best frinds maggs, and my parents. im so excited just to get OUT of michigan and somewhere warm. but best of all, come back and be all tan just in time for sadies :)
Anyways, i should probably go to bed, im tired, and i have to go into xblock tomarrow.. + take a shower.
w.cultures, bio and phys ed.. were swimming.
not exciting.
Mucho Love,
Reanna.
today, was amazing. like i can't even explain.
wow.
mm yeah, i had my best classes... its a thursday, i got to sleep in until 830, the besttt lunch everrr with the BEST PEOPLE.
thankyou.
man today was awesomeeee
anyways, okay soo how was everyone elses day.
i cannot wait until this weekend, friday i think im going out with everyone! yayy.
then on saturdaynight im going to have to babysit i think..
its this or reversed.
haha.
i make myself laugh sometimes.
hm anyways, im ganna be loaded with a SHIT load of tests next week, and im not really looking forward to it AT ALL.
its going to suckk assss.
its basically going to be the week from hell.
Today, is December 1.
24 days till chirstmas. whereee has time gonee.
somebody please tell me.
but okay this entry is pretty boring i must say. oh well DEAL.
mmkay.
im ganna post some pictures up here when i get my damn camera fixed. its been broken because i kinda dropped it.
achem.
so i think spencer.. is the funniest kid i know.
"here let me help you, i know how you feel wearing skirts and trying to get up"
haha MAN. ive been meeting so many boys. its so much fun.. like honestly, i love it.
im also likeing acouple of them right now!!!
HANNAH! hahahaha need action this weekend FO SHO.
but anywayss, i am in love with david inwalddddd.
and i am in love with zaccck.
and everyone elseee.
and kellie.
and ali.
hahaha
and eveyrone else.
but okay.. so in english today, we were talking about karma. and damn to i believe in it.
i swear.. like you talk shit about somebody, and the next thing you know a volleyball is coming striaght for your head.
scary stuff..
i have a list.. of things.. that are annoying me right now.. and that im absolutley loving right now.
Love
My Friends
My Family
Boys
English Class
Lunch
The Weekendss
Break
Oreos
Musiccc
Myspace
RELAXING
Hate
Biology and Math.
Some Boys.
Some Girls.
Certain People and how they think they are the SHIT when thier not,.
drugs.
people that think thier sweet becuase they do drugs.
fake people.
not getting enough sleep.
guys leading me on.
Mhm.
So.. today..was pretty good.
No homework.. was basically amazing.
well ACTUALLY i did have homework, but i avoided it until the end of the day as usual.
okkk, so i was in a bad mood.. just until now when i put the postal service on..
"such great hieghts" makes me wanna dance..
like get out of my chair.. and just DANCE. like literally.. im so like ready to get up and do something..
im just sitting here.. waiting to dance...i want to danceeee
maybe i will..
noo.. i shouldn't. well anyways. enough of me wanting to dance.
I don't think anybody reads this except a few.. which makes me sad. but you know what i could highly care less.. because.. i don't know why, but i could care less. but i love like.. thinking.. like just like going DEEP inside.. and just um thinking.. like that whole sleeping thing. like.. sleeping is SO scary. your so like out of reality, that your dreaming.. but your dreams seem so real.. almost liek they are a reality. wow confusing. im confusing myself. just put it this way.. sleeping is scary.
well anyways, but yeah i just drank a coke. maybe not such a good idea.
okay so i just finished my slave thing for world cultures. we do the most POINTLESS projects. i think the teachers need like grades or something because ive done like 4 projects that have been completely pointless. im doing this slave project.. and were not even TALKING ahout slaves. i mean come onnn.
weve been on latin america.. for the past... 3 weeks. maybe even 4.
im listening to bye bye bye.. nsync.
n'sync. who in the world came UP with that name. i cant even spell it. nnsynce. messed up. maybe its supposed to be like in sync. haha but like "n to be all slang. but anyways. im listening to byebyebye.. that was such a pimping song. everyone was liek so obsessed with it. sadly, i still am.
I remember in like 5th grade we had to do these music videos. and i was with like julia, currie, and some other people. and we did it to ateens. we thought we were the shit, maybe because we were. we new all of the words and everything. it wass awesome.
okay so i hate people that like put me in a bad mood. but doesn't everybody.
but like there is definitley people that would put you in a good mood ALL of the time, or just like are happy people.
then thier are people who are always complaining.. and annoying, and say the littliest things that can piss you off.
i need more happy people, fo sho..
mmkay, progress reports come out soon. uh oh.
so do finals. uh oh.
my eyes are tired, but my bodys not. my body still wants to dance.
mmmyeah, okay so i think im going to go eat something.. and maybe kind of get ready for tomarrow.
maybe i wont, and ill prbably come back here, and sit down onthe computer for the next 30 minuites and sit my lazy ass here looking at peoples livejorunals and myspaces. like i do everyyday.
so i babysat today. it was a bad babysitting day. lets just leave it at that. although i amde 20 bones.
im going out this weekend.
im excited.
woop.
im leaving.. and most likely coming back.
comment please :)
im updating again.
woop, yeah thats about it.
okay so im in love with jack johnson?
mhm.
dear jackjohnson, im in love with you.
i want to have your children, and make children with your beautiful voice.
marry me.
love, reanna.
okay so., today was good. i had a good good day.i saw charlie barron for the 2nd time this week.
keep it coming, im liking this seeing old friends from good ol' queen of martyrs.
i miss that school.. a lot. and i love the fact how we never did anything.. absolultley nothing. its amazing.
but anyways.. BESIDES that, about my good day. 1st off, i didnt; have like any hoemwork, which was a bonus. well, i had my english but im finished with that so its all good.
and im excited because i have tuesday tomarrow. tuesdays are good. i love tuesdays.
so i bought laguna beach dvd season, i never ever watched the first season. the shows personally kinda lame.
but its addicting at the same time, so here i am watching it.
i am also definitley in love with the RENT soundtrack.
the music.. is pretty sweet.
so boys. i want a boyfriend? no.
yes, no yes no yes no.
lammoooo. haha im starting to like the word lame.
i think i may like someone, new. but i will always have this thing for drew. achem, i don't know?
but im getting OVER him eventually, because im starting to realize he doesn't really care anymore, sooo yeah. guys are drammma, bamma, famma. all it takes is time i guess.
so im watching oprah today. people on methane, im not even sure how to spell it. and this guy.. had sex 25 times in one night.
thats like.. not even possible. but it is, because he did it. thats insane. like not 25 times with ONE person, it was with 25 different people. thats crazy.. crazy crazy crazy.. what drugs can do to a person.
i mean mannn.
so im curling my hair tomarrow, im excited.
haha i like want to right now, but itll get all messed up when i sleep. so whats the point.
ill juust have to wait until the mroning,.
so i cannot wait until thsi weekend, i might hang out with chris..
and im meeting the boy that lives down the street. i will meet him, theres no stopping me. maybe we'll fall deeply in love. haha just kidding.. its me dreaming again.
"live life with no regrets"
im starting to go back to that quote everytime im doing something i REALLY regret. everything happens for a reason right?
seasssonnss of LOVEEE. im in love with that song.
haha, wo.
okay so christmas is in less then a month? where did the time go?
finals are in like 4 weeks?
break is in 3 weeks?
damn.
so many many things to do. what am i ganna do.
whattt am i ganna do.
oh no.
oh my gawd.
such an amazing break. i'm so sad its over. and i know i havn't updated. shutup.
but anyways, okay so i dont even remember what i did. ahh it was amazing. first o
thursday: slept at ali's house, pictures and stuff.. fun night.
ff, my brothers came home. which was amazzing. we have like.. moments, where we like.. beat eachother up in the kitchen.. i just remember how i gave david the "michigan marching band" and hes like.. you.. willl die. it was the funniest shit ever. hahahahaa. but anyways thanksgiving was also amazing, at my aunts. at the kids table... amazing. playing football in the basement. also amazing. DOUG! hahaha the beats. ohhh man. came home about midnight, then woke up at 5 to go shopping. went to starbucks, picked up ali, then went to target at 6. and shopped all day. it was sweet.
friday.. cousins came over, watched old home videos= priceless. i love my family.
um well saturday, hung out with maggs, and went to the new neighbors house.. wasn't home. how dissapointing. i was looking forward to meeting that hotty. hahaha, okay so i came home hung out for like an hour, then went to see RENT with miss shea, kellie and nicole. best night ever. soooo much fun.
POOKY!
thennnn lets see.. came home.. ali slept over... charlie and dylan came over at like 11.. then they left.. we snuck out at 2, haha and went to dylans house.. left at like 230, came home and slept in until 11. hung out alllll day watched basically all of the harry potter movies, and did homework..
brothers left :(
schools tomarrow :(
ohh what a dissapointment, but what a peacinggg break.
ookay so im looking outside, and wow, is it dark, haha, kinnda crappy out.
so we got our report cards today, andd what else, didn't really do much. vball tech we basically.. played volleyball, haha.
umm in world cultures, we had a sub, so we did busy work the whole entire time.
english.. we did ourn journal entries and worked on our phenomena stories.
oh and about the phenomena stories, you know ralph? achem and how he has a crush on me? haha, welll first he comes to me and asks if he can use my name in the story, and i know its ganna be something, so i said no :)
haha, but he used BRI anna instead of REanna. wow, what a difference. and soo he reads to the entire class how were going to have 8 children and name them ralph and reanna, then get married and have a happy ever after.
hahaha, man.
i have SO many tests this week, it sucks balls. i have a french and math test tomarrow. french i think ill do good on, but my math.. ehh not so sure about that.
at least its HUMP day tomarrow!
haha, i remember i was listening to the radio one time, and they were saying it was hump day, becuase its wednesday. and they were humping poles in detriot to see what poeple would do. haaa.
but okayy, im feeling sad today. maybe its lonliness or maybe not. im not really sure. but ive come to conclusion that everytime i feel sad.. it ALWAYS goes to the weight thing. how come? i dont know. i will ALWAYS hate the way i look and the way i eat. and i know all of you.. will say, "OMG your NOT fat" "or.. SHUTUP". .. i never said i was fat.. never said i will get skinnier. even though im always obsessing over the fact that thier are people who are SO skinny, and that im REALLY jealous. and you know what, ill obsess over this for about 30 minuiites and be depressed over it, then go to the fridge and eat some more. and thats how it will always be. and how i dont fit into any of my pants and me always dancing to get them on, but no matter HOW much i work out, im always ganna be the size i am, so im going to have to live with it.
thats another thing. i think as im getting older, ive been putting up with myself complaining how i hate my hair, and my nose, and being short. and all those other things. but im realizing that so many people, have SO MUCH worse problems that don't even come CLOSE to my complaining about wanting to be skinnier, or being taller, cause im learning that its not going to happen, and you know what? ive learned to like my shortness, and my nose, and the way i look. but i know thier will alwayyys be a time where im ganna backfire and im never going to get over it. oh well.
boys.. um i dont even know how to explain them. confusing? yes. cocky? yes. assholes? yes. smartasses? yes. i mean not ALL of them but i mean at least once at a time, boys will be confusing, cocky, assholes, and smartasses. and im not saying we dont have problems, cause oh man, we do. but can i meet one guy, that will give me a chance, and that will yes be confusing, cocky, assholish, and smartasish (hahah), but at least admit to it? or at least omit one of those qualities for a day. like drew for example, no offense drew.. didn't i TELL you, i didn't want to date, because we were best friends. i said that about a million times. he said it wasn't going to be a problem, and if we broke up, we would still be friends. so what did i do? listen to him, and went out with him. but if you think about it, we didn't really even GO out. so technically, i dont even feel like i went out with him, which is a shame because im sure we wouldve been together for a long time. but look what happend. i dont even TALK to the kid anymore. i mean yeah i BROKE up with him, mainly for the reason that we didn't have enough time for eachother. i wasn't BLAMING him that he was too busy for me, i was saying your busy, im busy, we never hang out. whats the point.
thats all i said, so i said, whats the point in dating. he took it offensivley, and doesn't talk to me anymore. it doesn't make sense.. i mean, we never had the time for eachother in the biggening, so why did we even go out? why would we even call it GOING out, if we maybe hung out twice. and we didn't even like have any "kissing" moments or anything, i mean come onn.
well, anyways, its a shame that we don't talk anymore because he wasn't a confusing, cocky, smartasshole. but now that hes so mad at me for breaking up with him, i feel like he has something huge against me, which makes me feel like he's mad at me ALL of the time, and i feel like he treats me badly. and the fact that ali kept asking me "why do you like him so much still, when you didn't do anythign and he treats you like this" well i dont know. I just hope he understands how i feel about this, i mean im sorryyy for all i did, in this case, breaking up with you, but in reality, i didn't even feel like we were going out in the first place.
okay ive writting alot. im done. im sorry everyone for wasting your time reading this. butt it was your choice. thankss
