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I messed up my winning streak by sleeping most of Sunday and therefore not doing any of the things I'd hoped to get done (like grocery shopping.) End result was that I skipped dance class on Monday because I was exhausted, and was late for work today. And I still have no food, and need to pay a bunch of bills and submit a bunch of forms, and lots of other things I'd like to make happen, won't happen.

I do have to drive 20 miles tonight and feed someone's cat, for reasons not worth getting into. if I'd gone to dance class yesterday I'd have been in the neighborhood, but I wasn't, so I have to do it tonight.

But I am looking at this as a series of obstacles and pitfalls and trying not to let it derail my mood and my progress. You know how they say "Take heart!" I am trying to "keep heart". Whatever that means.

Things I am working on:

- Eating better
- Sleeping earlier
- Going to a little extra trouble to put things away, etc.
- Keeping to a routine in the morning so I am not tempted to fall back asleep.

Current Mood: determined
Current Music: Dan Bern, "Tape"

I have been trying to lose weight for a long time.

It's not that I don't know what to eat. I know quite a few different theories on what to eat, and subscribe to Nutrition Action Newsletter, the publication of the Center for Science in the Public Interest. I am familiar with the DASH (Dietary Action to Stop Hypertension) diet, the USDA recommendations, the South Beach Diet, the Primal Blueprint diet, and so on.

I have some stomach issues that make me feel hungry when I'm not. (I am trying to get another doctor visit arranged within the next few weeks.) I also have some bad food-related habits, such as reaching for something to eat when I'm trying to distract myself from an unpleasant thought or fear. And in a general way, I use food to manage my mood.

My long history of almost-immediately-failed weight loss attempts makes me go down a pessimism spiral with even minor slipups. (I think "pessimism spiral" covers it pretty well.) And as a result I reach for food to manage that. I also have minimal self-control once I've eaten certain foods. As Overeaters Anonymous put it, I cannot eat like a normal eater.

I am, however, taking some positive steps. I am keeping, not just a food record, but a written journal about fitness. I am noting some eating-related behaviors I never documented before. I have requested that doctor appointment for the stomach discomfort. (We attempted to address it earlier with a Prilosec prescription, but it didn't solve the problem.) I am trying to see if there are correlations between the stomach discomfort and specific things I eat. And I am visiting that trainer.

I don't like many vegetables, but there are many I haven't tried, and various sources tell me that the longer you go on eating something the more you grow to like it. I am tackling cauliflower this week.

Baby steps, as they say. If I can't make progress in one area I attempt to make progress in another.

Current Mood: moody
Current Music: Larkin Gayl, "Never Mind"

Feel tired and wrung out. The wet weather may have something to do with that.

Am having an awful time getting myself to do some very necessary things, like grocery shopping. This means that I am not able to eat the way my trainer wants. I have gained two pounds.

But I couldn't face the salad bar and the double-digits of people lined up before the cafeteria cashiers today, so I bought a roast beef sandwich from a machine.

I really need another weekend day.

I ate a lot of sugar and flour yesterday. Thinking about it today has made me realize that I'm still not taking my diet seriously enough.

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And so I go gently into Friday evening. Baby steps, NP. Baby steps.

Current Mood: moody

I went to the trainer for my first session today. It was uncomfortable, but (except for some bits involving my knees, which we worked to adjust) not actually painful. I was really impressed by the fact that I didn't leave hurting.

I said, "So, not like gym class. You don't end up parched, exhausted, sore, and humiliated." He thought that was funny.

I ate a new thing, a "Hummus Chicken Power Salad," at Panera, which was tasty (though it would have benefitted from some extra-virgin olive oil). I later made Salted Dark Chocolate Almond Butter Fudge, a Paleo-compliant recipe, which was very good yet not so "moreish" that you keep gobbling it.

I also bought a new office chair at an office furniture place that advertises, "It didn't fall off the back of a truck - it's just priced that way!" It seems like a quality chair, it supports my back, it allows you to adjust everything I want to adjust, and it only cost me $219. i've been saying literally for years that I needed to buy a proper office chair, and now I have.

I floated through the rest of the day in a pink cloud of pleased-with-myself. I felt very well.

Current Mood: good
Current Music: Elvis Costello, "You Bowed Down"

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Current Mood: thoughtful

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