Awkward Trees

Okay this is just a short quick update, but! Thank you for everyone who has nominated my fics on arafanficaward! :D

And special shout out to the kind soul who put Unintentional Excitement under Best Smut and Best OT5 categories. I love you! I love that fic and it was hard to write. And to know that someone actually took their time to send it on their list of nominations is somehow touching. HAHAHA.

(I don't really care about this award thingy, anyway, not like I write fanfic for awards, but I won't lie that I'm supper happy that some of my fics are nominated xD people like my fics, yay! xD)

Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: G
Genre: Angst
Length/Word Count: One-Shot/1600~ words
Notes: So this is a fic that even I said “WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK ARE YOU GUYS DOING” after I finished it. This is literally just Jun and Sho being complete idiots fighting and angsting over a completely not related issue each other. I didn't even spell-check this because this is literally nothing, I just need to get it out of my system (I can assure you that there's no typo, tho, and probably just some minor grammar mistakes). Don't say I didn't warn you.

( Obscurity )

Sakumoto. Drabble. G. 700ish words. Trashy fic, my specialty.

( Don’t You Love Me? )

So... Hi from the cave of people who don't want to meet and greet the outside world and are content with themselves.

Well maybe it's just me.

October has never been a good month to me. Not now, not five years ago, I don't really remember about some times before that, but I suppose there's no good memories back then in 2005 either.

Things have been great, if no real work to do at work is considered as great. Things have been great, if the dose of idols-related-things I can have every day is counted. But things also haven't been really great, because I have too much free time, and too much free time equals too much unnecessary pondering over unnecessary things about life.

Like how things have been boring, or I won't have enough money to buy a new phone soon, or people are basically dumb, awful things like those.

Fandoms and idols have always been my happy place, but seeing what have happened recently, I don't think about them that way anymore (don't ask what have happened as I won't tell you anyway). Or, I don't know, probably this is me having PMS and I'm on an idols-hangover after my episodes of idols-high before.

It feels like I can't really talk to anyone to ease my mind, because I feel like I disagree with everyone about basically everything.

Probably I'll just take some time for myself. I'll probably not be around for a while, listening to this great playlist of Gossip Girl's Best Music Moments, and just do whatever I want to do (not like I don't usually do things as I please, but well, it's going to probably be even worse this time).

So, until next time!

PS. This could just be about me having a bad mood that would go away a short time later, so the next time would probably be sooner than I think.

PPS. Yeah, this time I'm being a jerk and not using a cut to spare you guys of my emotional post. That's just how horrible I feel about things and people at the moment.

Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: G
Genre: Fluff
Length/Word Count: One-Shot/1257 words
Notes: Inspired by this (and some tweets that followed that). :D

( Favorite )

For some reasons, I know that for this occasion words will fail me, but I want to try it for once. Because this thing I feel is more important than anything else.

But first and foremost, I want to admit that I totally forgot that Arashi's anniversary date is September 15th, until 14th afternoon. Yes, this is only my second year of celebrating, so what I feel might not be that strong. But still, for me, it's something really precious that I want to celebrate and share.

I won't say that Arashi has saved my life or something alike, because, hell, it would be the biggest lie I've ever told. I won't also say that they're the reason that I live, because of course I have a lot more reasons to live. After all, I don't lead the life full of pain and obstacles, because my life is just boring like that.

Arashi might not be the first to come to my life and paint it with wonderful colors, and might not be the ones who stay the longest. Arashi might not be the ones that made me able to forget all my pain and nightmares when I go to sleep. Arashi might not be the ones that give me super human strength. But above it all, Arashi are the ones who make me happy. And that's more than enough.

Arashi has taught me a lot of things, without they would probably even understand. They taught me to be honest of my own feelings, to not be scared to choose my way of living, to believe that even though everything looks horrible, it will pass and I will be even happier in the end. Arashi taught me that it's okay to let go, Arashi taught me it's okay to just embrace. Arashi taught me that, yes, every life has a meaning. Arashi taught me a lot about life, for some dudes who once wore transparent plastic costumes for the sake of entertainment.

I haven't been around for that long, so I might not also be the one to say a lot of things about them. But one thing I know for sure is, I have a plan to stay here, somewhere in my busy boring life, to support them, to make sure that they know that I'm one of those people who will never let them down. And that they don't have to worry because we all love them no matter what.

If I ever have a chance to say anything to them, I know what I would say, and the words will be "Thank you very much". I know it will probably be not sufficient, for what I feel about them is certainly much more than that. But I know that it would be enough. For that is all I owe them after all they have been through for the sake of me, one of their fans.

And so, to Arashi, here's what I have to say:

We don't speak the same language, we don't even live in the same country, and this message would probably never reach you, but like I said on Twitter: doesn't mean that the feeling isn't real. Doesn't mean that the gratitude is not really overwhelming.

From now on, and forever, let's take care of each other even more.

嵐さん、本当にありがとうございました。#16周年の嵐に愛を叫べ




September 15th, 2015
A fan for: one year
Planning to stay until: forever
Always yours,
Di

Pairing: Sakumoto
Rating: PG
Genre: Fluff
Length/Word Count: One-Shot/1078 words
Notes: HAPPY 32nd BIRTHDAY Matsumoto Jun! I started a Matsumiya, I ended up posting a Sakumoto. I have no problem with that at all~

( 好きです、大好きです )

Matsumiya. G. Drabble (372 words).

( ZERO ♪ )