the gate to the world that doesn't understand or accepted me

ahhh.... well... tis been a while...

a new leaf has been turned...

now its time for me to get my shit together....

no more drama....

i cant do anything right. i always mess it up. so yah

Sometimes
I wish I was BRAVE
I wish I was STRONGER
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So LOST, CONFUSED, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
LET'S START OVER
LET'S START OVER

Sometimes
I wish I was smart
I wish I made CURES FOR
HOW PEOPLE ARE
I wish I had power
I wish I could lead
I wish I could CHANGE THE WORLD
FOR YOU AND ME

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
LET'S START OVER
LET'S START OVER

'Cause
I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
LET'S START OVER
LET'S START OVER

I feel so mad
I feel so angry
I feel so callous
So lost, confused, again
I feel so cheap
So used, unfaithful
LET'S START OVER
LET'S START OVER

This vacation's useless
These white pills aren't kind
I've given a lot of thought on this 13-hour drive
I miss the grinding concrete where we sat past 8 or 9
And slowly finished laughing in the glow of our headlights
I've given a lot of thought to the nights we use to have
The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where i laid and told you, BUT YOU SWEARED YOU LOVED ME MORE

DO YOU CARE IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY?
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off pretend its all okay
That there someone out there who feels just like me
There is

Those notes you wrote me
I've kept them all
I've given a lot of thought of how to write you back this fall
With every single letter in every single word
There will be a hidden message about a boy that
loves a girl

DO YOU CARE IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY?
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
that There's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

DO YOU CARE IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY?
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me

DO YOU CARE IF I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY?
Will you sleep tonight, will you think of me
Will i shake this off, pretend its all okay
That there's someone out there who feels just like me
There is

So... long time no write. so its almost the end of the first semester here at VT, and i do have to confess, i have slacked off majorly. my grades can prove that. but i will do much better next semester. but yes i have 2 more exams, Sociology tomoro, and the big one, Engineering thus morning. tomoro after my soc. final i have a dr.s appt to get my shoulder xrayed and all that jazz. but yes back to studying..... i dont wanna.... but i guess i gotta.....



later


kt

ok so my engineering exam is in a hour and a half and i am not ready... i am freaking out about it. but yah i have had 5 exams this week so far and this will be my 6th and final. i got a C+ on my Sociology exam grrr and get this... how did this happen i got a 68/100 on my CHEM. how did that happen... i freaking tutor in CHEM..... i still dont know what i got on my calc. or fine arts test yet. i got a 86 on my linear algebra so yah. this blows. but ok back to freaking out about engineering....


the weekend couldnt get here any sooner....

besides that crappy start to the week. i am in a pretty good mood. i think its because of the great dream i had this morning. but yah thanks TJ and Kasie for the love. I get to go home to NK in a week and a half for a wedding and i am excited... not for the wedding but to see people. but yah i gotta get back onto my EngE hw... so i am gonna motor....

later...

this week did not get off to a good start. On Monday i found out that one of my good friends back home in WI just died. So i called my other friends who were also friends with her and it was rough. I just wish i could go back to WI on friday for the funeral. If it was $900 for a plane ticket i would. But yah the rest of the week has been crazy with getting things in on time. i look forward to this weekend and the football game vs Duke. even though it will be good to relax and scream and goof off at the game i have a crap load of work to get done this weekend. so yah.

Angie RIP girl.

we love you Joker.

ok so here it is.. my first tattoo. i got it yesterday


tell me what you think

away with the blog quiz thingys....

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