lesson of the moth

the lesson of the moth

i was talking to a moth
the other evening
he was trying to break into
an electric light bulb
and fry himself on the wires

why do you fellows
pull this stunt i asked him
because it is the conventional
thing for moths or why
if that had been an uncovered
candle instead of an electric
light bulb you would
now be a small unsightly cinder
have you no sense

plenty of it he answered
but at times we get tired
of using it
we get bored with the routine
and crave beauty
and excitement
fire is beautiful
and we know that if we get
too close it will kill us
but what does that matter
it is better to be happy
for a moment
and be burned up with beauty
than to live a long time
and be bored all the while
so we wad all our life up
into one little roll
and then we shoot the roll
that is what life is for
it is better to be a part of beauty
for one instant and then cease to
exist than to exist forever
and never be a part of beauty
our attitude toward life
is come easy go easy
we are like human beings
used to be before they became
too civilized to enjoy themselves

and before i could argue him
out of his philosophy
he went and immolated himself on a patent cigar lighter
i do not agree with him
myself i would rather have
half the happiness and twice
the longevity

but at the same time i wish
there was something i wanted
as badly as he wanted to fry himself

Don Marquis,

so you want to be a writer? by Charles Bukowski

so you want to be a writer? by Charles Bukowski

if it doesn't come bursting out of you in spite of everything,
don't do it.
unless it comes unasked out of your heart and your mind and your mouth and your gut,
don't do it.
if you have to sit for hours staring at your computer screen
or hunched over your typewriter
searching for words,
don't do it.
if you're doing it for money or fame,
don't do it.
if you're doing it because you want women in your bed,
don't do it.
if you have to sit there and rewrite it again and again,
don't do it.
if it's hard work just thinking about doing it,
don't do it.
if you're trying to write like somebody else,
forget about it.

if you have to wait for it to roar out of you,
then wait patiently.
if it never does roar out of you,
do something else.

if you first have to read it to your wife
or your girlfriend or your boyfriend
or your parents or to anybody at all,
you're not ready.

don't be like so many writers,
don't be like so many thousands of
people who call themselves writers,
don't be dull and boring and
pretentious, don't be consumed with self-love.

the libraries of the world have
yawned themselves to sleep
over your kind.
don't add to that.
don't do it.

unless it comes out of
your soul like a rocket,
unless being still would
drive you to madness or
suicide or murder,
don't do it.

unless the sun inside you is
burning your gut,
don't do it.

when it is truly time,
and if you have been chosen,
it will do it by
itself and it will keep on doing it
until you die or it dies in you.

there is no other way.

and there never was.

the growing trends...

I decided its necessary to write more. beyond these facebook status updates and tweets with two second thoughts i need to put more time into expressing myself if not for the sake of being a better communicator. cuz lord knows that not many people are these days.we see one clever or funny line from an update and make a three word comment if that much and thats it. thats the interaction you get from your old friends or the people you just happend to add because they werent douches to you in highschool. and maybe some of them were. well people its time to make a change of that...at least for me. not expecting any one else to but i still plan to be on this joint...

see you in a few.

not a suicide note.

seriously its not. quite frankly this has been the worst year of my life. and i mean that with no hesitation. I went through a horrible break up with a girl I wasn't really in love with. I lost more than a couple of friends who were dear to my heart.... and I mean lost like they left my life not because they are dead. I lost my job just recently and felt the most devastating blow to my finances due to my company giving me bad checks and going bankrupt.

whats worse is alot of this is my fault and i feel like i dont even have the strength to fix it. its kinda more than fucked up.

anyways pray for me.

Gang Bangers Get Down With Voting In Compton

By Chris Richburg

California rapper Eric 'Lil Eazy E' Wright Jr. was among a group of celebrities involved in launching a new voter registration campaign.



The My Hood Votes voter registration and education campaign kicked off on Saturday (October 11) as Wright and campaign founder and journalist Jasmyne Cannick registered Crips, Bloods and non-traditional potential voters throughout Compton.



The campaign received support from 93.5 The Beat FM as well as entertainers and community activists that included comedian/Radio Free 102.3 KJLH radio personality Guy Black, actress Terra Menyone from The Shield, The Foxx Hole w/Jamie Foxx co-host Felicia "The Poetess" Morris, Nation of Islam Minister and activist Tony Muhammad.



“My Hood Votes is us representing us. It's us going out and talking to each other the way that only we can about the importance of having some involvement in the political process,” Lil Eazy E told AllHipHop.com, admitting this will be the first time he has voted in an election.



“My pops loved Compton,” Lil Eazy continued. “I love Compton. This was the perfect opportunity to get it crackin' in my hometown with my family and take it into the streets.”



According to Cannick, My Hood Votes came about because of her personal dissatisfaction with Presidential hopefuls Barack Obama and John McCain as well as their running mates Joe Biden and Sarah Palin.



“Over the course of the presidential and vice-presidential candidate’s debates, it’s become crystal clear that both Democrats and Republicans are focused on one segment of the American population, the middle class. Hence, the absence of any mention of the word poverty, even though it is a way of life for more than 37 million people in this country,” Cannick said. “So while the candidates continue to be focused on the wealthy and middle class, in L.A., I've been focused on the hood.”



Created by Cannick, My Hood Votes is a grassroots education and mobilization campaign dedicated towards reaching non-traditional voters in underserved Black neighborhoods.



Since its inception, the campaign has partnered with rappers and entertainers in an effort to educate ex-felons on their right to vote.



The organization also reached out to nontraditional voters who aren’t influenced by elected officials or are not familiar with the happenings surrounding those running for local and national office.



As part of the launch, the Cannick, Wright and their celebrity supporters registered and educated would be and non-likely voters as they traveled throughout downtown Compton, registering hundreds of people.



“I think for me, registering a member of a Blood gang to vote shows the change that has been inspired in me and those in the community,” said Wright, who serves as the official spokesperson for My Hood Votes. “I say that because homeboy didn't have to register to vote and he didn't have to do it with me. He knew who I was and who my father was and he put all of that aside and we got down to business and he registered to vote. Now that's what it's all about.”



Over the next four years, The My Hood Votes will expand the campaign into a national effort.



My Hood Votes is currently based out of Southern California.



For details on the My Hood Votes campaign, visit http://www.MyHoodVotes.com.

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first hiphop show i ever went to...was when these guys put out four-alarm blaze...




i know i been on hiatus,
thinking i'm gonna start a new lj but i'll let yall know.