Journal created:
on 25 June 2003 (#1141900)
Updated:
on 15 January 2014
Name:
indifferent child of the universe
Location:
Connecticut, United States
We live together, we act on, and react to, one another, but always and in all circumstances we are by ourselves. The martyrs go hand in hand into the arena; they are crucified alone. Embraced, the lovers desperately try to fuse their insulated ecstasies into a single self-transcendence; in vain. By its very nature every embodied spirit is doomed to suffer and enjoy in solitude. Sensations, feelings, insights, fancies-- all these are private and, except through symbols and at second hand, incommunicable. We can pool information about experience, but never the experiences themselves. From family to nation, every human group is a society of island universes.
- The Doors of Perception, Aldous Huxley
All we have to believe with is our senses, the tools we use to perceive the world: our sight, our touch, our memory. If they lie to us, then nothing can be trusted. And even if we do not believe, then still we cannot travel in any other way than the road our senses show us; and we must walk that road to the end.
- American Gods, Neil Gaiman
The one thing that we yearn for in our living days, that makes us sigh and groan and undergo sweet nauseas of all kinds, is the remembrance of some lost bliss that was probably experienced in the womb and can only be reproduced (though we hate to admit it) in death.
- On The Road, Jack Kerouac
- Calvin & Hobbes, Bill Watterson
# # #
I am extremely introverted and rabidly anti-social, unless I am either intoxicated, or in front of a computer screen.
I have a formal, post-secondary education in the form of a B.S. in Applied Mathematics and Minors in Physics and Philosophy. Because of a complex series of unfortunate circumstances and blatantly idiotic personal decisions, however, I have not utilized that education in any practical or fulfilling way since I earned it in 2003. Having lost nearly all interest in my field of study, I'd prefer to just forget I'd gone to school altogether; however, the banks and government agencies that loaned me the tens of thousands of dollars to finance said education aren't as eager to simply drop the matter.
I am hopelessly chemically dependent on prescription benzodiazepenes. I hate it.*
*After over two years of slavery to clonazepam, I have been clean of it since mid-June, 2007.
Most of the time, I am a shameless nihilist. Occasionally, I attempt to be spiritual. On those occasions, my spirituality is unique, unorthodox, bizarre, and often times drug-influenced.
Currently employed in a dreadfully mind-numbing data entry office position. Frequently bored, listless, apathetic and drenched in ennui in my spare time.
# # #
Sentiments expressed better than I could by a few great minds:
Inexpressible and nameless is that which gives my soul agony and sweetness and is even the hunger of my entrails.
- Nietzsche
People see a tiny part of life during their time
and swift-fated they are taken away and fly like smoke,
persuaded only of whatever each of them has chanced to meet
- Empedocles
They'd map out roads through Hell with their crackpot theories.
- The Dragon from Grendel, John Gardner
War is the father of all and king of all, and some he shows as gods, others as men; some he makes slaves, others free.
- Heraclitus
There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
- Hamlet
Have you ever wondered-- what does one drop in the ocean signify?
- Jack Dangers
This is how the world works. All energy flows according to the whims of the Great Magnet. What a fool I was to defy him. He knew. He knew all along.
- Hunter S. Thompson
Destiny is a fickle bitch.
- Benjamin Linus from Lost
In the province of the mind, what is believed to be true is true, or becomes true within certain limits to be learned by experience and experiment.
- John Lilly
Belief is the death of intelligence.
- Robert Anton Wilson
Most people think,
Great God will come from the skies,
Take away everything
And make everybody feel high
But if you know what life is worth,
You will look for yours on earth
- Bob Marley
GREATER POOP: Is Eris true?
MALACLYPSE THE YOUNGER: Everything is true.
GP: Even false things?
M2: Even false things are true.
GP: How can that be?
M2: I don't know man, I didn't do it.
- Principia Discordia
Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
Cheshire Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.
Alice: I don't care much where--
Cheshire Cat: Then it doesn't matter which way you go.
Alice: --so long as I get somewhere.
Cheshire Cat: Oh, you're sure to do that, if you only walk long enough.
- Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
Ghost: Come, Bender, you'll like being dead.
Bender: That's what they said about being alive!
Life is just death in drag.
- Xavier, Renegade Angel
We've just mastered the life of doing nothing, which when you think about it, may be the hardest thing of all to do.
- Jim Carroll
There was a point to this story, but it has temporarily escaped the chronicler's mind.
- Douglas Adams
May whatever god you believe in have mercy on your soul.
- Q
- The Doors of Perception, Aldous Huxley
All we have to believe with is our senses, the tools we use to perceive the world: our sight, our touch, our memory. If they lie to us, then nothing can be trusted. And even if we do not believe, then still we cannot travel in any other way than the road our senses show us; and we must walk that road to the end.
- American Gods, Neil Gaiman
The one thing that we yearn for in our living days, that makes us sigh and groan and undergo sweet nauseas of all kinds, is the remembrance of some lost bliss that was probably experienced in the womb and can only be reproduced (though we hate to admit it) in death.
- On The Road, Jack Kerouac
- Calvin & Hobbes, Bill Watterson
I am extremely introverted and rabidly anti-social, unless I am either intoxicated, or in front of a computer screen.
I have a formal, post-secondary education in the form of a B.S. in Applied Mathematics and Minors in Physics and Philosophy. Because of a complex series of unfortunate circumstances and blatantly idiotic personal decisions, however, I have not utilized that education in any practical or fulfilling way since I earned it in 2003. Having lost nearly all interest in my field of study, I'd prefer to just forget I'd gone to school altogether; however, the banks and government agencies that loaned me the tens of thousands of dollars to finance said education aren't as eager to simply drop the matter.
*After over two years of slavery to clonazepam, I have been clean of it since mid-June, 2007.
Most of the time, I am a shameless nihilist. Occasionally, I attempt to be spiritual. On those occasions, my spirituality is unique, unorthodox, bizarre, and often times drug-influenced.
Currently employed in a dreadfully mind-numbing data entry office position. Frequently bored, listless, apathetic and drenched in ennui in my spare time.
Sentiments expressed better than I could by a few great minds:
Inexpressible and nameless is that which gives my soul agony and sweetness and is even the hunger of my entrails.
- Nietzsche
People see a tiny part of life during their time
and swift-fated they are taken away and fly like smoke,
persuaded only of whatever each of them has chanced to meet
- Empedocles
They'd map out roads through Hell with their crackpot theories.
- The Dragon from Grendel, John Gardner
War is the father of all and king of all, and some he shows as gods, others as men; some he makes slaves, others free.
- Heraclitus
There is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.
- Hamlet
Have you ever wondered-- what does one drop in the ocean signify?
- Jack Dangers
This is how the world works. All energy flows according to the whims of the Great Magnet. What a fool I was to defy him. He knew. He knew all along.
- Hunter S. Thompson
Destiny is a fickle bitch.
- Benjamin Linus from Lost
In the province of the mind, what is believed to be true is true, or becomes true within certain limits to be learned by experience and experiment.
- John Lilly
Belief is the death of intelligence.
- Robert Anton Wilson
Most people think,
Great God will come from the skies,
Take away everything
And make everybody feel high
But if you know what life is worth,
You will look for yours on earth
- Bob Marley
GREATER POOP: Is Eris true?
MALACLYPSE THE YOUNGER: Everything is true.
GP: Even false things?
M2: Even false things are true.
GP: How can that be?
M2: I don't know man, I didn't do it.
- Principia Discordia
Alice: Would you tell me, please, which way I ought to go from here?
Cheshire Cat: That depends a good deal on where you want to get to.
Alice: I don't care much where--
Cheshire Cat: Then it doesn't matter which way you go.
Alice: --so long as I get somewhere.
Cheshire Cat: Oh, you're sure to do that, if you only walk long enough.
- Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
Ghost: Come, Bender, you'll like being dead.
Bender: That's what they said about being alive!
Life is just death in drag.
- Xavier, Renegade Angel
We've just mastered the life of doing nothing, which when you think about it, may be the hardest thing of all to do.
- Jim Carroll
There was a point to this story, but it has temporarily escaped the chronicler's mind.
- Douglas Adams
May whatever god you believe in have mercy on your soul.
- Q