O my god, it has been years i never write on here I miss Arashi. Nino has been married. And I, been married too. Think it's a fate. There are many things that have been changed. I don't exactly know what to feel. I don't know what I am missing. But I know, i am getting older and older. I just want to know what they are thinking and feeling right now. 🥺
Last night Nino appeared again in my dream. I remember his presence clearly. I hugged him and treated him like I don't want to lose him. You know, like he is my favourite doll, I hugged him. Nino appeared in my dream several times. And almost every time I felt kinda like he is my little brother, I want to protect him from everything. I don't want him to be hurted. I wonder why. Is my feeling about Nino really there? The feeling of want to protect him, as he is such passive being, I want him to be mine. I left him for a while after I hugged him and gave a piece of paper as a sign that I will come back to him.