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Jedao ([personal profile] ninefox) wrote2024-06-08 12:28 am
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Eyes in the Dark

Edwin does something - brave.

Something terribly, agonizingly brave. Maybe he didn't manage to speak to John, and never heard his brother tell him it was okay, to do whatever he had to, to survive. Maybe he saw the face of the person Larson wanted him to hurt, and was so repulsed, so furious that he's tried so hard to be better and Larson wants to force him to be worse -

Maybe he just makes a decision. He refuses.

And he goes somewhere dark, dark, dark.

Somewhere very far, black bodiless void. Somewhere small. Somewhere that feels like a cell, if he can remember what things feel like. Plain, stone, grey. Five feet on a side.

Or nothing. Just black black black black -

Yellow.

Yellow eyes. Crowns. Is there one crown here, or two? No, that's just eyes - nine yellow eyes in the shadows, with nothing at all to see. A darkness that has been eating itself for - who knows?

Jedao remembers his name, and his fire. He doesn't quite remember colors, or what it feels like to have hands. Sight is impossible in the casket of the Black Cradle, but he can hear the voices of ghosts. When his tormentor does not speak to him - when he is alone - he makes noise for himself. Ghosts with no throats are still permitted the luxury of screaming.

He is making a noise like someone chewing their fingers off. Humans are astonishingly good mimics, among the best in the animal world. The sound is horrendous, visceral. He has not been here long enough, this time, to forget pain. It is good to remember. The memory is better than nothing.

And then he is not alone.
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 05:00 am (UTC)(link)
It's almost like being caught in a crown, this place, and after the agony of being ripped out of Larson and thrown into darkness it hits him in a giddy wave that he's not in the Dark World.

He's not in the Dark World.

Wherever he is, however small it is, even though the total blackness is already starting to eat through his relief with terror. He's not in the Dark World.

And he's also not alone.

The presence-that-is-Edwin presses back against the edge of the space, registering the tail end of the horrible noises his partner in the dark is making.

He presses back, and down, and finds a corner to try and make himself as small as something only questionably present can. He got away from Larson without ending up in the Dark World. Probably. Unless this is some new corner of it. But even if he escaped Larson, he's still caught in the dark with something furious he can feel is there.
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 05:14 am (UTC)(link)
He doesn't recognize the eyes, but he knows that voice. He would know that voice if he couldn't do anything but sense the way it moves through the air.

The presence in the corner is suddenly very much not in the corner, instead rushing for--reaching for--the other in the space.

Dad. Dad. What-- Where are we? What's happening? Why are we here, where's the barge?
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 05:31 am (UTC)(link)
The threadbare shadow of robes and crown retreats into shapelessness again, freshly scared.

The voice is almost right. The way it talks isn't.

Wh... Who? Larson? ...Kayne?
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 05:41 am (UTC)(link)
Jedao knows who they are.

No.

Cho Jedao knows.

The shadow-shape that is Edwin curls into a form like a cat made from smoke and yellow ribbons.

You're... You're my grandfather. Aren't you. But--I thought you were dead. W-well, not any more, maybe, but when he was made, when my dad was made, you... I thought you were dead.
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 05:56 am (UTC)(link)
No. I'm not. I'm not dead.

And the god, uprooted from Larson's mind and cast onto a whole new plane, in a position to manifest himself fully for the first time, solidifies. The 'crown' this time is a short set of spiraling antlers, nested in the scalp of the animal-thing he's becoming. Less cat, more feline monster, while he tries not to panic.

This isn't the Dark World.

I'm not dead.
howtheyshine: (spirit: tentacool)

[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 06:13 am (UTC)(link)
It hurts, how reassuring and familiar Jedao's question is, how much the attempt at comfort means. And it hurts to know it's a diversion of a kind.

I'm not dead.

As more of the god-that-was-Hastur coils into reality, the Black Cradle starts to crack.
Edited 2024-06-08 06:15 (UTC)
howtheyshine: (spirit: sweat)

[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 06:34 am (UTC)(link)
His building outrage gets undercut by Jedao's scream, and Yellow goes very still, now very much a Thing present in the dark.

"It hurt you," he says, finding the words harder to get out silently.
Edited 2024-06-08 06:35 (UTC)
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 06:59 am (UTC)(link)
Uncertainty and worry radiate through the space, such as it is.

I'm... Edwin. I... My father is Cho Jedao. He... was made from you.
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-08 04:05 pm (UTC)(link)
I-it's okay.

He understands so much better now where that kind of distance can come from.

If I-- if I break this place-- it won't kill you, will it?

Kill you... more. Destroy what you are.


Because he can feel it now, the limits of this cramped little hollow, and whether it's bleedover from Arthur's claustrophobia or a fresh new anxiety of his own, the closeness and the dark make him feel ill.
Edited 2024-06-08 16:05 (UTC)
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-09 02:43 am (UTC)(link)
He can do that. For his dad, for his grandfather, which is a reality that's just starting to register, he can do it.

Edwin growls, quietly, not at anything in particular, but he reaches through the hollow to circle around the eyes-that-are-Jedao, protecting him as best he can.

And then everything outside of that small shield slams outward, all at once, in a riot of space-dark tentacles laced with the greenish yellow of new growing things.
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-09 08:47 am (UTC)(link)
Edwin doesn't think past his panic, which isn't precisely a new phenomenon. He acts on instinct, seizing hold of those glimmering eyes, rooting threads of himself around their edges, holding them fiercely in existence and desperately pouring any strength he can share into the fading spirit.

I'm not saying Jedao is basically a warlock now but I'm not not saying it either.
howtheyshine: (spirit: unhappy)

[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-06-10 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
'Move out' he knows from war films, though it's a fairly self-explanatory phrase. He hasn't watched that many war films. He doesn't like them.

Jedao can feel it now, the uneasy swirl of Edwin's emotions, the confusion and protectiveness almost overridden by fear.

W-we can go.

Nervous and confused as he is, he still takes the mirrored shape of a foxlike thing shaped with midnight colors. Blue-black, highlights of umber purple and starlight. He presses against Jedao's front leg, tendrils of shadow like tentacles wrapping around the larger creature like a kid looking for a hug.
Edited (I thought of a thing) 2024-06-20 02:16 (UTC)
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-08-13 03:28 am (UTC)(link)
He keeps up, two steps for each one of Jedao's. The fear hasn't gone anywhere. He's sticking close enough to almost be underfoot.

The whole... the whole empire? What does that mean? How can we kill it?
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[personal profile] howtheyshine 2024-08-17 09:21 pm (UTC)(link)
Edwin understood about half of that, really. What he knows is that it involves a whole lot of killing people whose sins he doesn't know.

Can't we... find a way to- to unmoor him and kill him, instead of other people? What kind of - swarm?

His last question sounds distracted. It was interrupted by the sense of someone familiar, not close by, but get closer. His dad, his dad found him? His dad got to this universe, or came back to this universe, or...?

He stops, one paw lifted, face turned toward some cosmic wind that carries the un-smell of Jedao Two.

--this way. We need to go this way.
Edited (An Idea ) 2024-08-25 05:28 (UTC)