mmmm wine!!

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nothing to say. it's ridiculous how there can be a million things in your head, but when you decide to type them out... nothing pops up.
my back hurts.
i have horrible posture while sitting at my desk. i end up hunched over like a 105 year old lady.
i'm mad at myself. in the course of 6 months last year (jan - end of june) i lost 50lbs. i looked great, i felt great. i still had a ways to go, but damnit, i was getting there. and then i just stopped. no reason. just lazy, secretly hate myself or something, i dunno, really, i just stopped. and now i've gained every. single. pound. back. and it's almost the holidays, which makes it harder. i HAVE to lose it back. i HAVE to. you just don't understand. i HAVE to lose this weight before march of next year. that's 5 months. while i may not be able to lose 50lbs in 5 months, i can lose most of it. i just have to do it.
anyways. that's all.
mmmm wine!!

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Well, no puppy. He died the other night. Sucks. I know the mother hadn't wanted to nurse him or his brother so they were having to bottle feed. and that's never good with puppies. Maybe it's god's saying we don't need a dog right now probably so. I was looking forward to a little furball tho. Sad.
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trying to potty train is exhausting, but i haven't been pushing it, so it's taking longer, but that's cool. i'm tired. very tired. i need a nap. but i gotta work. gotta clean house, cook dinner, do dishes, bathe baby, clothe baby, change baby, get baby to bed. and by the time it's time for her to go to bed, i'm so tired, i just go to bed with her. and nick comes too. we all pile up in our bed, watch a little tv while lola talks over it and then eventually passes out just in time for me and nick to say a quick "i love you" get a quick kiss and pass out ourselves.
hoping work will get a little better. it's not like it's bad, don't get me wrong - but technically i'm a "purchasing assistant" - but i do WAY more than that, and have for years now. actually i've never done the purchasing assistant duties, ever. i enter orders, i enter purchase orders, i manage inventory, i run spreadsheets and reports and update them daily, i assist customers, i create item numbers and interpret drawings for new kits to create new item numbers, i help shipping when needed with processing their system and ship confirming and fixing errors on their end, and on and on and on and on. i do this on a daily basis. but i can only call myself a purchasing assistant. and i want to call myself what i am, i want to call myself jit coordinator. but that title has been done away with. there really isn't a title for my job b/c really no one is supposed to be doing all the things i do anymore. it's supposed to be split. a buyer to do the purchasing side, a csr to do the customer orders and emails and stuff, and shipping to do shipping stuff. i'm hoping that they'll make me a buyer soon and i can stop doing all the other stuff and just work on purchasing and getting lower prices and stuff like that. we'll see - but i'm hopeful for the first time in a long time.
anyways, gotta get to it.