The little things in life

Happy 2 years Mike. I Love You!

Life is wonderful! Yet busy :(

So it finally feels like summer is here. I am working a lot which I hate and like it all at the same time. Mike and I want to move out by the end of July but we both sat down and looked at what type of money we are making and are going to hold off just for a little longer. I want to get a full time job. My parents don't want me to because of insurance reasons but I will be 20 June 19 and I will only have one more year. Hopefully this semster I will finish up most of the boring classes and finally get into what I want to do. But I know if I move out I won't be able to do that this semster. I am tired of thinking about money. I wish I was five and a nickle seemed like a lot.

So many things are happening this month and next...Amanda and I turn 20 on June 19th, Mikes birthday, 2 camping trips etc... But it will be fun. As a early birthday present from my parents they got me a computer desk, which I am using right now. Mike and I built it today it was good fun.

I should be in bed I have work at 7am so I am off to bed. Goodnight, Godbless and Sweet Dreams!

~*~Nic~*~

So right now I am at my friend Kevin's house right now and we are playing poker. Jason has taken over my poker chips because I am not feeling so good....And Jason is now winning :) we will split the pot if he wins :). So I was in a play...Kinda funny to think about it. Children of Eden was an amazing play and was full of some very awesome people. I met a whole bunch of people and I enjoyed hanging out with them.

So most people know but now that I am planning on moving out in July. But right now I need to work more for that to work. I now work at Blockbuster and I haven't worked a lot because of the play. The play is over and I am out of school so I can work as much as possible. I am such a nerd I have already started buying all this stuff to for the apartment. I just hope we move out. We as in Mike. So if money is good then I will be out in July...so if I am not out by then then you will know I don't have a lot of money.

I am ready for the Summer to really start it doesnt feel like it at all. I am having a lot of trouble sleeping and I am really starting to hate it. I am getting to sleep at 4 or 5 in the morning and don't get up until 1 or 2 pm. My family will start yelling at me if I don't get up. :( I love sleep.

Right now Jason is winning and I hope he keeps winning. And I am off to watch the amazing pokerness happening.

Toodles

~*NIC*~

I wish I could sleep. I can never fall asleep at night and during the day I can't keep my eyes open. Plus my voice is going. Now its almost 5 and I have to go take a shower because I have my little "sisters" here and I have to take them to school and then go to school myself. :( I can't wait for June.

I hate midterms!!!

Its crazy, all I can think about is how much everything has changed. People have changed. I have changed. Since I have left high school nothing is the same. I look at people differently and sometimes question why I put up with things that they did. How they wanted to stand out so much in school but now looking back on it they looked stupid. How when you see someone from High school that you never really talked to and they talk to you like you two were best friends. In high school everyone wanted to be the center of attention. That still hasn't changed I still see it in people. I just put my head down and think to myself how will they ever make it in life. I think I have closed most of my doors from high school. I am not sad about it. Some people are still living in high school. needing to be the center of attention. Stating that they don't need drama when they themselves bring it. Stating they don't like lairs when they are not being true to themselves. I look back to who I use to like and ask myself why did I like that guy? Now I feel only friend feelings or no feelings for that guy at all. Then I become happy that things just didn't work out.

I'll be 20 soon. Its exciting I guess. No longer a teenager but not titled as an adult. This summer my life will change so much. I pray that when I make the decision to leave it is a smart one and I hope that people trust me and not say stupid things. I know that not leaving will only make it harder to get along. My parents raised a girl to fight back and stand up for what she wants. I think they forgot that I will even stand up to them. Life the past few months has been hard here. I never really come home except to sleep or I stay upstairs so that I will at least not make them mad. Sometimes that doesn't work. I guess I am just tired of coming home wondering if I am getting into trouble. I shouldn't be scared. I know it but I am. This part of my entry doesn't make sense to most people, i am sure. Lifes been hard, its not getting easier. I wish it would. I wish I wouldn't have to worry about little things but they come back as bigger problems. They always do.

I should go to bed. I need sleep. I am always tired.

Night

~*Nic*~

+On a happy note Mike and I have been together for over 13 months and I am still very much in love with him.

Happy One year Mike! I love you very much.

Life is never boring anymore... I miss it a little. So my math teacher is crazy and I can't keep my eyes open in class so I am basically screwed. The lack of me going is, I am sure, not going to help. Its the second week in and I have missed classes already. I feel bad because I know I should do good in my classes and I am sure if I buckle down I will be fine.

Well, now I am looking for a better job, with better hours because as much as I liked the Cable Station, I find the hours hard to come by. I will find out tomorrow if I have a job, which I hope I do. I need money to pay for bills and to sometime soon get out of my house. Most likely won't happen till late summerish.

So, if I wasn't having a hard enough time getting a better job and getting my butt to school, I had to add more to the list of things to do. I decided to try out for Children of Eden and I made it. I am one of the storytellers. Its a really great show and I hope everyone makes it there. But, now I have set myself up with more stuff to do. I found out today that during Hell Week I will be taking my Finals. Not exactly what I wanted to do. I am excited about the show and everyone in it seems really cool. I am happy for Mike because he got one of the Leads in the play.

Speaking of Mike, we have been together for almost a year. I am so happy and in love. We hit our one year on Feb. 5th. Yay! Superbowl.

I should really get to bed. I am up at 5 tomorrow. :(

Night

~*~Nic~*~