glittering glass butterflies.

i was really not planning on working a 9:30-9 shift yesterday, but meaghan was really sick and i told her to go home and i would cover her shift. We both kind of take shifts or switch shifts with each other becuase we know we can count on each other for that kinda thing.

anyways soo i worked untill 9 last night. i wasn't able to get the laundry done like i wanted to and i wasn't able to get over to home depot to pick out paint colours for the kitchen. owell! i will do that tomorrow when dustin and i go out.


dustin has made this big wooden box thing to grow plants in. i have planted lettuce, chives and tomatoes so far. the tomatoe seeds have sprouted but thats about it. i took some pictures and i will post them tomorrow. annnd i saved the green pepper plant from outside before it died of frost or the cold. it is small now but i am sure it will get bigger in the next few months. i am really looking forward to growing veggies over the winter and getting to eat it too! :o)

i had a veggie garden when i was about 14 in my backyard, but all i really go outa it was the carrots. i think the soil didn;t have enough nutrient in it or something OR i didn't plant it early enough. whooo knows!? i just can't wait untill we have our own house and i can have my own veggie garden in the backyard again.

yeahhh... i am a gardener nerd!

well now i geuss i will pay visa and stuff since we got payed this week. yipppeee!

off to work i goooo!!! arrghh!! i wish i could stay home. i really really do!

GGAAAAAHHH!!! i REALLY need to pick out the colour for the kitchen and paint the damn thing!!

maybe tomorrow i will go over to home depot and do that. BUT first have to deposit our cheques into the bank and then head over there!! oh joy! oooh and i HOPE to get all the christmas shopping done on sunday. if not then hopefully by the following week. i think the only people dustin and i will have ahard time getting something for is his little sister and his brother, jason's girlfriend steph. owell. not too worried about that.

grampa's surgery went well. they think he will be able to go home tomorrow. i know he is looking forward to that, well really who wouldn;t?!

anyways i am going to watch the rest of ER and then go to bed!


hehe dustin has fallen asleep on the couch. and pernie is falling asleep sighting up. what a silly kitty. :oP

i talked to my granparents (moms parents) for a half our on the phone last night. we never do that. i am not as close to them as i am with my other grandparents (dads parents) which is kinda odd since my dad has disapeared and usually when the dad disapears soo do the grandparents.

ANYWAYS i called and talked to them both. i told them about the class i am taking tuesday nights and that work is going alright and stuff like that. ANd of course my grandfather was talking about past stuff like my papa in world war one and getting shot in the ankle and lung and then how papa learnt how to cut animal furr and have a job doing that. it was very interesting. well i also talked to him about his surgery today and told him i am sure everything will be fine and found out what hospital he was going to be at (toronto general). i thought he was going to be at markham stoufville hospital. i don't think i will travel all the way down there to visit him after surgery but i will call and leave a msg today at their place asking if i can come down to their place on sunday to visit. well that is IF he has recovered fine and has been let out of the hospital.

i really should be closer with them. BUT they are always sooo busy with stuff and everytime i ask to come down and see them on my day off they are always doing something. maybe i should just call them from now on and that way the communication will be much faster then e-mailing.

well sometime in the aafternoon my gramma will call my mom to let her know how his surgery went and then i should hear about how it went right afterwards.

now for todays plan..

first watch the hills on mtv.ca

take a shower

eat something

and debate if i should take the bus up to the mall and start x-mas shopping for dust.

and figure out our paypal account and adding our freakin visa back onto it! ( i am very much annoyed with them right now!)


oooh and things at work are alright. still the same bullshit. still get talked down to like you are a stupid lil kid by my boss but that is nothing new. BUT i have asked krystle to search for a job for me(she works for a job recruiting company) soo hopefully in the next month or so i will have a desk job. CROSS YOUR FINGERS for me :o)

well i haven't posted in awhile. but i think i am going to do that tonight or tomorrow when i have more time.

well off to work untill 6 and then class untill 9. yippee! :o| well not the work part but class is interesting.

if i still feel like crap by tomorrow night i think i am going to go to the doctors on wednesday. i don't want my cold turning into bronchittis or something else. that is the last thing i neeed right now.

4 people down only 11 more to go!! wahooo.

well it is now time to pay bills! wahoooo! fun :o)

tomorrow have to go to the bank again and pay the government 225 and then take out money for dinner tomorrow night with friends.

annnd also tomorrow we have to get the oil changed in the car and buy new wiper blades (nite to self don't buy crappy wipper blades.. they DON"T work that great)


i really have no clue in the world how we spent 190 on groceries tonight?! we have never ever spent that much on groceries. dustin and i were taking and we have figured it is because everything ran out at the same time. ie cat food, litter, shampoo, soap, laundry detergent, and we bought a whole chicken and a big turkey breast soo thats how we spent 190. i told him that next time we needa go grocery shopping we can't lol, but of course we will.


i can't wait untill november. we both get an extra pay cheque which means christmas shopping and a new outfit for myself for this dinner thing that dustin and i were invited to through a company dustin drew architectural drawings for. should be interesting. BUT i have no clue what i should wear to something like that. i am soo confused.

well off to do my online banking. oooh that reminds me! the bank gave us the money that someone had taken outa our bank acount. i am soo relieved. phewww :o)

i cannot believe i am sick again! thank goodness i have tomorrow off and i can rest and try to get better for work on thursday.

i am in my jammies now and i think i am going to go and make some neocitrun and watch some tv.




gawd i feel like a truck hit me!!

everytime theres a bump in the road called life i make such a big deal out of it. like its kind of the end of the world attitude. i really don't understand why i act that way. i think i hold EVERY little thing in and not vent about it untill something big happens and i go all out about it.

however i have been majorally stressed lately. mostly with working a lot and never having enough time to do all the house work or even have some help with the house work. i have to just tell myself to relax every once in awhile.


i really need to work on thinking about all the positive things in life right, because whenever something happens and i get all upset about it all the negative things flow into my mind and all the positive things just pop right out. why does negative somehow over power the positive in my head? honestly!


anyways!........



i finished painting the bathroom tonight. it is VERY PINK! and i mean VERY VERY pink! when you stand in the bathroom now and look in the mirror at yourself you have like a pink glow to you from the walls. it is kind of funny to be honest.

next project is the kitchen. i still can decide what colour to do it. i think what i need to do is take a plate to home depot and pick out a whole bunch of colours and then decide from there.

heres a picture of one of our plates.. i wanna try to go with a colour that goes along with the plate.

i was thinking a red shade.. any suggestions?




and i found a really old pic on my photobucket account..

i was about 16 and i think it was 2 days after i got outa the psyc ward.



anyways i gonna go and eat a brownie. :o)