Today I got up an hour late for work, made it to work and then got sent home as a punishment! It was the best punishment ever (apart from being chained to hannahs bed with handcuffs).
Then I got high and ate a load of crap... including an ice cream.
This is my life and to top it off: Hannah and Nicki are watching spot bursting videos on you tube.
Wow. Its nearly 5 in the morning and im writing on my LJ. Not done it in a while but ive recently been reading through them and its nice to remember things. Im not the best writer and not many people read it… but fuck it I’ll do it anyways. Im not the most interesting person but whats an insomniac to do this time in the morning…?
Its sad when people look back and wish they were younger. Obviously older people wish it all the time, but I know 20year olds who wish they were 17. me and my friends did have a good laugh and we got drunk A LOT 3 years ago. But why not act like that now. I realise we all must grow up… but why so soon?? People should be getting drunk and having lots of sex!! Their young!! They should be enjoy being 20 not wishing they were 17. and I think some of my friends are missing out on that because they are timid.
I love my age. I enjoy uni loads and like the people I’ve met (even if some are raging lesbo’s) but looking back and thinking ‘what if’ doesn’t do anyone any good. I think as you get older you understand your past and the people in it more that you did at the time but people (who will go unmentioned) want to know why and how things changed. There’s no point. People should enjoy what they have and the time they have to do it in.
anyways…. My point is… people grow up to fast.
My brain is thinking these things because of 2 recent conversations with 2 separate people. I hope they understand what im trying to say!
I recently got some of my photography printed in a photography book. I’m happy about that!! Don’t have much time for photography in uni but think ill start it up again.
My mum came over to stay with me this week. Shes ok but my step dad recently left her for a 20year old. Weird. I’m too busy worrying about her and I should be revising for my film studies exam next week and finishing an adaptation essay on Sin City…fun!!
Its weird going back to Retford and Ollerton after living in Sheffield. The holidays have been ok for me. Apart from the shit with my cock-of-a-step-dad, I had quite a good Christmas. I spent Christmas eve out in Retford – it was packed and full of boys from school who will talk to me now I have breasts (unlike in year 7). I also went to the Welfare in Ollerton new years day to cheer my mum up. You don’t get entertainment like you get in Ollerton. Some people were just laugh out loud funny and some were so disturbing I wanted to push them off the smoking balcony. Some people were practically having sex on the dance floor. I suppose its like anywhere… you go to the rite places and you see the wrong things.
I have a free week next week! It should be fun just doing nothing. Might venture out and try some new CD’s. not bought anything new in a while. Hannah if your reading this before I speak to you…. Please come see Radiohead with me…. Your rich and you like them! Its only 45squid!! PLEASE!!!
hmmm I should try get sleep now! Poor nicki is doing an all-nighter in the next room. The thought of work makes me sleepy!
Recently i have been reading through friends journals (when meant to be watching Henry 4th...) and i've noticed a few things. People get so emotional on livejournal. Someone once found out I had a LJ and called me and emo. I didn't quite understand why but looking at some peoples its so obvious how people get that opinion. Before I go any further, I don't mean to imply that writing about your emotions is wrong etc but sometimes I wonder why people cant just be honest and write what they really want to say. I will admit that it is one person in particular who has led me to have a bit of a moan about it! He moans about how crap people are to him and know one is honest anymore. And the fact that he is so honest is such a great and manly thing! bulshit.... Its all crap. This person knows who he is and i hope he reads this! Recently he called one of my friends 'jiggles' and called her fat. for someone who had her self esteem destroyed at school because of her weight (and he knows this) it wasn't a brave, clever or honest thing to do.... it was bullying and pathetic. he makes her feel uncomfortable in her own home, he points out her insecurities like spots and sweat patches etc. when we confront him about it he says its not his fault he's honest. For someone who prides himself on honestly he talks alot of shit. he doesn't speak honestly when it matters like by having a crush on someone for years and not saying anything. or ruining his chances with great girls because he talks about how many lasses he's had in one week. or boasting about getting laid all the time when its crap!!! i understand that most of this is about me living in the same house as him - but the list goes on and on.... its about time he woke up and used some of that honesty on himself! - read his journal if you don't believe me.
Van if you read this..... You deserve much worse for what you said to Nicki - i suggest you apologise!
Didn’t know how to get this to you both so quickly. Something come up and I’ve got to go home tonight. So I wont be there in the morning, but at least well have an idea if they ask. Ill be there for the lecture so we can talk about the idea then! If you like it if you don’t. etc.
The whole idea I had was when listening to this song
so it would give you a better understanding if you had a listen.
But obviously it’s a dream like thing we are doing and I wanted to do something round the idea of a nice dream…. Turing into a nightmare. I think by including blank faces would tie in nicely to the out line we were given. Its just coming up with the concept to fit it round that we will have to fill in. The only things I’ve really thought about is including a girl (which I don’t think would be that hard to find), but she’s enjoying this weird dream and as the music changes and gets heavier – the dream gets darker and darker and eventually is a nightmare. I thought it would be good to not actually see what the ‘thing’ is that’s changing her dream – just the changing effects.
Well have a listen to the music and let me know what you think. ill check my journal to see if you made any comments etc. speak tomorrow, sorry I couldn’t make the online chat. Sian! x
why?? at what point did she look in a mirror and think....yeah i look like a sexy minx. i thought it would be hard to beat what ive seen in the past in my days around ollerton, retford, nottingham and worksop... but sheffield pulls one out the bag!
Oh dear god…it’s happened again. I am one sick person. Last night I had a rather interesting dream when my film tutor came over to my house in Sheffield and thought it would be fun to get rather stoned with me in my room…. I can hardly write what happened next…..but he was very good! eeeeeeew! I need to do something about these dreams!! I’m never going to be able to attend another seminar… dear god!
looks like im not the only one not enjoying the 'gay americans' website as i have now named it! i cant belive there are people asking this woman for advice!!! im off out to buy me a gun...
WHY WHY WHY are there so many stupid internet based americans. hannah i thought you might enjoy this one.... have a quick read of what they are about on this page (mainly at the bottom) if you want look at their welcome page and read what topics they have. then have a look at what i put....hehehe. i should be a superhero!!!
Does cheese actually give you nightmares if you eat it before bed? For the past few months I’ve been having some very very weird dreams. I have been molested by Catherine from CSI (no Hannah I am NOT a lesbian – even though you wish it) I have nearly died in a fallen lift and then last night….I nearly had sex with Willy Wonka, but then I had to catch a train….i bet there’s nothing in those dream books about that!!! I need to sort my life out. Or stop eating cheese.
weird
awake
annoyed
curious