Thoughts meander like a restless wind inside a letter box..

My birthday gift to myself is a one day pass to the Beale Street Music Festival, a part of Memphis in May. But which day should I go? I'm leaning heavily towards day two.


I'm still sick. It's been over a week. It started out as the flu or something. Cold and then hot. Fever. Sneezing and then a runny nose. Sore throat. I'm a little better, but not all the way back to normal. I have white bumps on the back of my tongue and the tip of my tongue is itchy like it's chapped from sleeping with my mouth open since my nose is so stuffed up. I cough a lot when I'm talking and my throat hurts like hell when I cough. Anyway, the white bumps kind of scared me today. I know that strep throat left untreated can easily turn into a lot worse, so I was afraid to go the weekend without medicine. I went to the ER and the doctor told me that I just have sinus drainage and it's irritating my throat. She gave me prescriptions for Allegra and Nasonex. I'm usually okay with doctor advice, but this just doesn't feel right. I've always had sinus issues and I can pretty well recognize when it's just drainage causing irritation. I don't know what to do, to be honest. My primary care physician won't see me until my medical records are faxed to her office from my previous doctor. I've called my previous doctor (Well, nurse practitioner) numerous times and requested my records be faxed to the office and triple checked that I had the right number. The current PCP even faxed a request for the records to ensure the NP's office was getting the right number. I guess I can go get the records, but that's a thirty minute drive and I really don't know if my dad would take me just to get records. =/

My sister stole a hospital gown from the hospital tonight. And gloves. But everyone takes the gloves.

My rabbit humps my dog. =/ If he starts spraying, I'll definitely have to find a new home for him.

I can't breathe through my nose at all. I sound like the kid from Hey Arnold. The one that stalked Helga and she always punched him in the face. Brainy? I can't remember.

Still no word from the CNA classes. =/ It's only been a few days, though. Gotta be patient. I need a job now, though.

My bamboo needles never arrived from the seller on Ebay. I had my money returned to me. Sucks. Oh well.

Mr. Herriman chewed on my Harry Potter books last night. =/ He also pretty much destroyed my copy of Animal Farm. Did you know rabbits have scent glands under their chins? He rubs his chin on everything, so I googled it. Apparently that's how he marks his territory. I've tried giving him toys, but he only seems to be interested in cardboard and books. I think he's actually ingesting some of the cardboard he nibbles on. I hope that's okay. =/ Apparently, I'll need to have him fixed or he'll spray once he's older. I'm pretty sure I'm going to have to give him to someone else.

I've come to realize that I fucking HATE text messages that are forwards or just fucking lyrics. Don't text me unless you have something to say. Bitches. =[ My 400 texts a months aren't to be wasted on stupid shit like that.

I applied for CNA classes today. *Crosses fingers* I also went to the unemployment office, but there weren't really any jobs available.

I'll be 22 in a few weeks. I'm usually counting down the days, but this year.. Blah. I guess I've learned to not get my expectations up because I'm always let down. Not that I ever want anything more than attention.

I've had a lot on my mind the past few days, but whenever I find myself at the computer to type up the thoughts, my mind goes blank.

There have been a ton of blackbirds around lately. The other pictures turned out even worse than this one. I really need to buy some bird feed and hang my feeder outside. I love watching the birds. Last year, a Cardinal visited daily! I named him Pujols. =x

It's seven a.m. and it's already beautiful outside. I'm loving this weather. It's supposed to be 71° today!

Edit: Oh my god! It's March already? I don't want to have a birthday next month. =[

OH MY GOD. I'm so excited, but terribly unsure at the same time. It seems too good to be true!

Merany N. is trying her best to be the woman God wants her to be!!! 10h ago

Lmao. Fool.

So anyway! Last night I was chatting with Dawn (and Eric, I think) and my computer monitor died. The screen slowly went black and then a little bit of smoke came out from the back of it. Pretty scary! It smelled like burnt peanut butter cookies. I'm lucky she'd given me a second computer. I called her freaking out. There wasn't much she could do, but at least I had someone to talk to! I miss her a lot. I can't wait to see her and the kids again.

My grandmother has an appointment to see her doctor this morning. She may have pneumonia. =[ I hope not! I'm a little nervous. I want to take something to knit, but I don't really have anything aside from Kelsey's scarf that I'm working on that I can do without a pattern in front of me. Hmm. I don't know. I guess I have time to start a dog sweater, but eh.

I'm cold! I don't wanna shower!

I wonder if my dad will take me out for breakfast this morning? I'm hungreh. OH OR MAYBE LUNCH. CHINESE. MMM.

UGH! Return the god damned book. That really ticks me off. =[

I started knitting another headband tonight. I thought I was going to love it. I'm only about half way done and I hate it. Figures!

I'm pretty grumpy right now. I think it's because I can't sleep again.

My head hurts.

Next Wednesday, I'm getting my hair cut like this:



And these bangs:



I was gonna get a shorter A-line, but I'm afraid. Maybe I'll get the balls closer to summer.

Yay! New layout! It was definitely time. Sooo pretty. *Stares at it some more*

I can't believe I'm awake at this time in the morning. It's weird to sleep like a normal person.

Apparently, I dream of pearls. I woke up this morning around two and I was feeling my neck and ears asking my sister "Where's my pearl necklace? And my ear rings?" She started laughing at me and then it clicked that I had been dreaming. I was on the verge of tears! I LOST MAH PEARLS.

My cousin just called me to tell me that she started reading Harry Potter today. "Man, I hate that Dursley kid! He threw his freakin' turtle!" Hahaha.

My sleeping schedule is finally back on track. That makes me feel a little better. I feel sick today. My chest is really congested and each time I cough, it hurts. My nose is all sniffly, too. =[

I started knitting this scarf for Kelsey today:



Hers is in red and white, though.

My neighbors are listening to shitty music that's really loud, so I've been blasting my music.. but all it's done is given me a headache. =[