I wish...

I wish I was different, but life's no fairytale.

I wish I was dead.

I wish I've never been born.

I mean it.

I wish he never told me he loved me.
I wish he hadn't asked me to come along with him that day.
I wish he never sang me that one song, I still can hear it.
I wish we never kissed, I can still taste it
I wish he never introduced me to those things...I still do them.
I wish he never touched me, I still burn.


most of all,
I wish I had never loved him back...I still do.

I wish he had a good thing sitting in front of him.
I wish he knew that I understood what no one else does.
I wish he wouldn't think about moving across the country to find happiness.
I wish he actually loved me.

I wish for this cold, sucky, wintry weather to be over.  I'm tired of dressing in layers. I want to be able to wear my sandals and tank top and be on my way. Is that so much to ask???

All I want is to be happy...

I wish certain negative forces in my life would let me go and allow me to move on. I suppose I just have to move on without their permission.

I hope my best friends find their paths and their happiness. I feel their struggle and their pain.. They deserves so much better.

I wish I didn't have to work tomorrow.
I need just one more break... Always one more. I need a release.
I wish I could rid myself of this deep dark sad inside of me.. It's so far down that I can't find it to perge myself of it. It's hidden, but it's wreaking havoc on every part of me, bit by bit.

I wish for true justice to be served to all.

Imagine all the people living life in peace...
- John Lennon

I wish boys weren't so lame and full of excuses. I wish I had a nice, cute, funny, sweet Christian boyfriend.

I wish he would listen.
I wish he would care.
I wish i was willing.
I wish he was here not there.

I wish I could find the right guy.

I wish you were not gay.
I wish everyone was not leaving.
I wish you and me could become very good friends.

I wish he would get over himself.
I wish he would just wake up and realize that people would care about him if he didn't talk about them behind their backs.
I wish he would stop blaming this on everyone else.
I wish he would get out of my life, because I have my own problems to deal with.