Jill Renee

i really appreciate deaf people now....( or at least mute people)...I just looked online and learned some common signs so I can better communicate with dan.

throwing a pen at him when I was angry really upset him; but i was boiling over and couldn't yell.
i wasn't aiming to hurt; but i agreed that I won't do that ever again;

so, now I can use the "angry" sign instead;

plus learned the signs for lemon, tea, please, and thank you.

(plus already know some of the alphabet; so I can better ask for lemon zinger tea, please now-- I've been drinkng 5 cups or more of that a day, lately)

(most from the asl browser)

just saw the doctor.

he gave me flovent (a steroid to bring down swelling) to help with the cough-  which is the main problem now.

so I'm on 2 inhalers (flovent and albuterol, a broncho-dilator), an antibiotic, cough syrup, and tylenol, plus all my normal meds.
(plus extra probiotics)

he said that the x-ray was initially misread, both he and the radiologist agree that my lungs looked clear;
and when the doc listened today he said that my lungs sounded clear.

and to still take the antibiotic; if i keep improving; good; if my fever returns/goes up then call him (actually, have dan call him...)

he also said that as my cough goes down, my voice should return.

I've also decided to either let dan answer the phone; if he's not available then I just won't answer.

you *can* text me on my cell phone, and I will respond; and/or you can email me.

time to go rest some more.

(went to the er last sunday night with shortness of breath after having been sick for a few days; was diagnosed with pneumonia; is the short story)

It's official, I'm unemployed and searching for work.

this actually happened on the 9th, but as my mother-in-law passed away on the 12th; I've been dealing with that since and am now dealing with job hunting.

Dan and I are open to relocating but rather not (plus, the company would have to pay the costs)

I'm a  software engineer fluent in Java, experienced in designing and implementing guis.

I know the gwt library (for the web), Java Swing (for applications), jstl, struts, css, and can work on any platform- I've used eclipse and emacs on all three (windows, mac, and linux)

I learn new languages and libraries quickly, and have experience in the medical software world.

please let me know of any possible opportunities out there!

thanks

my mother in law passed away late saturday night; at 1 in the morning.

she was 67 years old.

I hate this past tense.

I loved her dearly, and I was only her daughter-in-law.

it's hard to imagine what dan (my husband) is going through.

the cab will be here at 6 am to pick us up to go to the airport to go down to raleigh to dan's dad.

I'll write more later.

for those out in california-

  we'll see you some other time; that trip is unfortunately cancelled.

we'll have shiva here locally once we get back; starting sunday; more details to follow

yes, I'm awake this late.
I tried to go to bed at 10:30; which didn't take

I have this huge project at work.

I've been working really hard for the past 4 months with barely any breaks.  I took two days off in december to see in-laws; plus one day off for martin luther king.

I'm afraid I'm going to lose my job.

my company keeps adding new features- or I haven't been paying enough attention to the specs (some of both);
and they expect me to get work done in the same amount of time.

"make a link available to  this feature"  became:  have  a patient-specific action-specific link available.  that's very different.  like 3 days different.  like I didn't know that when I started designing.

like I don't know how to do that yet.

it's very hard not to panic.

but if I panic, I lose.  I need to remember that.

I want to avoid a self-fulfilling prophecy.

time to call a friend in california....

I had a realization while drifting off to sleep-- I was in just the
right mindset-- I'm 90% sure I killed my killer bug!!! it accounts for
the problems I've had.

once I realized what it was; it took me 30 seconds to write code to fix
it.

the code isn't neat; but I can do that later.

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fixing this bug is CRUCIAL for the code I'm writing to work.
(the code that I need to deliver this week, that my job is essentially depending on)

this is *VERY GOOD NEWS*

I can now go to sleep relieved that this bug that's been haunting me for the last few weeks is now slain.

I could write up an enthusiastic report to detail the bug; but only a subset of friends care...
although I do need to write it up for the code documentation.

essentially:

I'm building a UI to manipulate objects; one task is do drag and drop between two trees; essentially two file trees (ie: two explorer windows)
a
while code to do this exists almost completely, it doesn't do exactly what we want; plus you need to use the newest versions of gwt (google windows toolkit) to use the new libraries, so I can't use them and have to roll a lot of my own stuff. it's certainly a learning experience.

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when moving items from box a to box b; they were being copied to box c as a "preview" of the move -> for a drag and drop operation.

then, when the drag-n-drop ended, the items got moved from a to b.

the problem was; when the items were getting copied from a-->c; the items in box a were getting marked for deletion right then; and if the move was canceled, then :

1) items got deleted from box a
2) items never got moved to box b

--> so the items essentially disappeared.

whenever I did an accounting, all items were present, just some were marked for deletion that shouldn't have been (nothing in box a actually got removed, they just got marked for deletion and then not drawn).

this is SUCH a relief.

got tickets for the 3-d showing at the boston common this saturday; looking forward to it.

ny times gave it a good review, and 89% on the tomatometer

I found these amazing "food" pictures:


you can view more of them here

the news these days is just stressing me out.

I need to go on a news fast--> no npr, no boing boing, no nytimes--> just too depressing.

I need te relax, and remember that my job right now is decent.
and that my mother-in-law is in good medical hands (she's in chemo right now, with pancreatic cancer; we just got back from visiting her)

my mother got me this-


we tested it, it works, and we'll definitely use it this chanukah :)