I haven't updated in forever... but i really never have anything of importance to say... and i never know what to talk about... except for now,.... i do owe an apology. Im sorry for lately not being myself. Im sorry if i've been a bad friend to you guys. Why is it that i can't handle a boyfriend AND my friends? Kate, im especially sorry to you. On Friday i felt like i was being boring and not myself, and then last night with Dan...i dunno, im just sorry.
honestly, im scared Im scared that I'm gonna mess up and things won't be the same between my friends and I. Im scared that maybe im getting to attatched.
Im sorry. And, i really am gonna try to just go back to my usual goofy self.
I think i just need a break...
I hope too much hasn't changed already.
I just feel really bad, maybe it's not a big deal to you guys, or you haven't noticed it that much, but it's just how i feel.
Anyways... I woke up and felt like i was dreaming in Narnia. It was a fantastic feeling.
OhOh, i gotsa myspace now! woot woot.
yeah, anyways. I just felt like i needed to get some of that out.
It's an off white/dusty pink color, and on my chest it has redish pink flowers, and then it kinda scrunches in the middle and then at the bottom it flows out and has more flowers. It's sooo pretty. I love it.
I'll try to find a pic!
Ah, im excited for swirl now...kinda.
Ha, but i will admit the ride up there and the search for it was fun!
I gotsa stay fly ah ah ah ah ah ah ah ah till i die ah ah ah ah ah ah ah. And, i organsmed off the men's cologne Kate was wearing. just thought you all should know.
I feel like im dying. Actually i think death would be better than this. It's like my ovaries are being twisted and squeezed with needle-nosed plyers... and then i get ran over by a garbage truck...and then little crows peck at me.
Just thought you all should know. PMS sucks and i plan on killing the inventor of it.
If giving birth is worse than this. No kiddies for me. I'd even be willing to stay abstinate my whole life so i don't even have the chance of having kids. well...maybe.
I don't care that im being a bitch because seeing as im pms'ing i have that right.
Ughh. Im so sick of this life guarding class too. Yesterday we were down at the red cross when some building caught on fire so we got out early. Otherwise i would have been there from 9 am to 7 pm. I was supposed to go today from 1 - 7 but given that my ovaries are going to explode at any moment i decided not to, but that means that i have to go in tomorrow at 5 which means i probably wont get to go swirl dress shopping. :(
Dan got accepted into Drake! it's the first and only school he applied to and he still got in! Im really excited for him!
so dan and i talked about swirl (even though it's still a while away) and we are both going together... i know, imagine that, 2 people dating agreed to go to swirl!
But, i just wanted to make sure we're going together considering im dress shopping this weekend.
and we all know that assuming makes an ass out of you and me
For being as stressed as i am about finals, im really not acting like it... i should be studying, or i should have at least looked over some stuff, but to be honest, i havent and i dont know if i will.
i'm so tired of acting like i don't care lately i've tried to stop procrastinating, i've tried to do my work, but i can't - i just dont care. Today, at lunch i copied raven's words derived from names packet,(which was due 1st block) bee-essed my reading log(which was due yesterday) i literally made up every story... and forged my moms name for it... and i also completed my math, and wrote a pen pal letter (due 2 weeks ago) i need to stop this.
I swear, next term no more procrastinating half assed shit.
Then, im starting a life guard training program so i can be a lifeguard and actually get a job.
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