Follow the fox into a morbid wonderland..

I think it has been over a year since I last posted. I have a new job at a before and after school program teaching first graders science and having fun playing games. I quit barnes and noble because they were treating everyone horribly there. Also because they refused to move me to the bookfloor because of my fibromyalgia. So I contacted the regional manager and let him know everything going on.
I then worked at an art gallery which was easy but my boss there liked to hold on to employees paychecks which is illegal so I quit there. Then I worked at best buy, which was okay but my new job was much better.

I find working with kids and teaching is much more fulfilling than any kind of retail.

What else? I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism as well. I have a new puppy, a schnoddle named Little Bit. I am learning to make scarves I am making one for Nathan right now then onto James. I am still taking classes for me BSE in English. I have a walking stick for the times I have trouble walking and a handicap parking permit which helps tremendously in the winter.

Oh! I am going to be an aunt since my brother's wife is pregnant. My dad got remarried again to a woman who is three years older than I am nine younger than my sister, but this wife is the perfect one for my dad. We all like her a lot. I also have two new stepbrothers a 5 and 8 year old. The 8 year old is really polite and into science and is already questioning the existence of god which makes me happy.

Apollo and I bought a new car recently, too. It's a 2010 prius with heated seats and a solar roof and a navigation system because I suck with directions.

I have found a few friends here but not to the same level as my friends back home. My bestfriends I talk to are still Becky, Liz, Barry and Alex. Although Alex didn't speak to me for a few years after I married Apollo. I am very glad to have him back I thought about him everyday.
I mainly talk to my bestfriends from online though. Nathan and I have been talking fairly regularly recently which is good because he inspires me to write in my journal more often. My paper journals. James and I catch up when we can but we are both busy and in quite a bit of pain a lot. It's very nice to have a close friend know what you're going through. Henry and I catch up when we can. He's also very busy with his work.

I miss a lot of you out there in lj land. I do read journals everyday and I hope everyone is doing well.

I also have an iPod in case anyone has an iPhone or android phone or iPod.

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I have been having an interesting time going back to school. I feel out of place still, and I'm very glad I did go to Stephens. Not so much for the students I met there, though I met Meghan and Emme, and some girls from Wood, I have a hard time dealing with my broken friendships. But I am so glad for the teachers I had.

At this school I feel more alone than ever. Not only do I not have any school friends that I can hang out with and speak to, but I don't have any teacher friends either. I don't know why it's so hard for me now to find someone. I even had a nice high school moment where I scared some girls in my teacher education class. We were supposed to be discussing why it was important to teach patriotism in school and I told them I didn't believe we should. They asked why, so I told them that it sometimes sets a closed minded approach to other countries like being scared of health care because it's "socialistic" or assuming we can learn nothing from other countries. I told them for the past eight years I haven't been proud of what the country is doing in the world so I don't recite the pledge, I don't place my hand over my heart. Then when I said I was an atheist two of the girls just sat in a stunned silence like I had just rotated my head 360 degrees and the other was mostly intrigued and bewildered and kept asking me questions because she had never "heard that point of view before" which just made the other girls more uncomfortable.

I'm mainly surviving without any friends by talking to my friends I have online a great deal and having some interesting interactions at my job, but I still miss being able to call someone up and see if they want to go see a movie with me that Apollo doesn't want to see, or going to lunch somewhere instead of going alone. I already wish we could move back to Missouri or move a place where one of my friend's live at least.

Attention All #Wlers- There’s a reunion planned for the first weekend in October starting Friday the second and continuing until Sunday. I suggest all three days that way if gives everyone in different time zones to be there and gives a lot of options to those who are working or have school, and families, or all of the above. I am thinking that we should meet in IRC in Esper.net since that’s where #loth still is and everyone is familiar with it, mostly. If someone knows if we need to set up a channel or we just kind of make all enter #wyverns_library and we don’t really need to -create- anything, that would be useful information to know.
We’ll probably do some voice chats as well, maybe more with Skype than Iparty since that’s a pretty old program and it was a complete pain, if I remember correctly. I’m going to send this in some emails that I have from msn and what not, maybe deviant art, but I still can’t get a hold of a lot of people like Grizz, Zeke, Lucas, Canth, Figment, Sol, Casey/Arcane, Tams, Lorrie, Kass, Artem, … well I’ll make this easier- these are the people I can get in contact with, if any of you know any other #WLer and are able to contact them please do so and let me know.
Here they are:

Me/Kim/Moonfox
Ciri/Meg
Raindance/Meg
Julsey/ Juls
MTKnight/Jeff
Juno/Matt
Wome/ James
Nymphy
Azazel
Apollotiger/Asa/Greg/Joshua
Brandie/Moonsong
Noc/Jonas
Kym

I’ll let everyone in on any future updates.

SO I was thinking of having the #WL reunion on IRC but II don't know too much about IRC so I didn't know if one of you knew what we should do to create the channel and on what server. I also though that we should have it in about two weeks to see if we can track most of the people down. I was also thinking it should be kind of like a weekend event since having a certain time might not work so well for people who live in various places around the world, unless someone has a better idea because that's my only one. :) Also, I need to see who can contact who to let them know, basically. I'll try and start a list of people and you guys can add on if I miss anyone and some of you read this but I'm just making sure I think of everyone.

Lorrie
Meg-Raindance
Meg- Ciri
Figment
Grizz
Zeke
Hazel
James
Tams
Julsey
Lucas
Jeff/MTKnight
Casey/Arcane
Brandie
azazel
Jonas
apollotiger/Greg/Asa/Josh (four names, Greg, -Four-)
Sol
Tams
Gette
Nymphy
Kass
Audrey
Pseudomuffin
Matt (Juls or Meg might be able to find him)

I know I'm missing some people so let me know who I'm missing- there's a some people that I know I won't be able to contact like Lucas, Zeke, Grizz, Hazel, Figment, Tams, Casey, Gette, Kass, Sol, and Psuedomuffin. ( I was going to try to go to #loth to see if anyone was there, but I don't know the server since my computer crashed). Jeff and Jonas are still on my MSN. Brandie, Juls, RainMeg, Lorrie, Greg and Audreysan are still on livejournal so I'm sure I can get their attention somehow. :p

So let me know if I have forgotten anyone, I've had to add a few more just finishing the message. Also let me know if you have the ability to contact the people I have no idea how to contact. And if you have a better idea about the date or a time.

Hey, I was thinking of maybe trying to have a #wyverns_library reunion, what do you guys think?

I lost my kitty, Bella. ;.;

I hope she can find her way back home soon.

So today I went in to see a new doctor, I guess that's one thing on base that's good. You get to see mroe doctors and get newer opinions. The doctor I spoke to diagnosed me with fibromyalgia, at first I was very hesitant to believe him, since i get diagnosed with a new thing every six month or so and it just seems to be a symptom, not the cause. But fibromyalgia -is- a cause- but he seemed #1 pretty angry no one figured it out before #2 very very confident but I wasn't sure why. He did new tests on me that other people haven't done, most of the time it's push my hand, pull my hand make a fist. But he poked certain parts on my body and I thought he poked really hard because it hurt but apparently he said he barely touched me, and looking online that's how people do get diagnosed with that disease.

So he gave me the one of the medications I have, and also special ordered me Cymbalta, after he asked if I was getting depressed sometimes. He was going to give my Lyrica, but changed after I said I had mini meltdowns sometimes.

Strangely I'm not really sure how I feel about this, even with the test I'm still skeptical, but I think I'd have that with any diagnosis I would get from now on. But he is making sure, he's doublechecking to see if the medicine works and wants to take a look at my MRI. He said I didn't have a pinched nerve anywhere, and he wanted to make sure i didn't have anything like MS either, but said he was pretty certain that I had fibromyalgia. We'll see, I don't know how that factors into to my shoulder being loose is the only thing.

I have a job at Barnes and Noble. ^-^

I'm getting laid off from my job this Friday, but I'll find out tomorrow if I get a job at Barnes and Noble, I really hope I do, I'm tired of call center work. I also start college again soon for a second bachelor's degree, I'm really excited about that.

I got off work today early because there were no calls and Aydee got off the same time I did. Aydee is the only friend I've made since moving to North Dakota that consistently hangs out with me and likes talking to me. She told me she likes talking to me because I always have a reason for what I think and I'm not just making stuff up as I go along. She also said I was the only girl to talk to her since she's been working where we work. She thinks it's because since she looks Hispanic ( and partially is) none of the girls ever spoke to her unless they found out she went to college, especially because in warranty she spoke Spanish on the phones.

I, of course, don't know if that's true but I feel sad that she thinks that way. The sad part about having Aydee as a friend is that she's planning on leaving very soon. And she has three different things she can do, move to Las Vegas for a para legal job, move to Japan with her boyfriend of join the Peace Corps. That makes me pretty sad.

She's not like my other friends, most of the time I see something in new friends that remind me of my other friends. She's very different, and very nice to me, and understands about my arms and is genuinely concerned for me if I'm in any pain, and gets angry with me about it. I'm hoping that because I'm going to college that I'll be able to find another friend after she leaves, but it's still pretty hard.