I have Hope for the next year. I don't know what's gonna happen but I know I can deal with everything now. I've gone through a lot since last June, when I began healing from my nervous breakdown. It's tough but I know I can make it, yes I can make it. Love to you all my LiveJournal friends... Are you there?
I discovered Banana Yoshimoto one month and an half ago and I'm completely hooked. The first book I read was Amrita, followed by Kitchen, L'abito di piume and H/H. Now I'm reading Rainbow and The world of Banana Yoshimoto. I'm in love.
I know I know, I never update this journal. This is because I've lots and lots of stuff to do for the university and I'm never at home. I'm confused. Sometimes you don't know who's really your friend, you know? I'm fed up of people that people who use your friendship only when they need you and after they leave you alone. Really, fuck off.
Since two months I've finally come to the conclusion that I'm interested in women. It's not a big deal for me because I'm not the person who puts labels or things like that. The thing that was interesting was that it was like an epithany. I think it began 2 or 3 years ago, I became to notice girls, I found myself staring at some chick walking on the street or in some telefilm. It happened sometimes so I almost didn't notice that. In the last months I felt attracted to a old friend of mine. When we danced together I felt excited and alive, something I haven't felt for a long time. 2 months ago I danced with a girl in a club and I kissed her for a joke but I liked that, I liked that really and I wished I shouldn't go home, I wanted to stay there with her. I liked the feeling of her body, her eyes, her lips, I noticed things I never did in a guy. I walked out of the club smiling and knowing that something maybe was changed in me. I saw again the friend I have a "crush" about and one night we danced again together. It was awesome. I saw one week ago "The L word"'s Shane and I decided that woman makes me horny.
I'm single since a long time and I don't want to have a relationship with any guy now. Maybe because I want someone else.
I don't know what you think. I've written this because I wanted to share my thoughts with someone. If you want to talk to me, I'd love to. If I have annoyed you, I'm sorry. I feel better now. Have a good night :)
German language 1 - tomorrow Paper for Italian contemporary literature - absolutely by next week Italian contemporary literature 1 - 11 Nov International relationships 1 - 10 Nov I need to get a life.
Sooo here we are! I have some new news finally! I'll post some new piccies but not now because I'm a little tired... I missed my nick/greg fandom!
News about Me:
I haven't updated for a while, between my journey to Spain and my exams I was soo busy I had a total breakdown, mental and physical. Before the last exam I was crying! WFT??? I'm a little scared before exams but I like that? I was freaking! I went back home without doing the exam, passed the whole day with nausea and I was so anxious I wanted to cry every 5 seconds. I was sooo stressed. Now I feel really better.
Bodies in motion!
Loved:
1) The beginning! The whole family together! Wooohooo!! 2) Nicky and the bra! My new favorite scene on CSI! He was holding it like it was the most horrible thing in the world! Nicky we love you :) 3) Greggo!!! Soooo cute! His hair are cuuute and he's again the funny guy! He found his balance. 4) Super Dave! I want to hug him sooo bad! You can't find anyone like him! *pets Super Dave* 5) Bobby and Mr.Greg! You rock BobbyD! 6) Hodges! Funny as usual! 7) The mention of Jacqui! I'm sad because I hadn't see her but I'm happy to feel her presence! 8) Brass! The Snark! 9) Sara is a not flirty with Greg. That's gooood.
Liked:
1) Sophia as a cop! It suits her totally.
Disliked:
1) Catherine and Warrick. I liked Yo!Bling and I think they rushed a little this thing of Warrick's marriage. However I think we'll have some surprises from these two... *is curious*
I haven't mentioned the cases because csi is in english but I'm italian and I can't understand everything...