Here I go again...
I'm doing it again...I was *so* happy for awhile...truly, I felt *good*...It was great. My nose was all healed up and it was getting warm outside and everything was going about as well as could really be expected...and I thought, (stupidly) that maybe it could continue on like that, and I could be happy through the summer, or at least the spring...But no. That light that switches between up and down has flipped again, and because I haven't found something to worry over lately I've apparently decided to create something to worry about...because I was just feeling all right and that just can't seem to be okay...
Why in the ever-lovin' crap is it just so hard for me to be Happy?! What is apparently so fundamentally wrong with me that I can't just seem to stay on a vaguely contented place, or at least somewhere that's *NOT HERE*?!?
I just want someone to fix me...fix it! Make it better! I want for them to come to me and say "look, we know what's wrong with you, and furthermore, we know how to fix it!"
Obviously, I'm currently have yet another of my late-night meltdowns. I'll be fine again in the morning. Actually, I'm pretty much fine now...it's over, and I really want a popsicle... ;)
Hyperventillating feels good...that zoned-out spacey feeling...
Why in the ever-lovin' crap is it just so hard for me to be Happy?! What is apparently so fundamentally wrong with me that I can't just seem to stay on a vaguely contented place, or at least somewhere that's *NOT HERE*?!?
I just want someone to fix me...fix it! Make it better! I want for them to come to me and say "look, we know what's wrong with you, and furthermore, we know how to fix it!"
Obviously, I'm currently have yet another of my late-night meltdowns. I'll be fine again in the morning. Actually, I'm pretty much fine now...it's over, and I really want a popsicle... ;)
Hyperventillating feels good...that zoned-out spacey feeling...
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rejected
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