well in the end my friend we will all be together again

my top 25 most played songs on iTunes.
1. such great heights - the postal service
2. f-stop blues - jack johnson
3. pirate looks at 40 - jack johnson
5. american folk song (from tv)
6. baby britain - elliott smith
7. horn intro - modest mouse
8. closing time - semisonic
9. mines not a high horse - the shins
10. a day in the life - the beatles
11. no woman no cry - marley
12. philadelphia freedom - elton john
13. bukowski - modest mouse
14. bouncing round the room - phish
15. she's alive - andre3000
16. piglet's lament - beatdown sound
17. philosophy - ben folds
18. best imitation of myself - ben folds
19. jamming - marley
20. moses - coldplay
21. shanty for the arethusa - the decemberists
22. it dont matter - donavon frankenreiter
23. day dreamer - donavon frankenreiter
24. the impression that i get - bosstones
25. float on - modest mouse

so i cleaned my room one last time.
( heres the end result.Collapse )
i couldnt even tell you why i posted that. i am bored. it really sucks here. i had a sleepover at becca's last night. it was a good time, i fell asleep earlier than i had planned but im still uber-tired today. oh well, maybe i can catch up on sleep tonight.

for the first time in 12 some-odd years, the simsbury public school system started without me, without the class of 2004. and from what i hear, there were no real problems. so its true then, that life goes on...

axl rose mothaaaaaaaaa

i went to little city pizza tonight with lindsay. it was really the first time i've seen her in forever. at first it was a little awkward but then i had a really good time. im glad we hung out. we went to j fosters where i ended up with like the entire cheerleading squad at shs. although i wasnt friends with all of them, they were really nice, and it was fun to see familiar faces. then i went to matty rich's and saw the girl next door.

im listening to waste by phish. beautiful song. why have i never gotten into phish?

i just got back from seeing garden state. it was really good, i think it lived up to the hype that i heard about it. it was like a perfect blend of comedy/drama/tragedy. and natalie portman was amazing. she played such a wonderful character, the type of girl i would love to date. plus it helped that she is gorgeous. anyway, i went with the last few remaining people here. a good night overall.

yesterday i did some shopping. best buy is such a great store. i got a webcam (so now i can talk to elliott, which sounds really kinky), i got a soccer game for my computer, and thats like the first time in ages that i've bought a game for computer, and i got a gamepad for my computer. i truly am a geek at heart. then i went over to westfarms and got 3 dvd's for 40 bucks- zoolander, high fidelity, and van wilder. i'd never seen all of high fidelity before but it was such a good movie i dont really know how to describe it.

i've been such a mallrat lately. well at least more than i've ever been. i think i've been to westfarms 4 times in the past 3 weeks. and i dont even particularly enjoy the place. i suppose it just gives me something to do? i dont know. im a compulsive shopper i think. its a bad habit.

i got my first 'real' journal today. i went with lauren from avon to borders and i got this nice black journal. it was advertised as the journal used by matisse, van gogh, and hemingway, among others (thats not the reason i got it, however). when i got home and opened it i found out the pages were like graph paper. at first i was dissapointed but now i kind of like the idea. i guess matisse, van gogh, and hemmingway liked it because they could find it easy to sketch stuff. thats just an idea though, i have no idea if that is true. im not much of an artist, but we'll see what happens. its kind of exciting to have an 'offline' (as someone termed it) journal as opposed to this. for sure that one will be a little more personal. but also, there is just some sort of satisfaction i get at seeing pages and pages of my own handwriting. i guess its kind of like art. like matisse and van gogh.

i will do a regular update later...oh and i got my music detection thing working which is exciting

THE 5000 QUESTION SURVEY Version 2.0

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1. Who are you?
gregory sousa schrank
2. What are the 3 most important things everyone should know about you?
im easy going, a good sense of humor, a little wild
3. When you aren't filling out 5,000 question surveys like this one what are you doing?
listening to music, hanging aorund lately
4. List your classes in school from the ones you like the most to the ones you like the least (or if you are out of school, think of the classes you did like and didn't like at the time).
senior yr of high school:
photo
english
psych
physics
math
5. What is your biggest goal for this year?
to do well in college
6. Where will you be in 5 years?
probably looking for my first real job, perhaps graduate school
7. What do you want to be when you grow up?
respected/admired
8. Are you more child-like or childish?
whats the difference? i definitely can act like a kid though
9. What is the last thing you said out loud?
'ok' i think
10. What song comes closest to how you feel about your life right now?
its hard to say, something that represents being excited and nervous at a crossroads of your life
11. Have you ever taken martial arts classes?
nope
12. Does your life tend to get better or worse or does it just stay the same?
it definitely fluctuates, thats what makes it fun
13. Does time really heal all wounds?
fo sho'
14. How do you handle a rainy day?
watch a good movie
15. Which is worse...losing your luggage or having to sort out tangled holiday lights?
losing luggage, you could always do away with the lights, plus, there cheap, get new ones
16. How is your relationship with your parents?
i wish it was better
Will you miss them when they are gone?
i'll miss them when i am gone
17. Do you tend to be aware of what is going on around you?
yes i would say so
18. What is the truest thing that you know?
all you need is love
19. What do you want your life to be like, as the future takes clearer shape?
i want to be sucessful, not necessarily financially, but just be able to look in the mirror and truly be happy with who i am and what i have
20. Have you ever been given a second chance?
yes by my parents
21. Are you more of a giver or a taker?
i think a taker
22. Do you make your decisions with an open heart?
i dont really know what that means but i put a lot of thought into things i would say
23. What is the most physically painful thing that has ever happened to you?
this wisdom tooth surgery
24. What is the most emotionally painful thing that has ever happened to you?
anything involving girls i guess
25. Who have you hugged today?
nobody all my friends are gone :-(
26. Who has done something today to show they care about you?
my parents asked me how i slept last night cause they know ive been having trouble lately
27. Do you have a lot to learn?
i try to learn as much as i can that interests me
28. If you could learn how to do three things just by wishing and not by working what would they be?

A be a lot better on guitar

B surf

C piano

29. Which do you remember the longest: what other people say, what other people do or how other people make you feel?
what they do
30. What are the key ingredients to having a good relationship?
open lines of communication (not to sound too cliche)
31. What 3 things do you want to do before you die?

A get married

B have kids

C be sucessful

32. What three things would you want to die to avoid doing?

A being responsible for someones death or something like that (i guess thats a good one?)

B being shunned

C i dont know?????????????

33. Is there a cause you believe in more than any other cause?
i believe in a few, but i cant really say i believe in one more than the other
34. What does each decade make you think of:

The 19..

20's: flappers like in great gatsby, stock collapse

30's: depression, rise of hitler

40's: world war II

50's: picket fences, emergence of rock

60's: hippies, drugs, rock n roll

70's: psychadelia, disco, funk

80's: bad hair, bad music (for the most part), ninja turtles

90's: grunge, one hit wonders, my childhood

2000 (so far): september 11th i guess? terrorism, bad presidents

35. Which decade do you feel the most special connection to and why?
thats a dumb question, obviously the 90s its the only one i've lived through
36. What is your favorite oldie/classic rock song?
just what i needed by the cars is really good, build me up buttercup, i dont know i change day to day
37. If you could say any sentence to the president of the USA what would it be?
stop protecting your selfish interests
38. What's your favorite TV channel to watch in the middle of the night?
comedy central i think
39. What Disney villain are you the most like and why?
gustan from beauty and the beast cause i always get the laaaaaadies 8-)
40. Have you ever been a girl scout/boy scout?
eagle scout mothaaaaa
41. If you were traveling to another continent would you rather fly or take a boat?
i would say a boat would be fun, ive already done the airplane thing
42. Why is the sky blue during the day and black at night?
because there is nothing to reflect the ocean
43. What does your name mean?
watcher
44. Would you rather explore the deeps of the ocean or outer space?
ocean, outer space scares me
45. Word association

What is the first word that comes to mind when you see the word:

Air: bud

Meat: ball

Different: strokes

Pink: panther

Deserve: a treat

White:house

Elvis: presley

Cilantro: viagra

Heart: attack

Clash: london calling

Pulp: bloody

46. If you could meet any person who is dead and famous who would you want it to be?
maybe che guevara, i'd like to talk to him, also gandhi, ben franklin, bob marley,
47. What if you could meet anyone alive and famous?
eddie vedder, jack johnson, adam duritz
48. Is there a movie that you love so much you could watch it everyday?
super troopers probably
49. You are going to be stuck alone in an elevator for a week. What do you bring to do?
guitar, maybe make some songs up

shaving cream, razor, soap, shampoo, face cream, comb, toothbrush, toothpaste, deoderant, asprin, sleeping pills, band aids, allergy medicine, shirts, tshirts, jacket, pants, shorts, bathing suit, flip flops, glasses, contacts, contact solution, shoes, sneakers, running shoes, roller blades, street hockey stick, sheets, matress pad, comforter, pillow, bed rest, computer, printer, picture frame, posters, sticky tack, trash can, black light, desk pamp, whit eboard, pens, pencils, highlighters, notebooks, stapler, printer paper, tape, paper clips, guitar, DVD's, CD's, fridge. am i missing anything?

im waiting til 10am so i can get pearl jam tickets for when they come to boston in september:-D

i figured i would update to let everyone know whats up. ill make it short.

basically, since last thursday, i havent felt like myself at all. i went to the emergency room friday night, and they said everything looked ok. monday i had my wisdom teeth out and that caused me a lot of anxiety as well. i went to the doctors yesterday to get checked out cause i still wasn't feeling well but he said everything looked ok, and that i will be fine. despite this reassurance i am still worried about my health and having trouble thinking about other things. its sort of a personal issue, but i just want to let you whats up, and why i havent been around alot. my doctor says if i still dont feel alright by next week he would prescribe me to a short term dose of prozac.

i feel like this is all onset by anxiety about my health, and possibly school. most likely it is. but i am sick of feeling weird. i just want to be myself again. its been hard to get through every day because i am just worrying almost constantly about my health. i dont want to scare anyone though, because ive been checked out twice and both times the doctors have said i look fine, as i previously stated. its just hard, i wish i could have an explaination to all this...