Beast

WOOHOOOO!!!!! I've finally accomplish my goal of getting my first job( at a very old age *cough24cough*). I really wasn't that nervous since I know and seen things go around in restaurants and such. I started working on Oct 28,2013 at 2pm at Cozy Burger Town in Decatur, GA. My boss is really cool and sweet; I've learned so much today. I'm pretty much getting adapted on how it's going on now since I just started working today though, aha. So today, I've started to watch on of my employees on how to order and work the register. There were so many things to remember quickly, I'm going to try my best. After that, I have helped with the cleaning(floors, counters, tables, and dishes), filling the mustard and ketchup bottles, organizing the condiments, and picking up calls to replace orders. For my first day, it wasn't so bad at all, I am tired especially my feet. However, I'm ready to go back again and to learn more. I've already learned how to turn off the lights and set the alarm whenever it's closing time. Getting off at work at night can be dangerous for me, even though I hate to wait for my rides. I'll just have to take the bus, one way to get to the bus stop is to cross the streetway and go walk between the DeKalb Medical Center. I need pepper spray for my protection, aha. Anyways, I'm building up my workmanship hopefully to land a better job in the future, or now I'll be focusing on school and work.

Time to get to bed, have to wake up and catch the bus for work. Laters.

Meme,

Hello, it's been a week since my last entry, I just want to sleep right now.

Nothing new happened today, I have been calling jobs to see if they're hiring, and all they will keep saying is "We're just accepting applications
for now," blah blah. Ugh, I need to move out of here so much; I am actually tired of staying here too much. I need to be on my own. I need
my own personal space because as of now, I have to keep all my food and snacks in my own room in my house. Also, my mom's boyfriend
has some type of short temper, hopefully not some full rage, but he keeps getting upset recently. For instance, couple days ago my mom talked to me in the kitchen, and she said I need to respect him and welcome him into this house. I really don't know what I did, but she said that I gave him an attitude at him and I knocked on the door to let him know that my mom called for him. He thought I had an attitude towards when I clearly didn't; he must've mistaken it as my personality because that wasn't no attitude. But it looks like he got upset about it and whine at my mom about it, I mean I am welcoming him into my home and respecting him. I don't know what this man whats, so I barely talk to him since I just stay in my room all day. He's here for my mother, and he doesn't need to impress me or become my father figure. I grew up without a dad, and I can still manage my life without a father, too. I just want my mother to be happy and to stay happy for eternity, even though she'll have to get old and pass away someday, but I just want my mom to finally enjoy her moments with a man that she loves. I don't want to interfere with that, either. As of now, I'm just going to keep applying for jobs and calling them; furthermore, I can finally save up and move out. I'm about to turn 24 this year, gosh, wow, that's pretty old to stay here. However, I know I am not the only one. I just need confidence within myself, and that I can have a more optimistic kind of life.

Well, I need to take a shower. Byyyyyyeeeeeeeeeee xD

P.S. I've been watching The Most Popular Girls In School lately and Brittany is my favorite character, and I can't wait for season 2 this year. ^^

Well, I need some place to write, and that I should start writing more. I need to keep practicing on my writing/typing, so I'll just update
here with big or small journals. 

Lets see, I've been in college for awhile, last semester, took two classes. Sadly, I didn't pass two of them; therefore, I am suspended
from school for a whole year. It sucks because I have nothing else better to do with my life, I am looking for a job. But it's just going in 
circles for me to keep looking and looking and I am getting tired of it. I need to be productive this year though; I am exercising, a little, but
I am not eating a lot more healthier. I am limiting junk food though, and fast food. I just need to keep myself motivated and look at a positive outlook with ending results. 

What else, well, my mom met this Asian guy online. She's really happy that she's finally settling down and in love, I am happy for her. My mom visited him last year in Dec. in Pittsburgh where he's from. I thought that would be it for now, you know. Just a little visit, then keep talking on the phone because she had been talking to him for 2 months. When she told me that he'll be moving in with us, it was kinda sudden for me but not for her, she's in love and he loves her, too. So the day came when he finally moved in on Jan 8, 2013, its very awkward having another person here, and unsettling. I like change but then again I don't. His name is Michael, and he has a dog, White Highlander, male, when the dog first arrived here in the house. It pooped on our carpet, I was like, ughhhhh, but I guess the dog was holding it for so long during the air flight. Michael is an okay person for me, but he's just so up forwarded and blunt. Like today, I was looking for my green coca cola cup in the cupboard. I was wondering where it went since I didn't used it yesterday or today. I just walked upstairs to see if he has, so he does, but then he gets all pissy about me accusing him for using MY cup. He said there was no name on it, I'm like seriously, are you serious. I was like forget it and said sorry, quickly. Then he knocks on my door to say that it was pathetic to accuse him of ridiculous cup, and he said he'll wash so I can have my cup back, sarcastically. I was like, you just made me not like you that much anymore, I see will have a few problems towards each other. I shouldn't be here in the first place. I should be living on my own, independently. However, I'm still living with my mother and now her "boyfriend." I'm bored, and I'm like stuck in my own my room, it feels like my house is not my home anymore. When he first arrived here, everything I knew will change quickly. I'm trying to adapt to this new living household with him and his dog, but I just don't want another deja vu moment with one of her boyfriends' whom neglects me. I won't let any man bring me down or my mother. I know it's selfish of me, but I just want it to be my mother and I, forever. OTL

Well, this is it for now, I'll update often, at least, everyday. 

Bye, Meme. 

 hey well I don't feel good I've been coughing all day and yesterday >.< ugh its bugging 
the heck outta me D; 

well I'm going to post a few icons later ^^


*still coughing right now*

well I'll be making more Hyunseung,Junhyung & Dongwoon icons ^^

xoxo Meme

hey wassup this is my birthday banner for Jang Hyunseung

the amazing dancing machine keke <3 love ya


xoxo Meme

 



Hey came back to post siggys this time nothing special at all keke



as for the leader sig I couldn't find a good color photo but if I do I'll remake the siggy 
and repost it then again




xoxo Meme~

 I don't have much to say but I'm back with more icons so yeah







I'll come back with more 


xoxo Meme

 Well hello there haven't update my journal for awhile now 


well I went to the aquarium today and what can I say it was magnificent
I saw all sorts of fishes and big fishes aha my mom was scared to walk
up the glass to see sharks (cause that's her fear) but it was awesome
I had a great time today and it was nice weather sprinkle with some showers
with breezy winds keke

but after we left the aquarium me & my mom was trying to find this restaurant
called "Varsity"  that we saw on Food Network and we were lost aha took the wrong
street so we gave up...saw a sign says "Zoo Atlanta" we wanted to see want it looks
like so we can go next month and where was it located and wow it's nice; there's
a huge park next to the zoo I mean huge O_O aha 

After we left to get back on the highway and try to find a restaurant where to eat at..
there's was a red suv who possibly had a flat tire or I guess that's what happen...it 
blew out (I heard popping sounds) and the suv spin around & went straight to the
far left and hit the curb...I never seen a close eye witness accident before in my life
and I might say I was scared O_O I thought we were gonna be in a collision I swear
I thought the other car will then hit the suv and move to us :O but thank god it didn't 
happen :D I mean this day went from exciting to most panicking day >____<

but we did find a place to eat afterwards keke went to iHop and oh my goodness I love
their pancakes yum yum :P

ok well that's it for now ttyl ^^




xoxo Meme

 my first attempt to make a gif and it came out slow 
I want it faster like from the actual video D;




blehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

xoxo Meme