..:A LoOk InTo My EyEs:..

i'm bringing livejournal back.


YUP!..


haha, not.
who uses livejournal anymore anyway.

so, i never use this thing anymore.. lol
i didn't know that people still did.

Okay, so most of you already know that I recently lost one of my best friends.. Jennifer Kay Bleich. It's probably the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with... well, i KNOW its the hardest thing ive ever had to deal with. Her and I were inseperable from 4th grade.. we have so many memories together. I stayed at her house for weeks on end without going home.. I never wanted to leave! Her visitation is tomorrow from 2-4 and 6-9.. and her funeral is thursday at 11am. It's going to be so hard to deal with. I don't know what the outcome will be. We'll see how that goes. The rumor is that she commited suicide... honestly, I dont believe that for one second. I have a feeling as to what happened but i will keep my opinion to myself until investigation is over with. I just want everybody to keep Jeni's family as well as I in your prayers.. thank you!

Other than the loss.. ive been working every single day. Ive been getting about 30 hours a week which is quite a few for me.. lol. I like it there though, alot of the customers are big sweethearts. and I love the people i work with.. we have fun. lots of laughs and messing around.

Brian and I are going on 6 months already.. that's half of a year guys! lol. I love him way too much.

Well...that's all for now. I'm getting sick with a headcold and i want to get some rest.

Life has has it's ups and downs lately.
I've been missing alot of my friends. but oh well, i'm starting to realize who my true friends are and i'm thankful for them.

I'll just quick fill you in on the most eventful days of the past few weeks..

I went and seen Sugarland at summer celebration with Katie, RayRay and Chrissy. and then I ended up meeting up with my boyfriend, his mom & her friends there. I love sugarland. and my boyfriend, of course. :) and this past Friday.. Katie, Chrissy, Rose & her brother went to see Miranda Lambert.. I love Miranda Lambert so much and she was great in concert. That was a very close second to the Kenny Chesney concert.. but, Kenny was definitely number one.

Tonight was pretty fun. I went to the fair with Katie & RayRay. I got to pet horses and stuff. :) After that, I came home and Emily met me here.. we went to walmart real quick & then went out for ice cream. I got to see Brian for a few minutes after that. And then I ended up going to bdubs with Tillie, Kimmi, Jenna & her boyfriend. After we talked forever there, we headed back to Kimmi's (minus jenna's boyfriend, plus val) and watched "She's the man".. hahaha, probably one of the funniest movies ever.. it was dope. I loved it.

Last sunday was Tillie's benefit. That was really successful i'd have to say. I had alot of fun there.. I seen alot of people that I missed and loveeeee! :) I love tillie so much and i'm so thankful to see her doing so well! God is great.

Alot more has been going on, but those are the most eventful things that I can think of right now.

Brian and I are going on 4 months already. Everybody thinks we've been going out longer than that, but we haven't lol. It seems like along time to me.. time flew. We're still going strong though, we barely ever fight.. and if we do its just dumb stubborn fights that are over in less than an hour. I really love him! :)

Other than that, i've been job hunting.. I applied at seriously so many places.. nobody wants me. lol.. so if anybody knows of anybody else that is hiring, let me know, id appreciate it. :)

ooooook, my next post will have tons of pictures (whenever I get around to doing it).. so look forward to that.. or something. lol

The past two nights were probably the most relaxing/fun nights ive had in along time.

Thursday night i went to hesperia to camp, Jason and I fished.. and sat by the fire all night. I left at 6am because i was freezing and couldn't sleep very good. I went to Brian's at 7am when I got back into muskegon and surprised him. then i came home, stayed up until noon and then slept until 5:30. I went and picked up brian and headed back up there. Adam, Kelly, Kristy, Mike & Jason were there. we played some badmitten and some bacce at the cabin.. im basically a pro bacce player. lol. then we headed back up to the lake, started a fire, jason brian and i went out for a boat ride, i tried fishing.. no luck. went back and made smores and talked all night. kelly, kristy & mike left around midnight. we stayed until 3am just talking to adam and jason. headed home, and now its 4:30am :) i loved it. my family is the stuff. :) oh; i hit a kitty on the way home.. i seriously about cried. brian was making fun of me for being so upset.. but ahh :( poor thing. i killed him. i hate myself. ahaha

okay, thats it. i'm loving life alot lately!
please call me, friends. ♥

Welp, I never update. I really think ive given up on livejournal completely, although i still read everybody elses updates.

I've been up to the same ol same ol. I hang out with Brian almost everyday.. we hang out with our friends every once and while. This week we went to bdubs with Ashley, Chris, Lora & Chris. Then we went bowling afterwords, that was a good time. I seen quite a few people that i havent seen in a while. We went to summer celebration a couple times, including tonight. Tonight was great.. everybody was there. jawor, jenn, katie, heather, uncle marty, bobbi, rose, jordan, kenny, jaret, etc... it was fun. Seen my nikki there :) missed her. shinedown and trapt were pretty good, i barely listened to any of it tho. ahaha.

Today is the 4th of july. also, brian and i's 3 months. we have a few things we can do, we havent decided exactly what we are going to do though. hopefully it's fun!

that's it basically. i'd love to hang out with any of you, so give me a call. i'm sure most of you have my number, and if you dont.. ask me. i miss alot of you! dont be afraid to call :]

love you guys! ♥

Friday, I went to the Kenny Chesney concert.
it was by far the best concert ive ever been too.
and they played every single song i wanted to hear.
They surprised us and uncle kracker was there too. eep.
Brian and i got seated next to the funniest drunk guys ever. they made the entire concert 10x more fun. dancing, singing our lungs out, screaming.. it was such a great time!
the ride there was ridiculous. traffic was terrible.
we couldn't figure out which parking garage we parked in afterwords.
and we got lost on the way home [good thing i know GR pretty good].
BUT, i enjoyed every second of it! roaming around GR was great. :]
and i love brian, katie, jenn, heather & kyle. i'll have pictures later. ♥

i never update. i apologize. [hahahaha jordan!]

i've been keeping busy.

saturday night i was at brian's with jenn, jawor, heather, katie, rose, uncle marty, jordan & benkert. we had ourselves some good times & some good laughs. uncle marty & jordan serenated me with "you are so beautiful".. jenn and i about peed from laughing so hard. we couldn't find a decent party. and we didn't feel like going to the powerlines, so we all got into pj's and chilled at bri's. jenn, heather, bri & i went out for breakfast at about 5am. and then went back to his house & slept until about 8 and then i went home.

sunday was church, that was amazing. and then i napped after church & watched greys anatomy and went back to sleep.

yesterday i was incredibly sick. but, i went to work.. and then i went to the prayer service, the hym band was playing. i'm so thankful for my new friends. [or old friends that became close] amy, kimmi, tillie, amy.. i loooove you girls! after the prayer service i took off to brian's house and picked up him & uncle marty and took them to marble slab. ive never seen anybody be so sexual with an ice cream cone LOL.. uncle marty makes me laugh so hard. "crimp my ride" and then i went back to bri's house and FINALLY met his mom. i love her guts already. i went home at midnight last night & went straight to bed.. i was tiiiiiired!

and today i'm doing homework, i have work at 5, and then i'm going to the drivein's with bri, jawor & jenn. eep! i'm super excited... i love those three!! thursday is bri & i's monther, i have NO clue what he has planned for us.. but i have an idea.. he's too good to me! :]

life is dope right now. couldn't get any better.

i got tagged.

here's a few random facts:

1. sometimes i make excuses to not hang out.. because i just want to sit home and be lazy. haha
2. i enjoy guy type things MORE than girl type things. [example: fishing, hunting, camping, etc]
3. i would wear sweatpants everyday of my life if i could.
4. i'm a very impatient person.
5. i don't like cats very much, but i love mine.
6. i don't open up to people very good. i only trust 3 people completely.
7. i have very low self-esteem and i get jealous very easy.
8. if somebody at a store charged me more than the price was.. i wouldnt throw a fit and point it out, id just pay it and leave.
9. i love laughing so hard that your back and sides hurt and then it feels like you're coughing up a lung for the next two hours
10. i almost died from the chicken pox
11. i have the best family in the entire world!! [truth]
12. sleeping is probably my favorite thing to do. ever.

I TAG:
whoever the heck wants to do this.

i can't wait to drive to and around hesperia with my brother, cousins & close friends of our family blasting country music with the windows down. and then camping with them on the lake.. and roasting marshmallows to make smores & hotdogs.. wearing nothing but sweatpants, pj pants & hoodies. and waking up early to get breakfast & go tubing all day on the river.. and fishing when it starts to get dark. and bringing bear [black lab] up there & taking him swimming in the lake.. or to the dam. i love it. i love my family.