...I'm going to take the oppurtunity to speak plainly and 'publicly' about what's running through my head. It's a very scary place to live day in and day out. Trust me, you wouldn't like it here.
I have a work in progress. Yup. It's a progressing piece of work. Obvious girl is obvious.
I finally got YouTube to keep the dang audio on, even if it does sound like crap and a lot of little details are lost in the sucky quality that is the internet. But hey, baby steps. Right?
So, I've been working for a while on this old sketch I drew and inked with a blue pen... It's kind of neat because if you flip it one way, Wolf is smiling. If you flip it the other, he looks rather melancholic. A bit of a Mona Lisa smile.
It's still a WIP, but I just feel like showing it off! (Currently, it's on black so I can see all the lines and such, to make sure I've erased all the extra colours. The final will NOT be on black, I assure you.) Also, please ignore the scrap layer, especially the blindingly bright yellow blob. It's there to give me a general idea of where the hell my light source is. I forget these things sometimes...
So there it is! Please full view, and if you're really nice... Click the Download link. It's a massive file (for me), and the full view is only about 50% zoomed in. Wolfram's eye and, oddly, his crotch look really great zoomed in on. That sounds really odd....
On an entirely unrelated note, I have a cold. And I missed work yesterday completely by accident. All my credibility has been squashed. Woo-hoo! At least these little things in life exist to boost my mood. Thank you, Yuuri, for losing your silly little hand.
I've been working a lot. As in, I was only scheduled for fifteen hours this week, but I've nearly doubled my hours. In a sense, this is a good thing. I desperately need the money. (Hooray for literal poverty! XD ) On the other hand, I'm also very tired and getting sick.
Despite exhaustion, I find I can never fall asleep before four in the morning. So I have at least another seven hours to go of this mind-numbing boredom. I also feel extremely restless these days. I hope it's just me being tired, because the last time I felt this, in January, I was slapped in the face by Major De-pre-ssion. Yeah, you know, the kind that renders you useless and huddled in the corner of your bed for days on end. It makes no sense and seems so fake until you live it. That is my Life Lesson of the year. It also sucks for school. No, I did not attend classes. Yes, I flunked for the first time in my life.
So you can see how I might be feeling nervous about this... anxiousness?
I've been trying to write to keep everything at bay and to fill up the space between waking, work, and sleep. Meh.
On another note entirely... Mika is coming to Seattle October 26th. :D I so want to be there. I haven't seen him since my 19th birthday (and the day I last updated Earning). I'm so excited for this I could piddle. Eheheheeee...
Good things have happened, I guess. I got a job, I started paying off my ER bill (o.o), and I'm writing and drawing again. AAH! Creativity, I have missed you so!
Bad thing, my ... beta, in a loose sense of the word, is very busy these days, and I feel stuck without her feedback on what I've written so far. It's funny how little you realize you depend on someone's feedback and guidance until you don't have it. And then you wonder if that page you wrote reads like stinky poo, or if it instead is a masterpiece. I am thus in writer's limbo on this chapter of The Earning. (On another note, if any poor sap wants to take pity on me--and in effect get a preview of the next chapter--by helping me unstick myself, I would luv you. I would draw you art. I would maybe even build you a shrine.)
I just saw this scan from Portrait of a Demon King (love that site so hard!!), and all I could do was giggle and say, "I wrote a story about that. Ehee..." I'm glad my description of the shirt (which I had no clue what it looked like beneath that jacket at the time) was not far off!
Do you think anyone would mind if I rewrote "Earning?" ^^;;
I don't know. I know where I want to go with the story, but I think back on the rest of it and cringe with embarassment sometimes. It makes it harder to write the last two chapters. (That, and there are so many ways I want to begin this new one, I can't chose which is best!) It's been forever since I've updated, partially due to a sudden and incapacitating depression. I'm on meds now, though, so whee! No, really now, I feel bad for taking so long. I haven't written... anything, really. And I do want to get back in the swing of things, but after a year, I feel I could revamp the story so it's less... immature? I don't know... But there are so many people watching it, and who have favourited it, I'd feel like I was letting them down because they obviously like how it is now. At least well enough to keep it under radar. :/
Aaagh, I need me some guidance.
Oh, wait a minute. Could this be my first journal entry?? Why, yes! It is!! Happy day!! Well, wasn't this fun?
aggravated
sick
lazy
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