Just call me Alyssa-Willy...

holy crap. I hardly update this thing, but that's because I'm living a busy life. Christmas was eh, got some good stuff I suppose. Been working like a maniac, but thats good too I suppose. New Years Eve was KILLER. Hung out @ RIT with awesome people, drank entirely too much, did some naughty things, randomly made out with someone...the usual night. Ahahaha. It's been fun hanging with Mike, Katie (on break from school in WALES), Erica & David, Dannis, etc etc. It's nice to see them all. Got really drunk @ the Neighborhood Christmas party. Jeremy and this kid Kevin drew all over me with markers. Ehhhh. Last night a bunch of us girls [Dannis, Kate, Lydia, Annie] went to dinner @ Parker's. Good times. Then they played pool for a whiles after and we all just had a great time laughing, catching up etc...Amy showed up which was fun! She always livens it up. Then I met Brandon. Ahaha. I was just hanging out, watching them play pool, and this guy comes over to me and starts hitting on me. Totally awesome. Holy Shit. lol! He told me that he wanted to get a call from me while he was refilling his beer, so I obliged and took his number. A rather cute and not tacky way to ask for my number at all. I liked it. SO, who knows where this will go. But he's a cute guy, nice enough last night, sweet. Let's see if he calls me tonight :)

I'm making dinner, so I think I'll go start on that. Love to you if you read this!

Men are scum. Well, at least the last two I've been with are scum. JJ is scum because of his lack of intelligence and emotion. Sometimes he was as dumb as a rock, and then just couldnt understand me. Yes, I'm constantly in emotional overdrive, so you'd think he'd pick up on even the SLIGHTEST hint that I was upset, happy, loving, wanting him, etc. But no. He didnt/couldnt/wouldnt. But, now I've moved past him.

And I thought I stumbled upon a GREAT guy, I mean...he was everything I was looking for. He came on a little strong, but...it was nice actually. He found me via MySpace, which was kind of weird. I'm definetely not one to meet strange men off the internet, but he was adament, and I caved. Plus I was wicked drunk. After talking to him on the phone for 3 days, and feeling like I knew him for at LEAST 3 years...I wanted to meet him. Not quite as bad as he wanted to meet me, buuut I still wanted it. He's from Greece, and 21...so it was do able. Well, when he came to Keuka, and I was trashed beyond belief...It probably wasn't the best first impression.

Stuff happened, and I didn't expect a proposal on Sunday....but when he left my room @ 4:30 Sunday morning, and he kissed me Good bye, I expected at least a phone call.

Unfortunately, it's not meant to be. And he's scum. He probably can't help that he sucks, it just happens to some people. And in addition to being scum/sucking @ life, he's an amazing sweet talker. I really started liking him (which had nothing to do with ... 2:30-4:30am)

And then MICHAEL has the nerve to say things like "oh, moving on to another man huh? I couldn't satisfy you?" and then in response to me saying that alot happened w/ Chris after barely knowing him, Michael says "Well, I've known you for 3 years...". Implying...whatever you want to imagine. And I just want to FREAK, I mean come ON. I waited around for him! I wanted him! But, you know...God forbid I see other people. We never were comitted to anything. So if it bothers him, then GOOD.

And so now, I sit wondering what the hell is wrong with me. And as I keep thinking, I just have to admit.

It's NOT me, it's them! I'm AMAZING. And they? They are just simply scum.

I've been sooo busy, that's why I haven't updated this dang thing in almost a month. This is what my life is all about right now: T- 3ish days of this semester...no class tomorrow, last day on friday, monday two finals, I'm a MySpace fiend, I'm dirt poor, Christmas is coming! I'm 1/3 of the way done with shopping, I have a huge project/presentation due shortly, all I've been doing is stuff for STEP- but having alot of fun with the team, I've been reflecting back on this semester and i've grown loads, JJ is in the past, CHRISTOPHER is in the future (lets hope), I havent been home in weeks, and that's just fine, I miss my kitten oodles, i looove my friends here @ keuka, Kait is leaving us, I also miss my little Lou Lou bunny, I want alcohol in the worst way...but again with the poor thing ehhhhh, I saw many random people at the mall on saturday, Katie McCullough is coming home soon, I'm going to a Bon Jovi concert in NJ!, I've signed my life away to the Red Cross, I hope i do decently in Philosophy, I hate snow, family + holidays= crying, I miss Michael alot, I love Erica and David and cant wait to see them soon, Nikki went to the hospital but is OK!, i drink Snapple Peach tea like ITS MY JOB, I'm recently an insomniac, i waste time like whoa, I think I will miss school, i want to go to NYC over break, I neeeeed some good New Years plans baby, and I briefly mentioned him, but I think I'm going to meet someone off the internet, CHRIS.

And that's all I got.

Justin definetely only went to Marion senior year- not all 13 like me! Yet, it's funny and mostly true!




you no that u r from marion if u...


1. u no who aunt b is and u either hate her or love her.

2. u usually dont eat school lunch inless they have calzones and then u buy like 3.

3. u were at the game when noah threw it off that kids back.

4. u think mr. molisani is a dick unless u r ryan hehehe

5. u bought beer from the guy with all the tattoos that works at the gas station.

6. u were in 6th grade when u got ur first cell phone.

7. u no that u better not say anything about starks teeth

8. u no what a hill party is

9. u have been to more then one hill party even though u never have a good time.

10. u no what kinda car greg barton drives.

11. u have smoked with ryans dad.

12. u have stepped in that swampy shit in my backyard coming to a party.

13. u no when kyle mcClinton is coming over by the sounds of his tires.

14. u prolly have worked on a farm in the summer

15. if u r a guy u have dated a gurl that was way too young for u.

16. u go to burger king b4 school but u really r just going to get high.

17. u were there when whats her face got fingered by like 50 guys at the mardi gras.

18. u have seen eli get drunk and listened to him tell his black jokes.

19. u use to ride ur bike everywhere( and i mean everywhere)

20. u never have been to a school baseball game

21. u thought u were fucked when my 18th bday party got busted 20 minutes in.

22. if u didnt drive u were prolly hiding behind the adriadseens barn.

23. u wish there were still shop parties.

24. u still think goodell fucked trista.

25. u cant wait to get out of marion but when u leave u just want to come back.

26. u have gotten enough people together to have a party by just going to the gas station in the middle of the night.

i cant think of anything else.... oh yeah

u know that i am the fucking man

whoa momma, its been a long time. lots is happening in my world.

boys

jj called and apologized up and down 3 weeks ago. he wants another try, but im kind of skeptical. i told him that he would have to prove to me that he's worth the time and effort, and so far i've experienced nothing amazing. it probably doesn't help that we got into an argument after he called me a "spoiled brat" and then didnt talk to me for a week. whatever i saw in him i think is fizzling out. his fault. who knows where we'd be if he HADN'T DUMPED ME. so, i saw him over the weekend for like 3 seconds and it was really awkward. his dad was there and was really drunk and kept kissing/hugging me and talking to me. and jj just stood there and was touching me and all acting like we were together. yeah right. and he calls and i just dread answering it, but i dont want to be rude and ignore the calls. what am i supposed to do?

 

school

well, this semester is almost OVA. crizzazy. it has absolutely flown right by. i have a few days 'til Thanksgiving break- home on tuesday. then back on sunday and only 2 weeks of classes, and perhaps 1 final. 2 weeks! then i'll be home around the 10th of december. katie comes home on the 17-yay-. step team is crazy fun, im secretary now, so its a little more hectic w/ having to write up minutes. we're trying to set up our fundraiser before break so we can do it when we get back. i set up our community service...going to eastview on the 3rd to wrap gifts, and all money will be donated to the ontario arc! it'll be really fun, we're all looking forward to it. classes are all ok. im kinda worried about philosophy only because we only really have test grades...and mine havent been good...at all. oh well, if i fail it, ill just take it online or something. marketing will be an ok grade, probably C or B-. but public speaking/business writing/music appreciation will all be A's no doubt in my mind. i'd like to raise my GPA from last semester, hopefully that'll happen. its real hard to focus b/c i keep saying that there's only 2 weeks left, even though i have the rest of this week, and the beginning of next week. yay!

everything else

so last weekend /despite the jj drama\ was soooo fun. i went home b/c i wanted to. weekends are boring here. all everyone does is drink like crazy, sleep all day, go to brunch, take a nap, and then drink again. dont get me wrong, i love that, but just not every weekend. so, i went home. my family and i went out to dinner at the chinese place. it was fun. then i went to daves /erica's bf\ apartment and hung out with her while he was @ work. we layed around, colored my hair --as usual-- and just had a good time. when dave came home we sat around and talked the shit. really fun. saturday i hung around my house and cleaned my room. getting it ready for when i come home from break. late in the afternoon i randomly decided to go visit jen @ st john fisher. that was really fun seeing her and the campus. we decided that since nazareth is like 2 secs from there we'd meet up w/ dannis and possibly cody. we ended up meeting dannis and alissa, her room mate, @ Uno's in victor for dinner. it was soooo fun. hannah lawliss was our server too! good times. it was really fun to hang out with her again. we went back to naz to see that campus and to visit cody. a little awkward briefly, but then it was ok. i stepped for dannis, alissa, and jen b/c they wanted to see my "flava and soul". lol. after i dropped jenny off @ st john, i drove to newark and dealt w/ jj, his drunk dad, and mean kathi. finally i just went home b/c i was mad about kathi being mean and the weirdness with jj. a little after midnight, ERICA called me again! yay! she was @ a bar w/ dave and his sister and wanted me to come out...so i did. it was soo fun. i can not wait 'til im 21 and i can actually drink and not hide in the corner of the bar so i dont get kicked out. dave was hilarious and really fun. i loooved when he "gave me the present out of his pocket". little awkward but now that the 'ice is broken' i suppose its all good lol. we went back to his place again and just hung out and laughed at his drunkeness. i love erica and am sooo very happy for her. i cant wait to be in the wedding! lol. >KIDDING< (not really). Erica and I have made plans to see RENT over break, and i'm sure we'll all hang out again. hopefully.

so right now, im just watching Laguna and Making the Band...laying around b/c i have no class tomorrow. im driving home w/ melissa probably to bring lou-lou the bad girl home. that'll be a project. im so lazy. ive been wearing the same keuka sweats all week b/c they're comf and i just got them. i better wash them tomorrow so that i can wear them this weekend. i gotta work 10:30-2 on friday night, then i have Red Cross training alllll day on saturday, then probably drinking. sunday-? not sure. step practice at night, one day of class, step meeting, work, sleep, packing HOME. yesh.

k well this is gonna have to be it for tonight. my fingers hurt (not really) and i wanna lay down.

mmmbye.

"You have four years to be irresponsible here. Relax. Work is for people with jobs. You'll never remember class time, but you'll remember time you wasted hanging out with your friends. So, stay out late. Go out on a Tuesday with your friends when you have a paper due Wednesday. Spend money you don't have. Drink 'til sunrise. The work never ends, but college does..."

 

Thanks Madonna.

some amazing things are going down lately concerning the boy!

after talking to the mind reader tonight, i feel good.




talking to my love, chris joyce!

Allright, so what has been going on @ the Keuka College campus and in my world?

Lots.

The most exciting would be that I talked to Katie. I hadn’t talked to her in over a month, since way before she left for Wales. I had put together a huge care package for her full of candy corn, reeses cups, hugs kisses, cheez-its, some herbs to make a dip she likes, peanut butter, a book on touring historic Britain, pictures, Halloween cards, a CD of pictures and videos, and a calling card. I finally boxed it all up and sent it- to send it was $35. All together, the damn thing cost me probably about $100. REDIC. Especially since she wants me to go to Wales in March for Spring Break. WHICH I WANT TO DO MORE THEN ANYTHING. SO, I’m desperately trying to save my muns, and get my ass abroad. But that package set me back like 3 paychecks since I make $6/hr and work like maybe 8 hrs/week here. It’s redic. But ok ok, the exciting part. So she had emailed me saying that she got a cell phone blah blah. So, I went out and bought an international calling card, and called her last night! OMG I was freaking OUUUUUTTTTT. It was like…9:30ish there, and she was with this kid Matt watching a movie! I just was freaking, b/c like I said, I hadn’t talked to her in a long timesy. She basically is having the TIME of her life, lucky lucky bitch hole. She drinks every night with her friends and is just crazy! She is getting and giving attention to BOYS which I didn’t think was possible for her. She never seemed to care about that kind of thing. Well now, she’s hooking up with this gorgeous guy named Greg (he is, she sent a pic). Luuuuuuuuuuucky! Well, so ok- the highlight was when I made her go and find a boy to put on the phone. I wanted to…NEEEDED to hear the accent. And God almighty, when she put Matt (The Big Huge Rugby Player Who Will Drink Anything…more about him in a sec) on the phone, it was love. LOL. He called me love and darling in one sentence. I am ENAMORED. I told him he had a beautiful accent, and he said “Love, I hate to break it to you, but we both speak English. And…I am English, so you’re the one with the accent!” Which is true, but soooo funny at the same time. Oh boy, I was like “Well, I’m coming to Wales in March, so I’ll see you then…” And he says…”Darling, I love you. We’ll see you then, b’bye.”


OHHHHHHHHHHHH I LOVE THE ENGLISH


And the story about Matt. Well, apparently he’s a huge rugby player, but he is cute, I saw a pic, that will drink anything. When Katie told me this, I’m thinking…like…oh one of those who will drink any kind of liquor or alcohol that is put on the bar. Come to find out, the first night she was there, he was drinking FABRIC SOFTENER. Who does that? And the funniest part is that when she said it, I didn’t really understand her…so I’m like “oh, what is that?!” thinking some cool british drink. She’s like, you idiot, you put it in laundry?! AAAA duh!

So, now I’m :::SERIOUSLY::: looking into leaving Keuka…New York…and AMERICA. Get me OUT of this country! I do love the USofA, and red white and blue, and shopping malls, and only being able to have fun in increments (16, 18, 21), and fried everything, and President Bush…but I want culture. Someone else’s to be more specific. I love Europe and I miss Katie, and I’m figuring that…ok, Dannis left right out of HS and did something AMAZING, Jeremy has traveled there, Mary went, Greg is going next semester, Katie is currently there…WHEN is it my turn? I do not want to waste my youngest and beautiful years staying in one place. When I may be more financially stable I will have commitment like husband and children and job and pet and bills. And right now…I have no money, but I also don’t have all those other things to worry about. As long as I come up with about $1500 by at the latest…January? Then I’ll be set. I need about $1000 for airfare, and then $500 for food, alcohol, a souvenir shot glass, and bus fare. I would also like to study there for a semester, which is going to be interesting working the details out. Keuka is small and behind the times and does not support “studying abroad”. TO do that, I will have to withdraw from the college, and apply to the U of Wales. Once my stint there is done, I will reapply to Keuka and come here to graduate. Maybe. I just want to travel and experience that. And it’s really hard to do when you have no money and basically no job and a love to buy things that are wasteful. Such as: going out to eat, alcohol, tanning, hair, nails, and random shit at random stores that I see. Like the damn cell phone holder I just bought for $5. It is camo, and really cool…BUT DO I NEED IT? Absolutely not. I already have a holder. Why do I need 2? See where I’m going? I’m redic. Maybe if I cry enough over the weekend my Grandma will fund my desires and fantasies. I just need a couple thou for this spring break thing. And then all I really need to study abroad is some help. I have NO idea where I am going to go about getting a Visa, and figure how to take classes there that will transfer back here, etc etc. Ohhhh jesus louises.

So, this is quite long and boring. Not for me, maybe for those who read this ridiculously. I better get back to work and sign people in/out of Harrington. Because my job is awesome, I can do nothing all the time.

I'm getting a little baby. She is adooorable. Her name is Lou-Lou, she has big feet, floppy ears, she's white and she has gray ears/feet/and a nose. She is a little mini lop! SO cute. I can't wait. Kathi is giving her to me because Lou-Lou is messy (meaning housebroken) but I dont care!!! Hopefully I can get her this weekend. Maybe I'll even risk bringing her to SCHOOL. Maybe.

In other news- Katie Mc and I are planning this big trip-o-la. We're going to see Bon Jovi [ :( ] lol, in NJ on december 22nd, and we may be staying with my Aunt, in which case we'll go into NYC too and do Christmas in NY and it'll be great.

Also, I will be going to a Natural Disaster area in January, most likely the Gulf Coast, with the American Red Cross. I will be doing disaster relief and helping out for my field period (a required internship by Keuka). I'm so excited. I'll be gone for abour 21 days, all air fair, lodging, and food is paid for by the Red Cross, and I'll be certified for Disaster Relief for life, so for the next (God forbid) disaster I can just be deployed to help. I really can not wait, it's going to be great. Such great experience, travel, and I'll be DOING something during the 2 months I'm off for school.

What else, what else...I've seen JJ several times since the break up. The first time he completely ignored my presence and didn't say one word to me. I was pissed, but oh well. The second time we chatted briefly, but not about anything important. And then the third time, this past saturday, I saw him and went up to him and started a casual friendly conversation. It was ok until he told me a little story. He was telling me that the night before, he got really drunk at a bar. He was with this girl Suprina (thats really how she spells it) who has like 2 teeth and 2 kids. When he and I were together, she caused alot of issues between us and probably had something to do with the break up. Ok, so he's telling me that he got really drunk and apparently made out with her. I just stood there and looked at him, like WTF? SO I said..."good story" and walked away from him and left. lol- what an ass. but whatever. People are telling me that he's trying to make me jealous...but WHY? He dumped me. Looooser.


Ok, thats the brief update. School, friends, life is pretty good. Hope all is well for everyone else too.


nighty