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Revive!

Revive ye journal!

Summer is coming up. I'm working. It's going to be three years since I started living in the US. I'm still not fat.
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Destroying the fountain

It's been a while since the last update. Shoutout to spacemonkey2004 for convincing me to do this one.

So, ever played dota? Ever got near the enemy fountain and got sprayed with fire? Ever attacked back before you died? Ever noticed that you can actually damage it a little? Ever wondered whether it's possible to destroy it? Well, wonder no more. Yours truly has devised an evil scheme and destroyed the fountain!

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Now, who's you daddy? :D

I also did some farming with me chicken!

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I'm not sure if more than one radiance stack, but whatever:)
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Minds of Ugly Girls

Why do some girls think that if they get me to help them with something I'll like them? They are like, "Oh he's cute but he doesn't seem interested in me. Hmm, maybe if I get him to do this thing for me for free he will start loving me?". Wtf? This is like the fourth time this year. Maybe if they offered to do something for me, or do something with me it would make a little bit sense.
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Aikido

Now I'm a member of the St. Louis Ki Society. After the 6 weeks of beginner classes I attended my first session this Monday. It was pretty entertaining.

Richard and Jamie left town this morning, we went out with them for the last time last night. We went to Double D's to make Jamie and other girls enjoy some kareoke, but there was live music going on that night instead. After the guy leaved the stage we asked them if they could set up the kareoke and we had some fun. I sang give it away by RHCP:)

At the end of the night Richard inherited to Fritts his secret for being popular. "humor by disdain". Cocky and funny! Damn.
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back on track

I've been back in St. Louis since this Sunday night. Jet lag is not as it used to be anymore, I think I've fried some parts of my brain in the meantime. But still some jetlag remains, enough to put me to sleep at 10 and let me go jogging in the morning.
Jogging early in the morning is great! I used to run as much as I could before, now I am running just enough to get the blood flow and till I sweat a little. This way I don't get tired and the rest of the day goes great because I feel energetic instead of lazy. Highly recommended! I hope I can keep this up.
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Work and stuff

Finally the exams are over. Although I haven't completely finished one of my class projects, I am planning to work on it in time and do something impressive. Now that I feel less obligation in my life and had a great night with my girlfriend who went to another state, it's time to re-evaluate my life.

I've been working from home most of the time this year. There were a lot of days that it was extremely productive, especially last semester and beginning of this semester. But then I got tired and I definitely needed a vacation. I also got demoralized because of the misunderstanding we had with a professor about my grade in one of the classes. Then I got less and less productive everyday, sometimes just falling asleep when I needed to work. I felt like I should go to the lab and work there, being in the lab can be distractive, but at least it gives me some kind of an obligation to work when I don't have much motivation. But I just couldn't go to the lab. Most of the time I would work late at home instead of working at daytime, which would make me wake up late, which would make me feel there is no point on going to the lab this late. A feedback loop that would kill me.
If I get up early and make my ass somehow to the lab however much I drag my feet, I think I'll be OK. But the key ingredient is to wake up early and not being sleepy, which can only be achieved by sleeping early enough.
From today on, the latest I'll sleep will be 2 and the latest I wake up will be 9:30. I'll wash my face with the face cleaner which wakes you up by hurting your face, I'll shave, I'll take a shower, dry up, dress up and bike to school.

Again the key ingredient is getting enough sleep. Most of the time I didn't get a good night's sleep lately and I worked on the couch sometimes, most of the time ending up waking up from the sleep that I didn't mean to fall into with a much drowsier head. Sleeping in daytime was really hard for me before, now I taught my body how to do it and it wants more and more when I don't get enough sleep. It's scary. But on the other hand, now I know how to fall asleep better than before and I didn't have problems falling asleep at night, except two nights ago before the final exam. It may be interesting to try an astral projection with this ability sometime when my mind is peaceful. No wonder I didn't have any for a long time, I have been fighting with myself in my head all the time.
Whatever happens I shouldn't stay up too late. If I can put this in order in my life, who knows maybe I can even start to go to the gym in the mornings.

I have a meeting with my adviser in 20 mins. I hope it goes well.
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Update

I'm dating a sweet girl that doesn't have the liberty to bother me all the time since she lives one hour away.
I miss Turkey a little bit.
It's getting hotter here, every day it's harder to work.
I need to get my car serviced.
I need to buy my plane tix.
I need to select which camcorder my uncle should buy.
I need to do research & projects & coursework.
I want a life not overwhelmed with things I need to do.