It's great. Everything is great. I have a new (decent) job where the boss doesn't touch me (unless I want her to), I'm going to college in the fall, and my friends are amazing. I'm so fucking excited to start school. I never thought that would happen. After I dropped out of high school I never really planned on doing anything academic again, but surprise! I'm majoring in psychology and minoring in criminal justice. Fun stuff. After six years of schooling I will graduate with a masters in psychology and I plan to be a criminal psychologist. Andi + motivation= Combustion. I met a new guy. I seem to do that often, but I'm trying real hard this time. I like him a lot and the feelings are mutual. He's 26 and has 1 kid, but he's the sweetest guy. He hasn't been creepy yet, so thats a good sign. Another good sign is that all my friends like him. That never happens. We've been talking for a few weeks and I havent slept with him....It's good, though. We gave a lot of fun together, and he'll watch Law & Order with me all day long....... Dale said Lisa started texting him and asking questions about me....yuck. I'm no longer doing anything that might cause any kind of drama whatsoever, and talking to her would definitely be dramadramadrama. Fuck that.
I accidentally slept with Adrian (Arod) again. Twice....without a condom. Oops. It was the first time we'd seen or talked to each other in months. It just seemed like the thing to do.....it was fun, so whatev.
Last night didnt turn out quite the way I had hoped....my gay boy was being, well, a selfish bitch and blew me off. He also took all my alchohol. ALL of it. I was very sad. My night was, instead, spent watching reruns of Will & Grace, eating mashed potatoes, and listening to a killer mix cd I made yesterday. I enjoyed myself.
New Fuckin A Mix includes the following badass (and some lame) bands: Dresden Dolls Placebo Panic! at the Disco Juliette and the Licks Prodigy The Horrorpops MSI and She Wants Revenge ....you wish you had it, huh?
Today was spent with my gayboi. We burned cd's and ate japanese food. Tonight we are getting wasted off Icehouse and Boones. It'll be great. LIfe is good.
Well, because I have no spine, I am back with Billy. He called and we talked for a bit, then I felt bad and took him back. I also agreed to visit his family with him in Oklahoma. Damn me and my passive nature. We are hanging out tonight around midnight....I guess I will use the 'I'm too tired' bit and duck out early. Or maybe I will just get wasted first so I wont really know whats going on. I'm so lame.
I'm so fucking tired of my family bitching about everything I do. My friends are druggies, I drink too much, I am too lazy, I look trashy, etc. My sister, who doesnt even live here and has never met any of my friends, just gave me a lecture on the people I surround myself with. How can she talk so much shit about people she's never seen? At least if she called ME a druggie she would have some leg to stand on, but my friends shouldnt even be an issue for her. My mom bitched about me not having a job today, but I just quit my job a week ago (which she was very proud of me for, given the circumstances), so I havent had much time to get one yet. She knows I have been driving around this fucking town like crazy, filling out every application I can. I even applied at Maximus...eww. I just dont get it...maybe I'm being dramatic, but every once in a while, all the shit gets to me. It fucking sucks.
My night was spent chain smoking and drinking coffee. I'm starting to stress about not having a job again, since I'm not gonna take that job that Billy offered. There is no way we could comfortably work with each other after a breakup. If only my boss hadnt turned out to be a pervert, life would be grand. My brother-in-law found out what he did and is making his way here to 'kick some dirty, old man ass'. He's a sweetheart.
Last night I was getting ready, for nothing in particulatr, and Martin showed up out of nowhere. We have been friends for a few years, but not close friends, so it was strange that he would show up like that. We also havent spoken much since that last drunken night we had together. Usually hanging out stops when two friends have awkward, sloppy sex with each other, but I guess not with him. We drove around a lot, gave Smitty a ride to Eastside, took Billy to work (I'll write more about him later...), then went to his place. There was no sex this time, but we got really high and he admitted to being attracted to me for quite a while. I was completely taken by suprise. That was followed by awkward mumbling, silence, then a decision to hang out more often and see where it goes. Martin is a nice guy, so why not? Oh yeah...My 'boyfriend' Billy...He is getting a little too controlling for me. I have to hang out with him 24 hours a day. Even if he is sleeping, in the shower, playing video games with Chris, whatever...I have to be right there, I guess so he knows I'm not doing anything he wouldnt approve of. Well, when people treat me like that, then I'm usually pretty good at actually giving them a reason not to trust me. Thats just the way I am. So, I am going to get my shit back from his place and then ignore him till he goes away. I know thats a horrible way to do things, but I cant handle him. He is starting to act the way Lisa did, and I never, EVER want to be in another relationship like that. In conclusion, I am going to start seeing Martin (hopefully we will get over the awkwardness soon) and maybe something will develope out of that. For now, though, its casual and I like that.
Tonight is the only night I have been home in about 3 weeks. It's nice. I usually go to work, then go to Billys right after, then chill there till I have to go to work again. I tried watching television, but since I havent seen anything in so long, I have no idea whats going on, so it was lame. Kat is on her way over. She is pregnant and craving a burrito, so I have been ordered to make one for her. No way I am saying no to a pregnant lady. She found out for sure that it is Taylor's (10 Cent Pistol) baby. At least she knows, right? Kats already ringing my doorball, so I guess i'll answer and try to watch some tv again. adios.
Yesterday Billy, his roomie Chris, and Katrina got the money from my boss that he owed me. It was cool. After Billy went to work, I hung out with Chris at their place until he got off. We watched Hostel and the Chevy Chase X-mas movie, ate pizza, and went to a head shop. It was an alright day. Things are going good, I just cant wait to start work. Sitting around on my ass all day is just not as rewarding as it used to be.
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