Should I choose a noble occupation

I realized it's a lot easier to blog when I'm unhappy or emo.  How sad lol.  I know this time of year everyone feels as though the year has gone by quickly.  However, after spending so many years unhappy I normally did not feel this way.  This year is the happiest I can ever remember being.  I met my soul mate a little over a year ago, and while things are never perfect I am happy.  I've never imagined I could find the perfect person for me, or even someone who challenges me without even knowing it.  But there he was and here we are now.  I've seen him grow so much as a person and he doesn't even realize it.  We have amazing honesty and communication with each other.  That's a huge feat in itself due to our common social awkwardness, yet it works.  I spent the morning with Nate and his Mom opening up gifts since they'll spend Christmas in Tucson.  It just felt perfect, I was thinking what an amazing addition to my life and family.  I love these people and I feel lucky.

There were many things that happened over the year that threw huge hurdles in my life, but I've made it through. 
I wouldn't change a thing.

Waking up at 7am on the weekends is absolutely delicious.  I'm not being sarcastic either.  I just love how quiet the world is this morning.  I sat on my porch drinking coffee, listening to the traffic and birds.  I didn't hear any people and it was nice.  I haven't turned on anything except for my laptop yet today.  I'm even thinking about going for a walk to the grocery store.

There is always so much stewing around in my head.  I never know how to actually get it all out of there.  I fear if everyone actually knew what I was thinking all the time they would question my sanity....

I don't care for roller coasters. I get (e)motion sickness.

unwoman  will be here on September 19th performing at the Can't Stop The Space Pirates event... I'm excited.

Who is this girl?
Mysterious and silent, invading my world

She's been on both sides of envy now
Patience has paid off at last
Knowing not what she now enjoys
Only that her time with you ends too fast

Ooh if only she could see herself
Through your admiring eyes
Ooh if only she understood
How I despise this loss, this competition

She's been on both sides of envy now
Hard work has paid off at last
Knowing not what she now destroys
Only that her time with you ends too fast

Ooh if only I could just ignore
This feeling of rejection, this sorrow
Ooh if only I could see myself
In your arms tomorrow

I've been on both sides of envy now
But I'll win in the end
When your night with her is done
I know you'll be all mine again

Every once in a great my anxiety/stress decides to show itself in the form of hives & lots of itchiness.  Guess what! Today is one of those days.
Now I get to call the doctor and try to explain the last time this happened he prescribed me some medication I've been out of for some time now and hope I don't have to make an appointment to get a refill.

The thing is, I didn't think I was all that stressed out.  I woke up moody since I didn't sleep well last night with too much on the brain.  I read my e-mail and a couple of things start to irritate me.  Nothing out of the ordinary though...

I've been thinking too much about the past, present, and future.  When you try to think/analyze every portion of your life, it's a little overwhelming.
There are certain people who I've allowed to drift out of my life for various reasons that I miss way too much.  I've made decisions recently that are supposed to create better situations, only I feel empty inside.  

I'm always surrounded by people, yet I always feel all alone. /emo

The Dresden Dolls are touring.  It's very limited.  If I had money I would consider going to see them in Texas.  Why? Just because it sounds fun.  Though, I'm not a big fan of Texas.  If you've ever seen The Dresden Dolls perform live you would understand.  There is some magic between Amanda & Brian that is a rare occurrence between performers.

Sigh. I drink too much coffee.

Things are so much better when you don't feel the pressure to label them.  Then someone has to go and talk about it and burst my bubble.
I need to figure this out.

You look so fine
I want to break your heart
And give you mine
You're taking me over

It's so insane
You've got me tethered and chained
I hear your name
And I'm falling over

I'm not like all the other girls
I can't take it like the other girls
I won't share it like the other girls
That you used to know

You look so fine

Knocked down
Cried out
Been down just to find out
I'm through
Bleeding for you

I'm open wide
I want to take you home
We'll waste some time
You're the only one for me

You look so fine
I'm like the desert tonight
Leave her behind
If you want to show me

I'm not like all the other girls
I won't take it like the other girls
I won't fake it like the other girls
That you used to know

You're taking me over
Over and over
I'm falling over
Over and over

You're taking me over
Drown in me one more time
Hide inside me tonight
Do what you want to do
Just pretend happy end
Let me know let it show

Ending with letting go (3x)

Let's pretend, happy end (4x)

To all of my various friends, I <3 you.

Apparently my moonanite was offensive, as it has been removed.  That makes my heart sad.