Ending.
I pretty much gave up on LiveJournal. Before, I had it to post my thoughts, and daily actictivites, and to read about my friends... yet now, the only thing I would ever check it for would be for PostSecret. No one ever posts on here anymore.
So, this is going to be my final LiveJournal post.
I am now 19, and happily in a relationship with a man that I have been with for the past 3 and a half years. I've never met anyone like him, and we have had our multiple ups and downs (guess more "downs then ups"), but as of 8-9-10 we have both been sober from drugs. He means more to me than anything, and we are each others rocks. We both found each other when we weren't in stable states. Went through our partying and fucking up stage, but I think once one of us pulled out of it, so did the other. Now, we are happier than ever, and nothing can stand between us. It is unconditional.
Basically, I don't really have anyone close to me but Carson and my mom anymore. I once had a best friend, and I thought she was my "top notch" for life, but when you witness her talk down about other people whom she hangs out with more then YOU, you pretty much get what is going on. Especially when she said 'said girl annoys her', yet they are hanging out the next day. Makes me wonder what she is saying about me. Which I KNOW she has said somethings, I've heard, And I'm sorry, but that is not a best friend to me. I have never done that. It takes a lot for me to trust, it always has, and I am pretty sure it always will.
I'm glad I still have the people in my life that I know I can count on, and I'm glad I actually know what I want in life, now. I know who I am.
Thus, I'm not faithless.
Some people DONT get it at all. Stop fucking around with your life and enjoy it before its over.
I never really appreciated truely what I had until it was taken from me.
Twice, in two totally various situations.
I don't want to be here.
Within this past month I have experienced every emotion possible.
My stay away from home has seemed so short, now, I am forced to go back to a life that I no longer want. I don't want either life. I'll miss a lot of the people I met, and their personalities just because they are so different. It's going to be so wierd since I am home. Memories here and there, split down the middle.
Time is just a phase, it's what we are going to do with that time that will effect our future.
"Emancipate yourself from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds."
-- Bob Marley
I never really appreciated truely what I had until it was taken from me.
Twice, in two totally various situations.
I don't want to be here.
Within this past month I have experienced every emotion possible.
My stay away from home has seemed so short, now, I am forced to go back to a life that I no longer want. I don't want either life. I'll miss a lot of the people I met, and their personalities just because they are so different. It's going to be so wierd since I am home. Memories here and there, split down the middle.
Time is just a phase, it's what we are going to do with that time that will effect our future.
"Emancipate yourself from mental slavery;
None but ourselves can free our minds."
-- Bob Marley
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Who are YOU to judge the life I live? I know I'm not perfect, and I don't live to be. But, before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean.
walk a mile in my shoes first.
walk a mile in my shoes first.
FRIENDS ONLY